'Well, for plane fare, what else?' A sharp, hyped-up tone now-the dexie had reached his bloodstream.
'Did you lend it?'
'Of course.'
'How much?'
'All I had. Almost two-forty.'
'Two hundred forty dollars? You keep a good bit of cash around.'
'I deal. Grass, some hash, pills. And I hustle.' He waited for me to react; I didn't.
'Where was Billy planning on flying to?'
'He wouldn't tell me. He said he had friends who he knew would help him, but they wouldn't want anybody to know where they were.'
'What else did he say about them? These friends.'
'That's all.'
'What happened next?'
'I drove Billy to New York. He asked me to.'
'New York City?'
'La Guardia. He was afraid he might see somebody he knew at the Albany airport. We stopped over at his place first and he brought a suitcase.'
'What kind of car do you have? Describe it.' I thought I believed him, but any kind of verification of his story wasn't going to hurt.
'I don't have a car. A guy I know lets me use his sometimes.'
'At that time of day?'
'If I ask, this guy helps me out. He likes me. Do you?'
'Sure. I like you. Who's the owner of the car?'
Zimka rolled his big, drugged eyes. 'You've heard of him. But I'm sure he'd prefer I didn't mention his name.' He giggled.
'So you picked up the car.'
'I called my friend first and then I walked over and got the car-this guy's place is right over by the park on Willett-and then we picked up Billy's suitcase and drove out to the Thruway.'
'What did you talk about during the ride down?'
'Us. We talked about us.'
'You and Billy.'
'Yeah. Me and Billy. I told him how I felt about him. For the first time I told him how much he meant to me.'
'Was he surprised?'
'Shit, no. He knew. Nobody could experience what I've experienced with Billy and the other person not know. There's sex, and then there is-mak-ing lov-v-v-ve.' He impersonated Marlene Dietrich.
'In my experience it's not always that clear-cut,' I said. 'Are you saying that in bed you were making love and Billy was just getting it off?'
He grinned inanely. 'I'm not going to tell you about that. It's humiliating. It's none of your business. When are you leaving?'
'Soon. How long have you known Billy, Frank?'
'Three years. Three years next month. November fourteenth.' His cigarette had burned itself out; an inch of ash fell onto his pant leg and lay there. 'I met him over at the Terminal one night,'
Zimka said. 'He cruised me. And I really thought that night that he liked me. That he liked me.'
'But he really-didn't?'
'It's too complicated. I'm not going to talk about this anymore. Not to you. You're about to leave.
It's too bad it'll never work with Billy and me. Really too bad. He's been great for me. Billy opened up a lot of positive things inside me I never knew were there. It's too bad. I can be a really fabulous person. Are you leaving now?'
'I'm sure you can be. I'll leave soon. What happened in New York?'
'New York?'
'At the airport. La Guardia.'
'I dropped him off.'
'What time?'
'Nine. Or nine-fifteen.'
'You didn't go in with him?'
'He wouldn't let me. He said he'd send me the money, he thanked me, he gave me a little brotherly kiss. And then he- took off!' He imitated an airplane.
'You drove back to Albany then?'
'No.'
'No?'
'Fucking Billy took every cent I had! I had no money for gas or tolls coming back.' He giggled.
'So what I did was, I stopped in Scarsdale and called a guy I knew. Scared the royal blue shit out of him, too. He met me at a gas station and says, 'Nice to see you, Frank,' tosses me fifty, and took off in his BMW like I'm diseased. He's one of my admirers. He likes me.'
Every life tells a story. 'How old are you, Frank?'
'How old do you think?'
'Twenty-four.'
'Twenty-six. My face looks fifty.'
'I would have said thirty, or thirty-five. Still, maybe you should be looking into a somewhat more restful line of work.'
'I'm a chemist,' he said. 'I graduated RPI cum laude.'
'Why don't you work as a chemist, then? Or at something else in the sciences, or whatever, that you might be good at? Why not try it-maybe just something part-time to start out?'
His eyes were like baby spotlights now. He said, 'I think I'll get a job as the president of MIT!'
He laughed idiotically.
I drank my beer. I asked Zimka whether he'd had any odd phone calls recently in which the caller didn't speak but just listened, or whether anyone had tried within the past week to break into his apartment. He looked at me as if I'd asked him if his hair were on fire, then giggled. I asked him if he knew who Chris was, and he summoned up the clarity of mind to say no. I asked him if he knew who Eddie was, and this caused another fit of uncontrolled hilarity. Finally I asked Zimka if the police had been in touch-his number was written on Billy Blount's phone book. He said yes, but he'd told them he was the Queen of the Netherlands and they hadn't returned.
I thanked him, gave him my card, and asked him to get in touch with me if he heard from Billy Blount or if the money Billy had borrowed was returned in any manner. He asked me to stop by on Monday to pick up something he said he'd have for Billy, and I said I would.
I shook his hand and left. He may or may not have noticed my going.
6
At Timmy's I checked my service while he made mashed potatoes to go with the roast chicken. He used a real masher, and I admired his domestic skills.
At my place I boiled the potatoes, put them in a Price Chopper freezer bag, and beat them with a hammer wrapped in a towel.
There were two messages, one from a former client who owed me three hundred dollars. He said,
'The check is in the mail.' The other message was from Brigit: 'Books will be found on front lawn after noon Sunday.'
I asked, 'What's the weather forecast?'
