But as slowly and as deliberately as the average murder case proceeds, the pace drops to an absolute crawl if the de fendant happens to be fortunate enough to be released on bail. Once a murder defendant is out of jail, his case moves to the very back of the line, behind misdemeanors, felonies, or ever newer murder cases involving defendants in jail. One thing about murder defendants who aren't in jail: they're in no hurry to get anything but another postponement.
By late winter it had begun to dawn on Jaywalker that being on the slow track with Samara was going to turn out to be a very mixed blessing. Back in September, when he'd first listed her case among those he desperately needed to keep, he'd done so because he recognized its potential to be a long-distance runner. (Okay, there was also the fact that his middle-aged testosterone troops were lobbying fever ishly for its inclusion.) That potential had been enhanced twice since: first when she stubbornly and unreasonably insisted on her innocence, and again when they'd suc ceeded in getting her out on bail. The combination of those three ingredients-murder, stubbornness and bail-all but guaranteed that the case would far outlive all the others on his list. It would stretch to the limit what he'd come to think of as 'the suspension of his suspension.' It would carry him off into the twilight. It would be his swan song.
Which was a problem.
Because by now he knew full well that no matter what he did, he was going to lose Samara's trial. It had turned into a case that not even the best defense lawyer in the world, on his best day ever, could possibly win. It had become that tenth case at the far end of the spectrum.
Jaywalker would go out a loser.
Did the realization bother him, this man who liked to think of himself as totally without an ego? Who thought so little of his personal appearance that he'd been known to arrive in court in the mismatched jacket and pants of two altogether different suits, or to wear the same necktie for two weeks in a row? Who considered vanity the moral equivalent of any three other deadly sins combined? Who routinely broke more rules, conventions and mores in a month than most people did in a lifetime?
You bet it did.
Not because he loved winning so much. To Jaywalker, winning was great, but not just for its own sake, or even that of the client, who might or might not 'deserve' to be acquitted in a perfect universe. No, winning at its essence was a means to achieve an end, an end that was far more important, that was nothing short of essential, in fact. An end that justified the twenty-two-hour days he put in during the course of a trial, the blotting out of everything else, be it sleep, food, health or human contact. An end that drove him, that absolutely consumed him. But an end that at the same time made him among the very best in the business, and by far the most burned out.
And what was that end?
Not losing.
If you or one close to you should ever suffer the misfor tune of being accused of a crime, whether justly or unjustly, and find yourself shopping around for a lawyer, do yourself a favor. Don't look for the one with the best reputation or the most impressive client list, the biggest office or the finest suits, or the best hair or the smoothest speaking voice. Look for the one who hates to lose the most.
Look for a Jaywalker.
So yes, the thought of losing Samara's trial, still months away, was already plunging Jaywalker into depression. He could find it in his heart to forgive her for having killed her husband. He could forgive her for not getting rid of the murder weapon and her bloody blouse, and the towel she'd wrapped them in. He could forgive her for lying to the de tectives. He could even forgive her for handing Tom Burke the perfect motive to put the icing on his cake. The one thing he couldn't forgive her for was insisting upon a trial that couldn't be won, and, in the process, taking him down in flames with her.
Week by week, winter grudgingly loosened its grip on the city. The days became noticeably longer, and the after noons warmer. Jaywalker put away his threadbare over coat, then his wrinkled trench coat, and finally the wool sweater vest he wore under his suit jacket.
One by one, he finished up the outstanding cases on his list. He found an apartment for the homeless mother and succeeded in reuniting her with her two small children. On the basis of a DNA mismatch, he won the release of the Sing Sing inmate who'd been wrongly imprisoned for the past eight years for a murder committed by a police informer. And he rented another car and drove up to Rhinebeck again, so that he could cry his eyes out at the graduation from rehab of his fourteen-year-old drug addict, who'd somehow transformed himself into a fifteen- year-old young man.
By June he'd crossed off nine of the cases from the list of ten that the disciplinary committee had allowed him to keep. The only name that remained was Samara Tannenbaum's.
By that time, Jaywalker and Samara had become virtual strangers. They checked in with each other by phone on a fairly regular basis but saw each other only when the case appeared in court, which, now that Samara was out on bail, meant only once a month or so. On those occasions, they greeted each other warmly enough, the way first cousins might greet each other at family gatherings during the holidays. Each time he saw her, Jaywalker was struck anew by how terrific she looked, and he would think about her for days afterward, even dream of her at night. But then she would gradually fade from his thoughts and his dreams, and he would lose her face, only to be surprised all over again on the next of their court dates.
Court dates.
That was what he'd come to think of them as.
They would hug in the hallway upon recognizing one another, and catch up on whatever was new in their lives, which was never much-in Jaywalker's case because he had no life to speak of, and in Samara's because her ankle bracelet, curfew and other restrictions pretty much assured that she didn't, either. Then they would sit side by side in the courtroom, Jaywalker forsaking the 'lawyers only' front two rows for the general admissions section, waiting for the case to be called. Sometimes he would purposefully delay signing them in, just so he could prolong the time he would get to sit next to Samara. He would feel the touch of her shoulder against his, smell the scent of whatever perfume she was wearing that day, and listen to the rise and fall of her breath. Once the case was called, they would walk together up the aisle to the defense table, where they stood as one for a minute or two, rarely longer, as the judge inquired about the progress of the case, looked at his calendar and announced the next of their court dates.
Court dates.
By mid-July it was clear to Jaywalker that Samara's case wouldn't go to trial until fall, at the very earliest. Like therapists, judges tend to take their vacations in August. So do prosecutors, defense lawyers, clerks, court officers, ste nographers and even jurors. A handful of trials are held, but by and large they involve long-term detainees. Bail cases that make it through July almost always make it through August, as well. Samara's would be no exception; it was adjourned until right after Labor Day. This adjourn ment was slightly different from the previous ones, how ever. For the first time, in announcing the new date, Judge Sobel added the words 'for hearing and trial.'
But even that phrase was a misnomer, Jaywalker knew. All it meant was that there was nothing left but the hearing and the trial. There still remained other cases ahead of theirs, some older, some younger but involving jailed de fendants. By Jaywalker's calculation, a September trial was unlikely, with October or November no better than even money. And once you got into December, there were the holidays looming, and you were safe until January.
With his law practice whittled down to a single case, it would have been vintage Jaywalker to throw all his con siderable energy into preparing for it. He'd won trials in the past by walking into court not only better prepared than his adversary but infinitely better prepared. He would visit and revisit crime scenes, interview witnesses to the point of exhaustion, all but commit reports to memory, and organize his case file into subfiles and sub-subfiles that would enable him to locate the most obscure document on a moment's notice, without having to shuffle papers and fumble around for it.
Now, as summer stretched into fall, he did none of that. Instead he spent mornings sleeping in, and afternoons taking long walks by the river or sunning himself on a park bench. Evenings he propped himself in front
