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still alive.'

    'He has to know it now, Robert,' I said. 'Maybe he saw us on that night in Hatchtown. He's waiting until tomorrow, when he's counting on getting us together. But whatever he tries to do, we have one advantage over him.'

    Robert grasped the point. 'He doesn't knowwe know.'

    “I hope that's an advantage. Anyhow, it's the only one we have.'

    He moved frowning across the floor and switched on the other lights. 'Don't make assumptions about what I'll be willing to do.'

    'Robert,' I said, 'we will do what we have to do.'

    Two parallel lines cut through the dust on top of the table where Earl Sawyer had been standing when he summoned me into the room. One of the lines was about eight inches long, the other no more than two. A picture frame, I thought, propped on its cardboard leg. I pulled out the drawer and found nothing but mouse droppings. Sawyer had taken with him whatever he had hidden from me.

    'Let's rattle his cage.' Robert was virtually shimmering with excitement. 'Let's make Edward Rinehart so angry he won't be able to think.'

    'How?'

    Robert looked across to the thirty or forty copies ofFrom Beyond. “I suppose he is amazingly attached to those books.'

    'You have an evil mind,' I said.

    “I have some matches with me, but we'll need more.'

    “I believe I can help you there,' I said.

    'Then all we need is a metal container thingie about half the size of a bathtub. I want to do this outside, so we don't set the house on fire.'

    'Hold on.' I went through to number 1, groped into the kitchen, switched on the overhead light, and overturned the washtub I had seen earlier. Garbage showered onto the messy floor. I carried the tub back and found Robert standing outside in a small, bricked-in yard beneath the steadily darkening sky. Robert wheeled around, and I put down the tub and followed him to the shelf filled with copies ofFrom Beyond. It took us three trips to carry them outside. I brought the matches out of my pocket and picked up one of the books.

    'Not yet.' Robert folded back its covers and wrenched the glued pages away from the spine. He separated the wad of pages into halves, then into smaller and smaller sections. I began dismembering another copy. Loose pages fluttered to the cement floor.

    When nearly half of the books had been destroyed, Robert knelt alongside the wreckage. 'Now we get to the fun.' He lit a match and held it to the bottom of a quire of pages. Yellow flame traveled up the first of them and spread to the second. Robert turned them over. The flame shrank and lost strength, then crept around the edges and took hold. Robert lowered the burning papers into the tub and held another section of pages over the fire.

    'This is as close as you can get to feeling right about burning books,' I said.

    'Don't be an asshole,' Robert said. Laughter bubbled in his voice.

    I ripped books apart while Robert fed pages into the fire, laying in each new section like wood on a hearth and spreading the fire across the whole of the washtub. Scraps lifted burning into the air and floated toward the walls. In flight, some pages consumed themselves entirely, leaving behind not even ash. Some shrank to traveling dots of light, to fireflies; others blazed into flaming birds. A few burned on as they ascended, whirling far up into the night sky on the wind of their own destruction. Flames sent abrupt shadows capering along the walls.

    As Robert bent over the washtub, erratic flickers of red and orange illuminated his face. It seemed almost ideal, no more like my own than mine was like Michelangelo's David. Robert's crisp eyebrows were streaks of black paint, the same smooth thickness all along their length. His eyes were clear and lustrous, his nose so perfect it might have been shaped by a godlike chisel. Deep shadows emphasized the cut of his cheekbones and the broad, well-defined mouth. The entire face spoke of quickness, assurance, grace, vitality—also, as he watched the fireflies and blazing birds dance upward, of the pure hunger that made him rejoice in destruction.

    'Your turn.' Robert jumped up to chase a soaring yellow wing.

    I squatted beside the washtub and eased in pages, snatching back my hand from sudden flares. Beneath the body of the fire, lines of type seethed and coiled. Robert danced after his skittering yellow wing until it shrank to a glowing constellation of red sparks, then whirled to chase another flaming bird toward the back wall. He looked like the follower of some ancient god, his hair tied with ropes of golden grasshoppers, ecstatic in the performance of a sacrifice. Then I thought Robert looked not like a follower, but like a god himself, a god rejoicing in conflagration and disorder.

    He danced back to hold a binding over the flames until a yellow tongue unfurled across the green board. My sense of the incomprehensible depth of his experience disappeared into, waserased by, the awareness that his insatiability, the intensity of his deprivations, had forever trapped him within childhood. Suddenly, Robert seemed stunted by the weight of all he needed, and for the first time I understood that he was imprisoned in a half-life from which only I could rescue him. Robert needed me more crucially, more centrally, than I had always needed him. Within whatever jealous, smoke-filled chamber that passed for his soul, Robert knew this, too, and pretended he did not.

    His beautiful face darkened when he noticed me looking at him.

    “I was thinking how we look exactly alike in one way, and not at all in another,' I said, and received another edgy glance.

    We went back to business until every copy of Edward Rinehart's hook had turned into ashes and a few, hall-burned bindings at the bottom of a washtub. The yard smelled like the remains of Helen Janette's rooming house. Black, charred black leaves littered the ground. Robert kicked one into fragments. 'Let's trash some of his Lovecraft, too.'

    “I'm not burning anygood books,' I said, 'but that gives me an idea.' I went inside and saw that my hands were smeared with ashes. I supposed the same was true of my face. Already distant, Robert stood in the doorway. Unlike me, he was immaculate. I used my handkerchief to slideThe Dunwich Horror from its shelf. “I think this is the first Lovecraft he ever read. I bet it's his bible.'

    Robert displayed a trace of interest.

    'He'll do anything to get it back.'

    “In that case, we'll make him jump through hoops.' He looked at his watch. 'Clean yourself up. You're a mess.'

    'What about tomorrow?'

    'Our adventures usually begin around three or four in the afternoon. I'll see you before that, wherever you are. In the meantime, don't do anything stupid.'

    'You, too.'

    Robert smiled at me. 'Ned has a trick up his sleeve. Ned is not laying all his cards on the table. Let me ask this.He doesn't know thatwe know thathe knows there are two of us. Would you spell out how we're going to use that against him?'

    'The way we did in Boulder,' I said. I had no intention of telling him the rest.

    “I refuse.'

    'You won't have any choice. It's all we have.'

    Robert glared at me, trapped between what he knew to be true and what he did not want to admit. “I'm not agreeing to anything.'

    I walked to the table from which I thought Earl Sawyer had removed a framed photograph of his younger self. 'Come here.' Robert moved unwillingly across the room. 'Hold your hand under the light.'

    “If you must.' He thrust his right hand, palm up and fingers extended, beneath the lamp. No creases divided his palm, and there were no ridges on his fingertips. His hand could have been made of a remarkably lifelike plastic.

    'There weren't enough fingerprints to go around,' Robert said. “I can't say I miss them.'

    Missing themcause's youmore pain than you can afford to admit, I thought.

    He pulled his hand from the pool of light. 'You have a lot to learn.'