Small Town Girl

'Eight years with Faith and no wedding ring.'

'By mutual consent.'

'Ahh.' Zzt.

He pointed at her thumbnail on the corner of the catalogue. 'Would you mind not doing that anymore? It bothers me.'

'Oh… sorry.'' She knit her fingers together loosely and rested them beneath her chin, her elegant trademark nails creating a striking contrast to her bill cap and clubbed hair. The room grew silent while she lightly stroked the underside of her chin with one knuckle. Finally she said, 'Must've been hard on Casey, having her mother run away.'

'She got along. My mother was alive then and filled in.'

'But you and Casey are really close-I can tell that.'

'I'd say so.'

'And she's crazy about Faith. She told me so.'

'Boy, you two have talked a lot. What did she tell you about me?'

'That you don't want her to grow up and be like me.'

He said nothing, only watched her steadily, feeling no need to confirm or deny her statement, which she liked.

'It's understandable,' she said. 'The life doesn't leave much time for personal relationships.'

'Meaning what? That you don't have any?'

'Are you asking if I have a boyfriend?'

'Well, you asked me about Faith.'

She considered a moment before deciding she would answer him. 'Yes, I do, as a matter of fact.'

'Live-in or live-out?'

'Live-out. Way out. He's on the road right now, in Texas, and I'm here.'

'And when you're both in Nashville?'

'That's only happened four times since I met him.'

It was unclear why they were setting up boundaries. Perhaps both of them would have denied that's what was happening, but before they had a chance to assess their motives, Casey returned.

'You know what. Dad?' she was saying as she rounded the archway into the kitchen. Whatever she had to say was less important than her physical presence, which brought back their common sense. They kept it light after that and Casey had no idea what they'd been discussing while she was gone. Kenny and Casey left a short while later, and on the back step, Casey gave Tess another of her impulsive hugs.

'Thank you, Mac. You're making all my dreams come true.'

'It's fun for me, too,' Tess said, and it was true. Some who sought to befriend her left little impression at all; others she immediately took for opportunists seeking to use her in whatever way they could. Casey was different. She neither expected help with her career nor asked for it, but her vibrant personality, along with her talent, made it fun to help her anyway. She was a person with whom Tess could laugh and sing beer-drinking songs, and there were few friends like that in Tess's life. She felt closer than ever to the girl as they bade good night.

'See you tomorrow.'

As Casey walked away with her father Tess saw, against the distant porch lights, that the two were holding hands. When they were halfway to the alley she could hear the murmur of their voices, but no distinct words. She figured relatively few teenagers held their parent's hand anymore. Would she herself have done so at seventeen? Not likely. But something within her was renewed watching them walk away.

As they walked home, Casey was saying, 'Do you see how nice she is?'

'I'll have to admit, she's very nice to you.'

'She was nice to you, too.'

'It's just that I don't want you to get carried away with these dreams of glory and then be disappointed.'

'But Daddy, aren't you the one who always said I could do anything I set my mind to do?'

'I said that, yes.'

'Then why are you resisting my doing this with her? Because you are, I can tell. Even when you don't say so.'

He sighed and offered no answer.

'Faith said you're scared that if I really decide to get into music I might succeed and it'll take me away from you.'

'Faith might possibly be right. It's a scary lifestyle.'

'Oh, Daddy,' she said in gentle rebuke as they reached their own back steps and went inside.

Shutting out the lights and closing up the house for the night put an end to their discussion. Though it remained open-ended, Kenny felt himself growing more and more helpless to stop the contagious lure of fame and fortune that Tess McPhail represented for his daughter. Uncannily, she was beginning to represent a contagious lure for him as well. But one thing was sure: He wasn't going to act on it, for to do so would be to set his seal of approval on her in Casey's eyes, and he didn't want to do that. Faith was a consideration as well, for he felt committed to her whether they were married or not. Furthermore, there was self-preservation to consider. Tess would be gone back to the life of the rich and famous when Mary's hip was healed, and he was too smart to set himself up for another fall. It might be fun to sit and spar with her the way they'd done tonight, but any way you cut it, Tess McPhail was as off-limits now as she'd been nineteen years ago, and he knew it.

The phone rang downstairs in Mary's kitchen at twelve-thirty that night. Tess awakened with a start, surprised to find she'd already been sleeping for an hour. She turned on the bedside light and hurried downstairs, answering in the dark.

'Hello?'

'Tess?'

'Burt?'

'Finally got a chance to call you.'

'Where are you?'

'Fort Worth. Billy Bob's. The boys are breaking down and I'm supposed to be helping them, but I decided to call you first.'

'You sound tired.'

'Just sick of the road. You know how it is. How's everything there? How'd it go with your mom?'

'Okay, I guess. She's still in the hospital.'

'When will she be home?'

'Day after tomorrow or the next day.'

'So how you doing at nursing?'

'Terrible, I think. My sisters are much better at bedside stuff than I am.'

He chuckled and let a beat pass before saying what was on his mind. 'I was thinking about you tonight.'

'Yeah?'

'We were doing 'I Swear' and the words made me remember the last time we were together.' It was a romantic ballad about the kind of love that lasts a lifetime.

'Oh, Burt, that's sweet.'

'Wonder if I'll ever have anything like that.'

'That what you want?'

'I don't know. What about you?'

'No, I don't think so. Too hard when you do what we do.'

'Yeah, that's for sure.'

'I told my mother about you, though. Showed her your picture on my shirt.'

'Oh, yeah? What'd she say?'

'She wanted to know if I might marry you. Ma clings to any straw.'

'We could give Ma a thrill. How 'bout it? Want to?'

She could tell he was joking. 'Oh, sure. Get serious, Burt.'

'Yeah, I know what you mean.' He sighed. 'Well, anyway, I just needed a familiar voice tonight.'

'I know what you mean. I've been there a thousand times myself. Where to next?'