long and thin with unruly mops of hair, one dark-haired, the other a redhead, both with glasses. The other two, one of them Snog, were on the hefty side, both bearded, with even longer, wilder hair and no glasses.
Wendy pointed to the dark-haired skinny guy. 'Brad,' she said. He and John nodded and smiled at each other. She indicated the big fella who'd passed them the word about this meeting in the student union. 'Carl.' Carl nodded, too.
'Yam,' Wendy said with a nod at the redhead.
'Hi,' John said.
'So you're the mystery man,' Snog said—sneered, rather.
'Yup, that's me,' John said.
'Kinda young, aren't you?'
John's heart sank a bit. These guys weren't exactly senior professors, for cryin'
out loud. He'd have thought that people who probably got a lot of 'you're so young!' stuff thrown their way would be more tolerant. At least toward similarly young people.
They all looked at him as though waiting for a speech. John looked around and took a seat on the bed next to Yam. 'Don't let me interfere with your meeting, guys,' he said.
The others all looked at Wendy, who shrugged and took off her jacket, then settled down on the floor. 'So,' she said, 'has anybody got something to report?'
She looked around. 'Snog?'
He pointed to his beefy chest. 'Me?' He sounded surprised.
'You called the meeting,' she pointed out dryly.
With a snort he said, 'That was before I knew it was going to be the children's hour.'
'Just how old are you?' John asked without looking at him.
'Nineteen,' Snog said. He tilted his head toward John. 'And you?'
'Eighteen.'
'Thing is,' Carl said in a soothing voice, 'you're not even out of high school.'
'And I never will be,' John said, giving him a direct look. 'High school is a luxury I can't afford.'
'Is that because you're from… South America?' Wendy asked sympathetically.
John stared at her for a moment, then laughed; he couldn't help it. It was such a typically North American assumption. And they were all so naively arrogant!
But smart. You could
'Of course not!' he said, grinning. 'I meant that I don't have the time to waste.'
'Oh,' Snog said, 'so I guess that means we're wasting our time, too, huh?'
'No. It means I'm not you. My genius, if I even have any, lies in other directions.' John met his eyes until Snog casually looked away. Maybe it was time to take a risk.
'Who the hell do you think you are, kid?' Snog asked, gazing at the ceiling.
'I'm Sarah Connor's son.'
Dr. Silberman's nervousness was affecting the group. Most of the participants were scowling, and fidgeting to an even greater extent than nicotine withdrawal usually produced. They cast glances around the room looking for the disturbance and those glances usually landed on Sarah, where they became accusing. Clearly the participants liked their doctor.
That came as a surprise to Sarah; she remembered him as condescending, not at all a lovable trait.
It was something of a mixed group. Few of these people were severely mentally
ill. Those that were functioned very well if they kept up their medications. One was a recovering drug addict. Sarah supposed that she must be listed as one of the most severely ill, given her record.
The session had been going on for a while, through obviously well-worn channels; the participants didn't even seem to be paying attention to what they themselves were saying. Eventually the discussion petered out and all eyes were on Sarah again.
'Yes, I'm sorry, Sarah,' Silberman said at last. 'I'd meant to introduce you immediately, but we began rather quickly. Group, this is Sarah Connor.'
'Hey, I've heard of you!' a man said. 'You blew up that company, right?'
Sarah's head flopped forward as though she were embarrassed and she looked up through her bangs, smiling shyly. 'I'm afraid so.' Straightening up, she asked,
'What can I say?'
She let them draw the whole story out of her. She squirmed and hesitated and made them work for it. Through it all Silberman just watched her.
Well, he always did have her number. Her best efforts to tell him what he wanted to hear had always failed. He knew she still believed in Skynet and Judgment Day—which probably meant he still thought she was a homicidal loon. Busting out of the violent ward by breaking his arm, taking him as a hostage, and threatening to hypo his carotid full of drain cleaner had probably reinforced that conviction, and God knew he'd had enough time to rationalize away the glimpse he'd had of the T-1000 pulling its liquid body through a door of steel bars.
Silberman could barely take his eyes off her. Sarah Connor evoked feelings that made him want to call his own therapist. In fact, he
But that little pissant Ray had made noises about how good it would be for him to face her, face his fears, and so on. So he'd decided to play the good little professional and include her in his group. Besides, he'd rather slit his wrists than let Ray see how rattled he was.
After her escape he'd told anyone who'd listen
He'd seen it shrug off a shotgun blast to its chest.
Obviously they'd sent him on medical leave; also obviously they hoped never to welcome him back. To them his story represented a severe psychotic break brought on by trauma. You don't want a crazy doctor trying to treat the insane.
Though to be honest he hadn't wanted to go back. Being unwanted was unpleasant enough—but Pescadero was the scene of the most terrifying events of his life. It had been very easy to turn his back on the place.
He'd taken a long break from work, as long as his benefits and his savings would allow. And since he wasn't working with patients, he worked on himself, trying to put himself back together. He'd sought therapy and willingly allowed the doctors to convince him that he'd imagined the whole thing. They assured him
that in his understandable terror he'd bought into his own patient's delusions.
And he agreed.
In time the nightmares had begun to fade and his belief in his therapist's diagnoses became firm. What he'd seen was impossible; therefore it hadn't happened. When it was time to go back to work he found that his attitude toward his profession had changed. Once it had been about his career; now he wanted to help people. So he'd sent in his formal resignation to Pescadero and begun looking into clinics.
But after they found out about his reason for leaving his previous position, he got a lot of rejections. Which was ironic. How did they expect their patients to reintegrate with society when they wouldn't reintegrate one of their own colleagues?
Then a friend had told him about the halfway house. He'd felt comfortable here and he'd done good work with his patients, work he was proud of.