they searched for a way to the sea.
A world of water. There wasn’t a soul in sight out there, just flocks of lapwings and bullfinches.
Per loved the emptiness and the clean lines of the island, and when the traffic thinned out once they had passed Borgholm he put his foot down.
The Saab hummed northwards through the open landscape, past forest groves and windmills – it was a little bit like driving through an oil painting. A painting of the spring. The green and brown fields, the vast crystal dome of the sky, the sound over to the west. The sea was still covered in dark-blue ice, but it looked thin, and there were black rifts further out. Soon the waves would be set free.
‘Isn’t it beautiful?’ said Per.
Jesper, who was sitting next to him, looked up from his Gameboy. ‘What?’
‘All this,’ said Per. ‘All this, the island … everything.’
Jesper looked out through the windscreen and nodded, but Per couldn’t see the fire in his son’s eyes that he himself felt here on the island. He tried to tell himself it was because of Jesper’s age; young people didn’t appreciate nature for its own sake. Perhaps it required a certain maturity, or even a deep sorrow, to become interested in the soul of the landscape.
Or maybe the problem was Jesper. Would Per rather have Nilla sitting beside him, healthy and full of anticipation? Would he rather Jesper was the one waiting for tests?
He pushed the thought aside and focused on the spring instead. Spring on the island.
Per had first started coming to the island as a little boy at the end of the 1950s, along with his mother, Anita. It was the summer of 1958, two years after her divorce, and she didn’t have much money for holidays. Jerry was supposed to pay maintenance every month, but he had coughed up only occasionally – although Anita did say that Jerry had once driven past her terraced house in his big flashy car, chucked a bundle of notes at the door and disappeared.
The shortage of money meant brief, cheap holidays not too far from Kalmar. But Anita had a cousin called Ernst Adolfsson, a quarryman who lived alone in a little cottage on Oland, and she and her son had always been welcome to catch the ferry across to the island in the holidays and stay as long as they wanted.
Per had loved playing in the abandoned quarry down below Ernst’s house. It was a world of adventure if you were nine years old.
Ernst had no children or siblings, and when he died a few years ago, Per had inherited the cottage. He had cleared it out the previous summer, and now he was intending to spend the next six months living there – perhaps he might even stay all year round. He couldn’t afford to keep two properties going, so he had rented out his apartment in Kalmar until the end of September.
The plan had been for his two children to come over to Oland as often as they wanted. But Nilla had started Year 7 as a tired, listless child, and had grown increasingly exhausted as the autumn went on. The school doctor had put it down to puberty, or growing pains, but after New Year she had started to complain of pains in her left side. The situation had grown worse and worse during the winter, and none of the doctors seemed to know why.
Their summer plans had suddenly become uncertain.
‘Do you want to ring Mum when we get there?’
His son didn’t look up from the game. ‘Dunno.’
‘Would you like to go down to the shore?’
‘Dunno,’ Jesper said again.
It felt as if he were as distant as an orbiting satellite – but that’s probably what it was like to be a thirteen- year-old these days. When Per was that age, his greatest wish had been for his father to come and visit and talk to him.
Suddenly he spotted a sign showing a petrol pump by the side of the road, and slowed down. ‘Would you like an ice cream? Or is it too early in the year?’
Jesper looked up from his game. ‘I’d rather have sweets.’
‘Let’s see what they’ve got,’ said Per, pulling into the car park.
They got out. It was freezing cold in spite of the sun. Per had thought it would be warmer on the island at this time of year, but the layer of ice out in the sound probably made the air cooler. The wind cut straight through his padded jacket, and a little swirl of sand blew up and into his mouth, crunching between his teeth.
Per walked quickly past the petrol pumps and sheltered by the kiosk. The front window was dark, but he knocked a few times anyway, until he spotted a note stuck inside, faded by the sun:
April was too early – the island hadn’t yet woken from its winter slumbers, and the number of shops that stayed open in the winter no doubt matched the demand. Per had worked in market research for fifteen years, and understood perfectly.
Jesper was sitting on a wooden box with SAND written on it, next to the car park. He was playing on his Gameboy again. As Per walked over to him he heard the sound of an engine in the distance. A white HGV was fast approaching from the north.
He took out the car keys and shouted to Jesper, ‘No sweets, sorry. They’re shut.’
Jesper merely nodded, and Per went on, ‘There are some more shops further north. We can …’
Then he stopped, because he suddenly heard a muted thud out on the road and the sound of tyres screeching across the tarmac. To the south he could see the dazzling reflection of the sun on a car.
It was an Audi, and the driver had lost control; the car veered across the carriageway, right in front of the oncoming truck.
Per could only stand and watch. The car must have collided with something; the bonnet was spattered with red, and the windscreen was covered in blood.
Whose blood?
The truck driver sounded his horn at the car. A male figure was just visible behind the smeared windscreen, leaning over the wheel and struggling to regain control of the car.
Per started to move just as the harsh sound of the truck’s horn died away. It had moved to the right, out on to the verge. Per saw the Audi straighten up for half a second, then veer off the other way.
The vehicles missed one another, because the car had skidded into the car park. The wheels locked and the car slid across the gravel, still travelling at speed. It was moving sideways across the tarmac, heading straight for the sand box.
‘Jesper!’ Per yelled out.
His son was still sitting on the box, pressing the buttons on the Gameboy with his thumbs. He didn’t even look up.
Per shot forward, hurtling across the tarmac.
‘Jesper!’
Now he looked up. He turned around, open-mouthed.
But the Audi was moving faster, the tyres spraying gravel and sand all around as it headed straight for Jesper.
4
Vendela Larsson had been sitting meditating next to Max when the accident happened. She had disappeared inside herself, eyes half-closed, perceiving the fields and meadows and all the stone walls like a film rolling past outside the car window. A familiar landscape, yet alien at the same time. Max had been here on a couple of occasions during the autumn and winter when the house was being built, but for Vendela it was the first time for many years.
Was it thirty years, or thirty-five? She couldn’t remember.
As she started to calculate in her head, something hit the front of the car with a thud.
‘Fuck!’ yelled Max, and Vendela was suddenly wide awake.
There was a brief slurping sound, then the windscreen was covered in red.
