her throat, and she recognized the moment in her eyes.
She spoke for the first time. It was a croak slurred through swollen and gaping lips.
“They warned me.” He thought he had mis-heard her, and he checked the final thrust downwards which would pinch out the last spark of life. “I couldn’t believe it.” The faintest whisper, only just intelligible. “Not you.” Then the last resistance went out of her, her body relaxed, the complete acceptance of death at last. The fierce green light went out in her eyes, replaced at the very end with a sadness so heavy that it seemed to acknowledge the ultimate betrayal of all goodness and trust.
Peter could not force himself to make the final thrust downwards that would end it. He rolled off her and flung the heavy wooden stock across the cockpit. It crashed into the bulkhead and he sobbed as he crawled painfully across the deck, turning his back to her completely,
knowing that she was still alive and therefore still as dangerous as she had ever been yet no longer caring. He had gone as far as he could go. It didn’t matter any more if she killed him; something in him even welcomed the prospect of release.
He reached the rail and tried to drag himself onto his feet,
expecting at any moment the killing blow into the nape of his neck as she attacked him again.
It did not come, and he managed to get onto his knees, but his whole body was trembling violently so that his teeth chattered in his jaws and every strained and bnlised tendon and muscle screamed for surcease. Let her kill me, he thought, it doesn’t matter. Nothing matters now.
Half supporting himself on the rail, he turned slowly and his vision swam and flickered with patches of darkness and little shooting stars of crimson and white flame. Through the swirl of senses at the end of their usefulness, he saw that she was kneeling in the centre of the cockpit, facing him.
Her naked torso was splattered and smeared with his blood and the smooth tanned skin oiled with slippery sweat of near death. Her face was still and swollen and inflamed, wreathed in a great tangle of matted and disordered hair.
There was a flaming livid weal across her throat where the stock had crushed her, and as she fought for breath her small pert breasts lifted and dropped to the painful pumping of her chest.
They stared at each other, far beyond speech, driven to the very frontiers of their existence.
She shook her head, as though trying desperately to deny the horror of it all, and at last she tried to speak; no sound came and she licked her lips and lifted one slim hand to her throat as though to ease the pain of it.
She tried again, and this time she managed one word.
“Why?” He could not reply for fully half a minute, his own throat seemed to have closed, grown together like an old wound.
He knew that he had failed in his duty and yet he could not yet hate himself for it. He formed the words in his own mind, as though he were trying to speak a foreign language, and when he spoke his voice was a stranger’s broken and coarsened by the knowledge of failure.
“I couldn’t do it,” he said.
She shook her head again, and tried to frame the next question.
But she could not articulate it, only one word came out, the same word again.
“Why ?” And he had no answer for her.
She stared at him, then slowly her eyes filled with tears; they ran down her cheeks and hung from her chin like early morning dew on the leaf of the vine.
Slowly she pitched forward onto the deck, and for many seconds he did not have the strength to go to her, and then he lurched across the deck and dropped to his knees beside her; he lifted her upper body in his arms suddenly terrified that he had succeeded after all, that she was dead.
His relief soared above the pain of his battered body as he felt her breathing still sawing through her damaged throat, and as her head rolled against his shoulder he realized that fat oily tears still welled out from between her closed eyelids.
He began to rock her like a child in his arms, a completely useless gesture, and only then did her words begin to make any sense to him.
“They warned me, “she had whispered.
“I couldn’t believe it,” she had said.
“Not you.” He knew then that had she not spoken he would have gone through with it. He would have killed her and weighted her body and dropped it beyond the 1,000-fathom line but the words, although they did not yet make sense, had reached deep into some recess of his mind.
She stiffed against his chest. She said something, it sounded like his name. It roused him to reality. The big Chriscraft was still roaring blindly through the channels and reefs of the outer passage.
He laid her back gently on the deck, and scrambled up the ladder to the flying bridge. The whole of that horrific conflict had taken less than a minute, from his knife-stroke to her collapse under him.
The steering of the Chriscraft was locked into the automatic pilot and the vessel had run straight out through the channel into the open sea. It reinforced his knowledge that she had been ready for his attack. She had been acting that total concentration in steering the vessel, luring him into the attack while the Chriscraft was on automatic pilot and she was ready to throw that backward blow at him.
It did not make sense, not yet. All that he knew was that he had made some terrible miscalculation. He threw out the switch of the automatic steering, and shut down both throttles to the idle position before disengaging the main drive. The diesels bur bled softly, and she rounded up gently into the wind and wallowed beam-on to the short steep blue seas of the open ocean.
Peter took one glance back over the stern. The islands were just a low dark smudge on the horizon, and then he was stumbling back to the ladder.
Magda had dragged herself into a half sit ting: position, but she recoiled swiftly as he came to her an this time he saw fear pass like cloud shadow across her eyes.
“It’s all right,” he told her, his own voice still ragged. Her fear offended him deeply. He did not want her ever to be afraid of him again.
He took her up in his arms, and her body was stiff with uncertainty, like that of a cat picked up against its will, but too sick to resist.
“It’s all right,” he repeated awkwardly, and carried her down into the saloon of the Chriscraft. His own body felt battered as though his very bones were bruised and cracked, but he handled her so tenderly that slowly the resistance went out of her and she melted against him.
He lowered her onto the leather padded bench, but when he tried to straighten up she slid one arm around his neck and restrained him,
clinging to him.
“I left the knife there,” she whispered huskily. “It was a test.”
“Let me get the medicine chest. “He tried to pull away.
“No.” She shook her head and winced at the pain in her throat.
Don’t go away, Peter. Stay with me. I am so afraid.
I was going to kill you if you took the knife. I nearly did.
Oh, Peter, what is happening to us, are we both going mad?” She held him desperately and he sank to his knees on the deck and bowed over her.
“Yes,” he answered her, holding her to his chest. “Yes, we must be going mad. I don’t understand myself or any of it any more.”
“Why did you have to take the knife, Peter? Please you must tell me. Don’t lie, tell me the truth, I have to know why.”
“Because of Melissa-Jane because of what you had done to her.” He felt her jerk in his arms as though he had struck her again. She tried to speak but now her voice was only a croak of despair, and Peter went on to explain it to her.
“When I discovered that you were Caliph, I had to kill you.” She seemed to be gathering herself for some major effort, but then when she spoke it was still in that scratchy broken whisper. “Why did you stop yourself, Peter?”
“Because-” He knew the reason then. Because I
suddenly I knew that I loved you. Nothing else counted.” She gasped and was silent again for nearly a
