All the Sweet Tomorrows

'No. I want you.' He turned her about, taking her face in his two hands, looking down into her blue-green eyes. 'Doucette, I warn you I will not be denied. I could take you for my mistress and marry some other, but I do not want you for my mistress. I want you for my wife. I have made the decision, and you must abide by it.' He kissed her upturned nose. 'You will be my wife.'

Skye was outraged. I have made the decision, he had said. She took a deep breath. 'Nicolas,' she said calmly, 'it is I who must make the decision as to whether or not to marry you. You will not control me! No man ever has. I am my own mistress. I have always been, and I will always be! If you can understand that then perhaps you will have come a little way toward understanding me. If you learn to understand me then perhaps we shall be friends. I am not so foolish as to deny that we are attracted to one another, but lovers should be friends.'

Nicolas chuckled indulgently, and sweeping her up into his strong arms, he walked across the room to dump her on the bed. Then he stood, legs spread, above her. 'Doucette,' he said, 'how can one so wise be so innocent? No woman is her own mistress, even your own Queen. There is always someone to answer to, else Elizabeth of England would have married her horsemaster. You must answer to England's Queen, and she will give you to me without a second thought. Therefore you must answer to me.' His green eyes twinkled. 'I will expect a proper and obedient wife, Skye.'

She sat up, a look of outrage on her beautiful face. 'A proper and obedient wife?!' She scrambled off the bed on its other side. 'Why, you pompous, arrogant ass of a Frenchman! Answer to you? I’d sooner answer to the Devil himself! Elizabeth Tudor may give me to you as a wife, but you may live to regret it, Nicolas St. Adrian!''

He grinned engagingly at her across the bed, and then flopped down upon the mattress. 'Come to bed, d oucette,' he said in a deceptively bland voice.

'Ohhhhhh!'' she shrieked with frustration. 'I do not believe that you have heard a word that I have said, Nicolas! You are totally and utterly impossible. I will not marry you!” Skye stamped her foot angrily to punctuate the point.

Reaching up, he grasped her arm in an iron grip and yanked her down onto the bed atop him. 'You, you stubborn jade, have not heard a word that I have said! I mean to make you my wife. My God, woman, you behave as if I had made you an indecent proposal!'

'I have had enough of husbands!' she shouted at him. 'It matters not if I fall in love or not, I always lose them too quickly to death, and it's worse when I love them.'

'Then you love me!' he shouted back at her, his face alight with pleasure.

'I hate you! You are arrogant, stubborn, impossible, and totally devoid of understanding!'

'You love me!' His face was just inches from hers.

'No!' She squirmed to escape his grip.

'You love me!' He rolled her over, and she was pinned quite helplessly beneath him.

'Never!' Damn the man, Skye thought.

'You love me' he said softly, and then his mouth was covering hers in a deep and passionate kiss.

She struggled a moment beneath him, and then, realizing the futility of her position, she lay still. She would give him nothing. She had to convince him of her disinterest. She had to convince herself. She liked him. God's foot, it was more than like, but she couldn't, nay she must not give in to her own desires! She was bad luck for husbands, and then there were her children to get back to in England and Ireland.

'Doucette, doucette,' he whispered against her lips, and she shivered. 'Aimes-moi, doucette. Aimes-moi!'

Skye turned her head away from him, feeling quick tears starting to prick her eyelids. 'Oh, you are a bad man, a wicked man,' she said low. 'How can you do this to me, Nicolas? You claim to love me yet you subject me to this terrible torture.'

'I only seek to make you listen to your own heart, Skye,' he answered her, and his hands began to move on her breasts, stroking softly, subtly.

She felt her breasts beginning to swell and grow taut with the sweet desire that he was able to rouse in her. Her nipples were tingling and sensitive, so sensitive that the silk of her night rail felt irritable against them. 'I do not deny you arouse lust in me,' she said in a desperate voice, 'but that is not love!'

'It is a beginning, doucette.' His fingers were carefully undoing the tiny pearl buttons, and when he had bared her to the navel he pushed the fabric of her gown aside and bent to kiss her breasts.

'Don't!' Her voice was ragged. Dear God, she would explode with the wanting.

'Hush, my love,' he said patiently. 'Hush.' Then he was kissing her again, warm and demanding kisses that left her weak and helpless to deny him any longer. She kissed him back with sweet, slow kisses, feeling his firm lips parting, the soft rush of breath from his mouth to hers, the velvet tip of his tongue exploring delicately within that delicious amorous cavern.

His head moved back to her breasts, nuzzling at them, rubbing his rough cheek against their silken skin. He ran his tongue in the valley between the twin perfections and then moved on to teasingly encircle and softly lick at each nipple. A flutter of pleasure rippled through Skye, and she murmured low. Her arm extended to allow her to gently caress the back of his neck. Now it was his turn to murmur as her skillful fingers sent delighted shivers through his big frame.

Skye moved both her hands to his chest and pulled his white silk shirt open, sliding her palms over his smooth skin up to his broad shoulders and down his long arms, pushing the shirt ahead of her. Then she wrapped her arms about his neck and pulled him down to her. As his chest descended upon her breasts and he felt the marvelous soft fullness of her, he groaned. 'Ah, doucette, this is what you were made to do; to love a man, and in turn be loved by one.'

'You talk much about making love, Nicolas,' she teased him, and he chuckled.

'I will make you pay for that insult,' he threatened.

'Will you?' she goaded him. 'What will you do to avenge yourself?'

'Love you until you beg for mercy,' he threatened.

'I never beg for mercy, Nicolas,' she said softly. 'I am used to winning all my battles.'

He laughed at what he believed was her audacity. 'Doucette, you are a woman, and women have no battles. Women are tender creatures, to be delicately nurtured. Women should be protected, loved, and adored. It is the way of the world.'

Skye pushed him away, and unprepared, he rolled onto his back. She sat up and, looking at him, said, 'I think, Nicolas, that you have been too long in your Poitou marsh. Where on earth did you ever get such foolish ideas about women? Your ideas are a hundred, nay two hundred years out of date. In England a queen reigns in her own right. In France a queen mother is the power behind the throne, in fact the real power in France. Women are not mindless ninnies. If I were one, you would not be half as interested in me as you are.

'You know nothing about me, Nicolas St. Adrian, and I know that unless you can accept the kind of woman that I am we shall be very unhappy together. You should not have been so quick to send to England for Elizabeth Tudor's permission to wed me. You may find that you do not like the woman I am, and I shall not change.'