with the plan.
The trial began on a Monday, and the general feeling was that it would last five to seven days. Your father had told me he had also arranged to attend, and we met outside the courtroom, taking our seats just as Hart was brought in.
His shoulder had healed sufficiently for the more conspicuous bandaging to be reduced to a padded sling. His counsel objected to the prison doctor's decision, believing it gave the jury a false impression of his ability to use that arm. Still, it was rather obvious that the shoulder was held awkwardly as he came up the stairs into the dock. I thought he appeared to be under considerable strain, but otherwise he seemed to be in control and aware of his plight.
When he was asked how he would plead, his counsel rose to speak, but Hart was there before him, and to the absolute horror of most of the spectators, he said quite clearly and without emotion, I plead guilty to both charges.
Pandemonium reigned for all of a minute, his counsel begging for time to confer with his client and nearly drowned out. When the bailiffs had restored order, the judge turned to Hart and said, Do you understand the consequences of your plea? And Hart replied quite steadily that he did and was ready to accept them.
I put the letter down, staring at nothing as the words brought me so close to that courtroom that I could imagine the scene quite clearly, Lieutenant Hart in the dock, his counsel and the KC staring alternately at him and at the judge, unable to fathom what was happening. After all, everyone had been prepared for a trial, not for the rug to be pulled precipitously from under their feet. And in the center of this maelstrom, his face pale but determined, was Michael Hart.
The effect on the jury must have been momentous. The trial couldn't continue.
But what in heaven's name had possessed him? Why had he thrown his chances to the winds, and ignored the advice of the barrister retained to save him from the gallows?
I sat there, my head reeling, my heart plummeting to the soles of my shoes.
It was the very height of foolishness, and it made no sense.
After a time, I picked up Simon's letter again and turned to the second page. Justice Bromley asked if Hart had any more to add to his plea, and he was answered by a single shake of the head, then a very firm No.
I needn't tell you what happened next. The court had no choice but to accept the plea before them, and I thought of you when the judge reached for his black cap. He declared that the circumstances of the two attacks, both on women alone and vulnerable, and the brutal stabbing before one had gone into the river and the other abandoned to bleed to death on the pavement, left no room for compassion or understanding. And he condemned Michael Hart to be hanged.
The words seemed to roll around my head, echoing through the room where I sat in the early twilight, unable to reach out and turn on the lamp beside me. Light would make it true. Sitting here in the shadows, I could almost pretend that this letter had never come.
Or that Michael Hart had offered something, some crumb of comfort or explanation to his bald statement. Why? Even if he had done these things-which I still doubted-why had he admitted to them? Was it conscience?
How had I been so wrong about him?
I picked up the letter again, hoping that Simon had an answer to that question.
But he didn't. He and my father had left the courtroom with the rest of the spectators, all of whom were talking about this shocking turn of events.
Simon ended the letter with a final paragraph. I tried to speak to his barrister, but the man refused to hear me. I had the feeling he was too angry to trust himself to talk to anyone. The Colonel and I decided the best move now would be to see Hart. If we can gain access to him. If he will see us. I have considered tearing up this letter. Or not sending it until we've heard what he has to say. But in all fairness to you, my dear girl, it had to be sent. I wish I could be there when you read it. I wish I had better news.
And it was signed with his name, nothing more.
I reread the letter, still trying to absorb it.
Why would Michael Hart condemn himself? What did he know that had made him confess to murder, whether he had done that murder or not?
And the answer was there in front of me.
I went back to the letter and looked for the words again. And there they were.
Simon's discussion with Michael's barrister: He believed that your evidence regarding events at the railway station would be crucial, as it indicated that Hart was not Mrs. Evanson's lover, and therefore had no reason to kill her to protect himself from charges that he was the child's father. As she was already married, Hart could hardly be considered a jilted lover or cuckolded husband.
Michael had confessed because he didn't want the world to hear about Marjorie's lover, Marjorie's infidelity, Marjorie's shame. It would have had to come out. It would be in all the newspapers, the gossip of London, a nine- day's wonder, and at the end of it, Marjorie would have been seen as the woman who betrayed her severely burned husband, the husband who had killed himself rather than live with the truth.
Whether Michael was guilty or not, he had given her one last gift of love-his silence.
Still, the Colonel Sahib would have something to say on that subject. 'Gallantry,' he often told his men, 'is an act of great courage under fire, of bravery beyond the call of duty. But if it kills your comrades as well or puts the battle in jeopardy, then it is arrant pride and foolishness. Learn to know the difference.'
But then Michael was only putting himself in jeopardy.
I set the letter down and went to my small trunk. Lifting the lid, I searched through my belongings for the photograph of Marjorie Evanson that I still carried with me because no one else seemed to want it.
I found the frame, turned it over, and looked at the face of the dead woman, trying to think what it was about her that had made two men love her so fiercely.
She was quite pretty, with fair hair and what must have been blue eyes, but that wasn't the person, only an outward reflection.
There must have been some quality that the camera couldn't capture, something in her smile or a vulnerability that appealed to men.
There were prettier women-Diana, my flatmate, was certainly far more beautiful.
Possibly Raymond Melton had seen her as a challenge. Some men liked that.
It occurred to me that I should send this photograph to Michael Hart. If he hadn't killed her, he would take comfort in it.
Perhaps he would whether he had killed her or not.
But it seemed a betrayal of her husband, who had clung to this photograph through the darkest hours of his life.
And how Victoria Garrison and Serena Melton must be celebrating now. They had got what they wanted, both of them.
I took a deep breath and put the frame back in my trunk and closed the lid.
The practical question now was what to do about Michael?
Did I take him at his word? Or should I go on searching for a murderer?
I turned, pulled on my boots, and went to see Matron.
If I could have leave, I could go to England and try once more to get to the bottom of Marjorie Evanson's death.
But Matron, swamped with wounded, refused to consider my request for leave, although I told her that it could be a matter of life or death.
'We're shorthanded, Sister Crawford. And your love affair will just have to wait.'
'It isn't a love-'
She cut me short. 'You aren't the first nursing sister to come to me with such a request. Nor will you be the last. I was young, like you. I can appreciate the fact that your world feels as if it's coming to an end. But men are dying here, and I will thank you to concentrate on their needs, not your own. Selfishness has no place on the battlefield.'
With that she dismissed me, and I had no option but to walk out of her office and return to my quarters.
Consoling myself as best I could, I wrote a letter to Simon, and set it out for the post. If only he'd told me when the date of execution was. But perhaps he didn't know. I had a feeling that Michael would ask that it not be
