morning’s training. There was a fight this morning among the horses and I had to intervene. I wish Gorry would give up trying to sell the piebald mare; she’s a bad influence on the others.
The stairs pop and growl as someone heavier than Evelyn climbs them. Benjamin Malvern strides across the room and then stands by the table until I rise to greet him. Malvern, who has been moneyed for his whole life, has that air about him of well-cared-for ugliness, like an expensive racehorse with a coarse head. The glossy coat, the bright eye, the bulbous nose over too-fleshy lips.
“Sean Kendrick,” he says. “How are you?”
“Tolerable,” I reply.
“How is the sea?” This is where he makes a joke to show empathy with me, and where I pretend it is funny to show I appreciate my salary.
I smile thinly. “Well as always.”
“Shall we sit?”
I let him sit first, and then follow him. He picks up the menu card but doesn’t read it. “So you are ready for the festival this weekend?”
The stairs creak again and it’s Evelyn. She sets a cup full of frothy liquid in front of Malvern.
“What’ll you have?” she asks me again.
“I’m fine.”
“He’ll not abuse your hospitality, dear,” Malvern tells her. “Bring him a cup of tea.”
I nod to Evelyn. Malvern doesn’t seem to notice her going.
“No sense going without, when there’s unpleasant business making it unpleasant enough,” Malvern says. He drinks his strange, frothy tea.
I am still and silent.
“You’re a man of no words, Sean Kendrick,” he says. Outside the window, the practicing Scorpio drummers beat a tripping, ascending beat firmly at odds with the soft pink world we’re in. He leans forward, elbows on the table. “I don’t think I’ve told you the story of how I got into horses, have I?”
I meet his eyes.
He goes on. “I was young, poor, an islander, but not on this island. I had nothing to my name but my shoes and the bruises on my skin. There was a man who sold horses down the road from us. Royal horses and nags, jumping horses and eating horses.
Every month there would be an auction and people would come from farther than you’ve been in your life to see it.”
He pauses, only to see if I am sad that my legs have grown into this island already. When he doesn’t find what he’s looking for, Malvern goes on, “He got this one stallion in, golden like Midas touched him. Seventeen, eighteen hands tall, mane and tail like a lion’s. To see him in the yard was to know what a horse should look like, but there was a problem: No one could back him. He’d thrown four men and killed another and he was eating four or eight bales of hay a day and no one would touch an unbackable man-killer at that auction. So I told the man that I would break him, and if I did, he’d give me a job and I’d never be poor again. The horsemonger told me he couldn’t promise me that I’d never be poor again, but he’d give me a job as long as he was alive. So I took that golden stallion and I bridled him. I cut a blindfold from a virgin’s dress and covered his eyes and I backed him. We galloped all over the countryside, him blind and me a king, and when I brought him back, he was tame, and I had a job. What do you think of that?”
I look at Malvern. He tips his foreign tea against his lips. I can smell the butter in it from here.
“I don’t believe you,” I say. When Malvern raises an eyebrow, I add, “You were never young.”
“And here I was thinking you had no sense of humor, Mr. Kendrick.” He pauses as Evelyn sets my cup of tea before me. She offers milk and sugar and I shake my head. Malvern waits until she has gone back down the stairs before he speaks again.
Malvern puts a napkin over the top of his teacup, as if it’s a corpse instead of an empty cup. “My son says you killed one of my horses.”
Anger touches the top of my mouth, my chest, with a hot hand.
“You look unsurprised,” Malvern adds.
“I’m not surprised,” I say.
Outside, the Scorpio drummers beat closer, louder, and there is laughter among them. One of the laughs in particular is a low, derisive chuckle, the sort that elicits a frown from those not in on the joke. Malvern’s eyebrows draw down over his eyes, and his head is cocked as if he can imagine the scene outside more clearly than my face. The drums now sound quite intentionally like hoofbeats, and I wonder if he is seeing again the golden stallion the size of a barn galloping over the countryside of some alien island.
“Quinn Daly told me what he saw,” Malvern says. “He told me how you were exercising Fundamental in the cove. He said that you seemed distracted. He said your mind was far from your job and you would have never seen a threat in the water.”
Of course I had been distracted. That ginger-haired girl and her island pony and the smears of blood on the sand from the savage mares. I cannot imagine that Malvern will fire me for this, cannot imagine that he would fire me for anything, but then again, I can. I stand on a knife blade.
I meet Malvern’s gaze. “What else did Quinn Daly tell you?”
“That Matthew told Daly he would relieve him at his post and watch the cove. That the next thing Daly saw was Fundamental going under and you diving after him.” Malvern folds his hands together on the table before him. “But that is not the account my son gave. It’s their words against each other. What do you have to say?”
I set my teeth. This is an unwinnable game. I drag the words out. “I cannot speak out against your son.”
“You don’t have to,” Malvern answers. “Your jacket tells me which story is the true one.”
We’re both silent.
Finally, Malvern says, “I would know your mind. What is it you want out of this life?”
The question catches me off guard. There may have been a person who I would turn the pockets of my heart out for them to see, but there was never a time when Benjamin Malvern was that person. I can’t imagine confessing my wants to Malvern any more than I can imagine him confessing his to me.
With his gaze on me, I say, “A roof over my head and reins in my hand and the sand beneath me.” A slender and abridged truth.
“Ah, so you have what you want already, then.”
I cannot sit here drinking this tea and tell him that what I want is to be free of him.
“It has been a long time since I broke that first stallion,” Malvern says. “I don’t know what it looked like from the outside, this path I took to get to this ruin of an island in the middle of the ocean. I can’t compare Matthew’s path to see where he might be going.”
There are many paths that Mutt Malvern might be on, but I think we both know that none of them ends as the mogul of an internationally famous breeding yard.
“Ah, well. Have you been at this long enough to know how the horses will go?” Malvern means which of his water horses is the fastest.
“I knew that the first day.”
Malvern smiles. It is not a pleasant smile, but its unpleasantness is not directed toward me. “Which, then, is the slowest of them?”
“The bay mare without white,” I say, without pause. I haven’t named her because she has yet to earn a name. She’s flighty and sea-wild; she is not fast because she takes no pleasure in what the rider wants.
Malvern asks, “And which is the fastest?”
I pause before answering. I know what I say dictates who he puts Mutt on this November. I don’t want to answer truthfully, but there is no point lying, as he’ll find out eventually. “Corr. The red stallion.”
Malvern says, “And which is the safest?”
“Edana. The bay with the white blaze.”
Malvern looks at me then. Really looks at me, for the first time. He frowns, as if he is seeing me anew, the boy who has spent years growing up above his stable, raising his horses. I look at my teacup. He asks, “Why did you jump into the sea after Fundamental?”
“He was my charge.”
“Your charge, but a Malvern horse. My son owned that horse.” Benjamin Malvern pushes his chair back and
