the last few days than he understood.
He was tempted to go pound on the door and demand an explanation from Pedro, but decided that drawing attention from the Widow Fikes at such a late hour was probably not the best thing to do.
It was time to go home.
Josiah settled Lyle in front of him in Clipper’s saddle and eased away from the big house.
“Papa, I’m sleeping,” Lyle said.
Josiah chuckled, his mind immediately drawn away from the confusion that Pedro had created. He had missed Lyle more completely and thoroughly than he could ever have imagined. Being held captive by the two Comanche had most likely caused him to reconsider his own mortality, even though that was an old battle.
Josiah knew how fragile life was.
How could he not after all that he had witnessed in his years as a soldier, lawman, and Ranger? He could not, however, reconcile that knowledge of fragility and duty with a change in occupation, one that offered less danger and a consistent presence in his son’s life. The thought of Lyle being left alone in the world, left with strangers, was even more troubling now that Ofelia had been called home.
Juan Carlos had chosen well in bringing Pearl to the house to watch over the child, but it was not her place . . . not now, maybe not ever. It was even more important in the coming days for Josiah to decide about the direction of his life.
If Scrap had been correct, and there was no reason to doubt him, and the governor was ordering a reduction in the size of the companies of the Frontier Battalion, then perhaps it would not be a bad thing if Josiah was one of those men let go. Perhaps it would be the best thing to happen—forcing Josiah to find employment and a life more certain, closer to home.
It was something to consider, but that kind of change would not completely create a safe environment for Lyle to grow up in, and Josiah knew it.
There would always be danger and a threat, as long as Liam O’Reilly was free, on the run, able to turn a town and the law into his own. As long as that was the case, Josiah knew he would always be looking over his shoulder . . . and Lyle’s.
CHAPTER 21
The glow from the gaslights in the governor’s mansion caught Josiah’s attention again, as he rode slowly by.
Gaslights were a relatively new presence in Austin. The newspaper, the
A bat chittered overhead, drawing Josiah’s gaze away from the house and back to the moment. Obviously there were some creatures that still showed favor to the city at night. Josiah pulled Lyle closer to him.
The demise of the mansion, and its occupants, was a distant concern for Josiah. It was his own demise that worried him, the echo of Pedro’s warning still ringing inside his head, flapping about just like the bat’s wings.
The warning could have meant nothing. Or it could have been intentional, an arrow pointed to a deeper meaning, or at someone who truly meant him harm. But who? Pete Feders? The Widow Fikes? Someone else in the ranks of the Frontier Battalion? Scrap? None of them made any sense, unless Pedro was somehow connected to Liam O’Reilly and knew of the outlaw’s intent. But that seemed unlikely. The comment was very confusing, and unsettling enough to keep him on high alert—even more so than he already was.
The night air was cool, and Lyle was snuggled up against Josiah. The bat had gone on, searching out whatever insects it could find at that time of night.
The boy’s head was cocked to the side, and there was no doubt that Clipper’s steady, even pace had lulled him quickly to sleep. Josiah had the reins in his right hand while his left hand and arm gently barred Lyle from moving at all. It would only take a second to sweep his hand to the left and reach the Colt Frontier if he had to.
As good as it was to be home, Josiah felt just as uncertain as he had been when he was on the run from the Comanche brothers, not knowing what was coming, if he would survive one minute to the next.
Those concerns were dimmer now, of course, but this was the first time in recent memory that Josiah had been wholly responsible for Lyle’s well-being, and that was such a different kind of survival that Josiah could hardly process the scope of it.
Ofelia was hardly ever more than two feet away from the boy.
It was frightening for Josiah to fully consider that he would have to continue to act as both mother and father to Lyle.
At that moment, Josiah realized how much he had depended on Ofelia and taken for granted that she would always look after Lyle, when in reality, she had no reason to stay other than her own love of the boy. Josiah paid her what he could and made sure she had everything that she needed, within reason. Thankfully, Ofelia didn’t require much to make her happy, or to keep her well tended.
Josiah knew it was wrong of him to even have thought that Ofelia would stay with him forever. But he had.
Lost in his own grief, in his own need for a bit of adventure, for life to continue on, he had let his responsibilities to his son fall to someone outside of his blood family. Ofelia wasn’t a stranger, but she also wasn’t bound to either of them.
One way or another, Josiah knew that everything he had taken for granted would have to change.
The inside of the house was silent.
The floor creaked when Josiah eased open the front door and stepped inside. Josiah barely knew his way around in the dark in his own house. The creak gave Josiah sudden cause to stop and take a deep breath.
He didn’t sense another presence in the house or see anything that would suggest malevolent entry, but there was no use in being foolhardy. As far as he knew, there was still a price on his head, put there by the outlaw Liam O’Reilly, not by any real enforcers of the law. Still, that money would be enough of a pull for those walking on the darker side of life to consider cashing in on the bounty. Whether it could ever be collected was another matter, one that held little to no consequence for Josiah. Some men went after a bounty more for the challenge than the payoff.
He let his eyes adjust to the darkness inside the house. It only took him a minute to make out the familiar cupboard, wash sink, table, and two chairs that he had brought from his pine cabin in East Texas.
An open interior door led into the room where Lyle’s bed sat waiting, the darkness deeper inside the room. It was a sparse house. One so small it probably could have fit inside the foyer of the Fikes estate. And that was one of the rubs that Josiah carried with him . . . still turning over the thought about Pearl’s demand that he attend a dinner, and perhaps something more, at the mansion. His house was hardly a house befitting a woman such as Pearl. Somehow, he had to convince her of that.
Josiah made his way to the room and to the small child-sized bed and gently laid Lyle in it. He took off his son’s simple leather shoes, unfurled his socks, then covered the boy up with a lightweight blanket.
Lyle was completely asleep, off in a dreamland, bearing little knowledge of his physical location, just that he was safe, or so Josiah hoped, under the watchful eye of his father.
A window hung open just to the left of the bed, and Josiah closed and locked it as quietly as he could.
The window looked out over an alleyway that separated two long rows of houses very much the same size
