Mr. X

conga-player's shirt and sneered at the velvety carpet. When I took the leather chair before Mr. Spaulding's desk and made out the check, Nettie muttered in complaint. It occurred to me that my selection of the third-least expensive coffin over the bottom of the line had violated the principle that there was no sense spending money on the dead when you could give it to the living. Any illusions that Nettie did not have designs on my checkbook died when Clark nudged the Buick through the brick pillars at the end of Mr. Spaulding's drive, turned toward the Commercial Street office of Little Ridge Cemetery, and said, 'Sometimes, boy, you have to think of other people, not just yourself.'

    My hour and a half with Aunt Joy and Uncle Clarence had been even worse. I went over with the idea that I was performing an act of charity for two old people. I hoped for some information about the interesting figure of Howard Dunstan, and I wanted to see what would happen when I brought up Edward Rinehart. Clarence, remembered as a chipper old party, might still be lively enough to brighten my visit, I thought.

    Mindless as an infant, and like an infant oblivious to the stench of his own excrement, Clarence slumped over the leather strap pinning him to his wheelchair. Splotches of dried and drying baby food adorned his shirt. Joy told me that every night at7:00 she pushed him down the hall to the tub and cleaned him off, although she didn't know where she found the strength. Clarence was getting along just fine. Joy wished that she could say the same for herself.

    We sat in the two chairs that were their living room furniture. As Joy escorted me into her maze and my pity yielded to empty-headed horror, the older, drier fetor I had noticed the previous night gradually overwhelmed Clarence's atmosphere. Established, ingrained, it seemed as much an aspect of the house as the floorboards and beams. Everything absorbed it, including Joy, who virtually swam in its sea.

    The youngest and most diminished of Howard Dunstan's daughters perched on the edge of her chair and spoke as if she had been saving up the words for decades. There was no point in trying to interrupt her: Joy's bitterness claimed all the conversational space. Her transparent voice grabbed the oars and rowed straight toward the horizon of the known world. When she had reached it, she kept on rowing. Joy was talking about herself, our family, and Howard Dunstan. She plied her oars, and the dry, inhuman stink of her father's house carried her forward.Clark's river-bottom had poured into Joy's house and coated everything with what he called 'the ugly part of nature.' If that was nature, I wanted no part of it.

    A flashing crimson hand halted me at an intersection. When my feet stopped moving, my mind filled with the image of Joy perched on a filthy cushion with one bony arm extended toward her husband. I saw what happened next. Blindly, I turned to the left and kept walking. Two blocks down onPine Street, the next traffic light burned green, enabling me to cross what I half-registered was Cordwainer Avenue.

    I barreled along onPine Street, seeing nothing until a gray-haired giant with the face of a warrior and wearing a red and green dashiki slowed down and stared at me as the distance between us decreased. His expression combined anger and sorrow. I waited for him to speak. At the moment we drew abreast, the giant turned his head but said nothing. The current of tension passing between us snapped almost audibly when we drew apart.

    I moved on for another two or three paces, then stopped walking and looked over my shoulder. The man in the dashiki immediately wheeled around.

    'Son, you look like shit and sound like a steam engine. Please tell me you're not about to have a coronary.'

    'My mother died this morning.'

    “If you don't start paying more attention to what's going on around you, you'll see your mommaa lot sooner than you think. Take care of yourself, boy.'

    'Okay,' I said, and watched him walk off.

    I blotted my face with a handkerchief, leaned against ano parking sign, and closed my eyes. Grief flooded upward from the center of my body like a physical presence. I pressed the handkerchief to my eyes. Grief is an industrial-strength emotion, that's all I can say. Grief takes care of business, it tells you where you are.

    When the onslaught subsided, I took in my surroundings. Parking lots and chain-link fences bordered auto-parts suppliers, die stampers, storage facilities, and other, less identifiable, concerns. Most of the buildings onPine Street were one-story and none higher than two. With their grimy brick facades and pebble-glass windows, they looked like reductions of larger, more accommodating structures.

    Three blocks later, the chain-link fences and empty lots disappeared, and the brick buildings grew closer and taller. Traffic lights sprouted from every corner. I turned left and walked past windows displaying videotapes and liquor bottles. My shirt began to dry out.A street sign told me that I was on Cobden Avenue. I started feeling hungry.

    Cars occupied by young couples and groups of teenagers flowed by. After two more traffic lights, Cobden came to an end at a four-lane boulevard and a small, triangular park. I had reachedCommercial Avenue, the center of town. I turned right and moved toward what looked like the action. Ahead of me, two couples with the uncomplicated, affable assurance of Midwestern wealth spun out of a revolving door under the attention of an impassive doorman in epaulets and brass buttons. A flushed, fiftyish man said, 'Does he know what's going on? I mean, can you believe that?'

    The taller, thinner man he was addressing placed a hand on his shoulder. Gold-rimmed glasses caught the fading sunlight. His rim of white hair had been cropped to a stubble. 'You bet I do.' Vertical wrinkles creased his face, and yellow teeth filled his carnivorous smile. “In about five minutes, he'll believe it, too.'

    The dark-haired woman with him said, 'Honey, are you going to tell him?' Twenty years younger than the man she called 'honey,' shehad theaerobicized, face-lifted look of a second wife fighting to stay in the game. She sent me an irritated glare that almost immediately turned into something else, something I could not quite identity but that combined surprise, dismay, and embarrassment.

    Her husband's chestyhar har har ridiculed the suggestion of 'telling.' “I don't have to, because, as everybody knows, our friend . . .' He noticed the look on his wife's face, glanced at me, and abruptly pulled himself upright. He was at least six foot six, another giant, in a grass-green linen jacket and sharply creased pink trousers. A lot of vibrant colors zigzagged across his bow tie. He was in his early seventies and still an unrepentant bully who thought of himself as a powerhouse.

    'Do you require some form of assistance?'

    I liked the 'require.' It had a nasty edge you couldn't get from 'need.' 'Require' put you in your place. 'Form' was a nice touch, too.

    “I'm looking for a good restaurant. What would you recommend?'

    Managing his surprise better than I had expected, he swept his hand toward the building beside us. A bronze plate beside the revolving door readMERCHANTS HOTEL. 'Le Madrigal. Right off the lobby. We just had dinner there.' He noticed something about me that stopped him cold, and his smile faded. “It's pricey, though— pricey. Try Loretta's, three blocks north. They can fix you up a good steak, ribs, anything you want.'

    'The Madrigal sounds perfect.'

    'LllluuuhMadrigal, notThe Madrigal. Around here, it's where the good people get together.'

    The other man said, “I love it when you talk dirty, G-Man.'

    'Word of advice, buddy.' The G-Man slammed a big hand down on my shoulder. A silken wing of the bow tie slid across my temple. 'You can show off, sure, throw your money around, fine, but stop off at the boys' room first and make yourself presentable. A polite little fellow like you wants to fit in, am I right?'

    I tilted my face toward his leathery ear. “I don't need your advice, you overbearing small-town shithead.'

    Recoiling like a compressed spring, he grabbed his wife's arm and yanked her into the street. The other couple flapped their mouths and scurried after them. My friend forced himself to go around the front of a dark green Town Car to open his wife's door while the other couple climbed into the back seat.

    For a second or two, the doorman permitted himself to smile at me.

    An elderly bellboy directed me up a marble staircase to the men's room. I washed my hands and face under the regard of the black-suited attendant. I trained the hand dryer's flow of warm air onto my shirt, reknotted my necktie, and patted my hair. I used the mouth-wash anda splash of designer cologne. The attendant remarked an improvement in my appearance, and I contributed two dollars to his porcelain saucer.