“What was that all about?” I asked.
He shrugged. “He’s looking for a reason to arrest me.”
“You got one?”
Blue eyes looked directly into mine for once and he answered, “Nope. How about you?”
I laughed. “Nana and I are guilty of not wearing hairnets when we cook. Will you bust us out if he takes us in?”
He winked. “You bet.”
I studied him with his old clothes and worn boots. For all I knew he was just like Mary Lynn, hiding out from the real world. He could be a drifter or an outlaw, but one thing for sure, he wasn’t afraid of the cops. I didn’t know whether to be reassured that he wasn’t a criminal, or worried that he was good enough never to be caught.
And one other thing, I loved the way he winked.
Without another word, he passed me and went into the store. A few minutes later, he returned with a cup of live worms and an apple fritter.
“Nice breakfast,” I said.
He nodded, but didn’t meet my eyes as he crossed to the side of the porch and picked up his fishing pole.
Later, I noticed his canoe was gone. I didn’t have time to worry about what he’d said to the sheriff. The morning was full of work. My alien mailman showed up with his wagon loaded with boxes. It seemed everyone shopped by mail or online now that they knew I’d be here to receive the boxes.
By noon, Timothy had picked up two boxes from Amazon, Mrs. Deals had sent Willie to get her box from Dell, and Mary Lynn had driven over to get her four fluffy packages from the Home Shopping Network.
I was glad Mary Lynn came last. I asked her to join Nana and me for tea on the porch and she accepted as graciously as if we drank out of fine china and not mugs. She talked of her garden and a small greenhouse where she grew plants all winter. Nana told of how her father always made them plant corn by the dark of the moon and potatoes in the light of day.
I mostly listened for any hint of the story the sheriff had told me. But Mary Lynn never mentioned her family or any tragedy.
After she left, I talked to Nana about keeping the coffeepot warming on the counter all afternoon now that the days were getting cooler. Customers could come in and help themselves.
“You’re feeling guilty,” she said in answer. “You always do when you feel like luck’s been good to you.”
I stared at Nana, the one person who knew me all the way to my heart. “Maybe,” I answered.
Nana patted my arm three times. “You can’t always bounce blessings, child. Sometimes you just have to catch them.”
She walked away muttering a recipe for cookies she planned to make to go next to the free coffee.
I sauntered through the store, straightening supplies. I was settling in. Getting to know people. Starting to care.
Panic hung like static electricity around me. I stilled, fearing the shock if I moved. If I wasn’t very careful, I’d start believing I belonged here, then when we had to move on the pain would be sharper than ever. Sharper even than when we had to leave the farm after Grandpa died. I’d already taken full bolts of sorrow the few times I’d tried to belong. I wasn’t sure how much more I could take.
Chapter 16
The next few days passed in a calm haze. I went down to the gas station on the highway and called in an extra large order for Micki to bring out, which included two gallons of teal paint. I had thought of driving all the way into Lubbock and picking it out, but didn’t want to leave Nana too long. Cooking, she was great, but when she made change at the store, she couldn’t seem to get it right. Though she shrugged it off as always being poor at math, I remembered how she used to balance her checkbook to the penny.
When Micki brought the order on Thursday, I took a few hours off and painted the upstairs teal. Micki told me it looked great, but she was wearing a lime green scarf, orange-trimmed socks, and red knee shorts at the time. I couldn’t help but wonder what her husbands must have been like. She looked like she could bench-press three hundred pounds.
We made our weekly trip into town and bought our dollar-store supplies using money from the tip jar beside the free coffeepot. I told everyone it was free, but they always left a little anyway. I discovered fishermen were an easy lot, slow-moving and friendly with little-boy smiles. For most of them, a day fishing was a day playing hooky from life.
On the drive back home, Nana was silent for a long while, then said, “I always sleep next to Flo when winter comes. She can’t keep warm without me there.”
“You mean when you were a child?” I knew the past sometimes came back so strong to her that it was like yesterday and not seventy years ago.
“Yes,” she said as she stared out at the dry buffalo grass blowing in the wind. “My ma always made us wear socks, but when I’d crawled out of bed in the morning I could still feel the cold floor. We’d dress as fast as we could and run down to the kitchen stove. Many a morning I ate my breakfast standing with my back to the fire.”
I took her hand and we drove on in silence. I loved her stories, even the sad ones. They made me feel like I belonged to a small slice of that time-like the memory of it was in my genes, not just in my head.
When we pulled up to the lake, I noticed Paul Madison’s BMW parked near the dock. He had on jeans and a dress shirt with the sleeves rolled to the elbows. He’d told me Monday that his cell phone wouldn’t work up at the cabin he’d just bought. I broke the news that no one’s phone worked around here except Mrs. Deals’s, and Willie said she’d turned the ringer off years ago. He said his wife would be writing if she wasn’t able to make it from Dallas by the end of the week.
I climbed out of the van, hoping he had no letter in the box left on our porch. Maybe she’d come down tomorrow and they’d patch up whatever argument had made him look so sad.
Paul waved as Timothy shoved off for his day of sitting on the lake, then the businessman turned and walked toward me. He tried to act casual, even offering to help with the groceries, but I saw the worry in his eyes when he glanced toward the porch.
Once we were inside, he poured himself a cup of coffee and watched me sort the mail.
I’d almost reached the bottom of the box when I frowned. Paul Madison had a letter. One in a business envelope. That couldn’t be good.
When I lifted it, he set down his coffee and walked toward me. I tried to think of something to say. “Maybe she’ll make it out for a little of the weekend.”
“Maybe,” he said as he took the letter. For a moment he just stared at it, then without looking at me, he walked out of the store.
The wind caught the wind chimes in Nana’s kitchen and I heard the familiar tinkle. I moved to the window and watched Paul head toward his car. He couldn’t have been more than thirty-six or so, but he seemed to age as he walked.
A pair of fishermen getting an early start on the weekend pulled in and blocked my view of Paul. They climbed out, laughing and wagering bets. One had a hat that looked like a hook cushion and the other’s hat had a bite-sized piece missing off the brim. His friend called him Hank, but he looked more like a Herbert to me. Old hats and new clothes. I’d guess these guys didn’t know much about fishing.
I stayed at the window, letting Nana greet them and offer coffee. The two men wandered around the store like two children allowed to fill the shopping basket for the first time. Forty dollars of snacks later, they were ready to go.
When they left, I turned and noticed Luke staring at them from the pass-through window. When he looked at me, he frowned.
“What do you think?” I asked. “Bank robbers hiding out or escapees from that show
“Worse,” he answered. “They’re drunk fishermen.”
I blinked and he was gone. I guessed it would be a waste of time to even bother to look for him. The man
