“I took a couple swallows of that water and I can feel it sitting right here,” said Dex, moving his trembling hand to his stomach. “It’s like a frozen pond at the bottom of my gut.” In Dex’s lap was the girl he’d saved from the river, who, it turned out, wasn’t a girl but a girl’s doll. She had three faces, and they turned beneath a wig fastened in place: happy, sad, and tired, with her eyes drawn half-closed.
Looking at the doll now, Pres could hardly believe that he hadn’t seen it for what it was. But he’d argued with Claire until late the night before and he was exhausted; his eyes ached in their sockets. The fight had erupted over a present. Their wedding was approaching, and as a gesture of congratulations, Claire’s old boss, Earl Flatt, had offered to use the two of them to make molds for a new pair of background figures at the museum. Pres was excited about the idea.
“It’ll be nice,” he said. “Like a portrait of us made of wax.” They were lying in his bed, cupped together to keep warm. Outside, the tree branches creaked with ice.
“I don’t know. The figures always turn out sort of weird-looking,” said Claire.
“They might come out all right,” said Pres, though he agreed that Flatt often mixed too much fat in the wax, which made the faces look eerily translucent. “I’m sure you’ll look beautiful.”
“I’d feel too guilty,” said Claire. “I don’t think I’m going to go back and work there again in the spring, and Earl puts a lot of effort into those dummies. He sticks in each hair himself with a needle. He orders the glass eyes special from a hospital.”
The wax museum had closed for the winter, and in the meantime Claire was working at a gift shop in town. The shop’s staple was its glass figurines, which the owner, Becca, fashioned in an upstairs workshop; glass men and women in all manner of activity: walking hand in hand, dancing, bowing to one another. Becca had taken a liking to Claire, and was teaching her how to craft the figurines herself. For the time being, she had Claire sculpting glass infants, as they were the simplest figurines the shop sold. Claire’s hours there were surprisingly long; usually she didn’t get home until after dark. It felt to Pres as though they were spending less and less time together every day. He tried to ignore the smell of the torch gas on her skin as they lay in bed.
“It’d be romantic,” Pres said. “We can go back when we’re old and see ourselves when we were just starting out.”
“You have to stick your face in plaster for an hour. Plus, it’s creepy. It’s like having yourself stuffed and mounted.”
“Jesus. You make it sound so morbid. Fine, forget it.”
“No, we can do it if you really want to.”
He turned away from her. “Drop it,” he said, surprised at his own anger. Next to the closet was a box of her clothes. She’d moved some things over in anticipation of their wedding, but it had been sitting there, sealed, for over a week. Just looking at the box made Pres’s face go hot. He thought about Earl, waiting for her to come back to the museum in the spring, standing there on opening morning, smiling, scanning the street for her, checking his watch.
She laughed and pressed herself to him. “Oh, come on, don’t be a grump,” she said.
“Get off,” he said, pushing her away.
“Are you serious?”
“Did you hear me?” he said. “Leave me alone. Get lost!”
She turned away from him. After she fell asleep he moved closer to her, hoping she might find him during the night, but she stayed away and he drifted off alone, staring at the population of lopsided glass babies on the night table.
“My feet are hurting now. They’re coming back.” Dex flexed his toes, which Pres had earlier cut loose from his frozen shoes with a scaling knife. “When my son, you know, Dennis, when he was just five or six, some girl gave him a doll like this one.” Dex turned the doll over in his hands. “For weeks he dragged it with him everywhere.”
Pres had seen photographs of Dennis. He was a large, solid boy with a heavy brow like Dex’s. An image of him came to Pres then: he saw Dennis standing at the edge of a wooded shore, on the rocks leading down from the forest into the water. Dennis wore his fatigues and carried his duffel bag on a sloping shoulder. Behind him, other boys in fatigues wandered through the pines, calling out names. Some were dragging duffel bags on the ground. Dennis peered out across the water at Pres, confused and frightened and wanting to come home.
“It was peaceful,” said Dex. “Being washed along on the current like that.”
“Washed away,” said Pres. “You’re lucky you came to your damn senses.” He took the doll from Dex and tossed it back into the river, where it quickly vanished beneath the dark water. Pres waited to see it sucked over the long fangs of ice hanging from the lip of the falls, but it never reappeared. He wondered if the doll would end up as part of the blue yodel the city was having that winter. A blue yodel was what people called it when a number of fish swam too close to the falls and were swept against the ice piled up at the cusp. The current held the fish there until they froze, and then slowly, as the ice pushed forward, they were rolled over the edge of the falls and worked down through the glassy stalactites in spiraling columns. All sorts of fish hung in the giant icicle closest to Pipe Island: perch and rainbow trout, sturgeon. None of them looked old, or sick. They were large fish with wide red gills. It seemed to Pres that they could have easily escaped the current had they wanted to, but there they were.
He looked at the falls. The afternoon sun had burned off the mist, and Pres saw the cascade of Horseshoe Falls curving toward shore, a bow of light sparkling across its apron. For a moment he could almost imagine how a fish, or a person, might be drawn in, romanced by the sheer rumbling beauty of it. There was something romantic about just offering yourself up like that, about surrendering so fully to magnetism.
He thought of Claire—Claire running her wand through a spout of blue flame and then touching it to the end of a glass pod, teasing out a foot, another foot, then the top of the baby’s head—and he suddenly understood that what had caused his anger the night before was worry. Having the dolls made would be like one more promise to each other that they’d endure. But how many promises did he need from her?
Below the falls, the ice floes had been pounded into a great arched bridge spanning the whole river, and people from town were strolling across this new promenade of brilliant ice. Children sledded from the center down to the bank on either side, and here and there, girls sold hot chocolate and apple cider from propped-up cardboard booths. Pres decided he would take Claire here after work. He’d buy her a candied lemon and tell her he was sorry for acting so ridiculously.
A shadow enveloped the island. Pres looked up and saw a blimp passing overhead, floating in the direction of the baseball field.
“That’s a pretty one,” Pres said. “Some I’m not fond of, but there’s real beauty to that one.”
“Pretty until wartime,” said Dex. But Pres could tell that Dex found the blimp attractive too, with its white fins and silver body. He considered leaving early and going to the festival—he knew Claire would take off work and go with her friends—but then he thought better of it. The baseball field would be crowded and loud. The naval officers had recently begun letting people from the audience climb aboard and tour the insides of the blimps. A few celebrations ago they’d invited a group of men and women up to play tennis on the blimp’s fins. At the most recent, they’d even offered to give a few lucky people short rides over the city.
Pres heard voices from below, and when he glanced down he saw everyone on the ice bridge waving and cheering at the blimp. He turned and waved at it too, until it disappeared behind the trees.
Pres drove on through Arizona. The heat was terrible, the day a clay oven; he could feel his sense of things evaporating inside the car. The land was ringed with all the colors of sunset and the sky showed a deep green. Though the ground around him seemed static, bleached and splintered towns kept sliding past, one after another, and eventually Pres became quite sure that the car, while anchored in one place, was actually dragging the towns to it, reeling in the land’s fabric with its spinning wheels. But the texture of the land was nothing like fabric, he thought. It was pocked and pitted like a fruit skin, and in his mind he was suddenly an ant crawling across the rind of an enormous blood orange. Then he was a tiny crab scurrying across the ocean floor. On all sides lay tremendous
