Then she remembered the bookstore’s lost-and-found.
She rooted around in the unclaimed sweaters, flowered umbrellas, scratched sunglasses, wrinkled scarves, and... what was a purple suede glove doing in there?
Ah, there it was. The driver’s license. A woman had left it on the counter about two months ago. Gayle had mailed it to the address on the license, but it came back “addressee unknown.” It was probably a fake, but Gayle had tossed it into the lost-and-found limbo.
Helen looked at the battered license. It was for Kay Gordy, a cute blonde, age thirty-eight, height five-eight, weight one-forty-five. Helen was four inches taller, four years older, and fifteen pounds heavier. She was also a brunette. Well, no woman looked like her driver’s-license photo. It would have to do.
Helen felt calm enough to call the jail recording again for Peggy’s visiting day. She nearly dropped the phone when she heard it was today. Today? If she missed it, she’d have to wait another week. Visiting hours seemed designed for working people—that was one blessing. They were three-thirty to ten p.m. She got off work at three. She could catch the bus and make it back before her date with Rich at eight o’clock.
It seemed like a good plan as the bus crawled through the late-afternoon traffic, but her courage began to fail as she got closer. The landscape around the North Broward jail was flat, barren, and hot, more like a desert than lush South Florida. The jail looked like a warehouse surrounded by razor wire.
As Helen approached, she saw cops of all sorts: locals from Fort Lauderdale, Hollywood, Pembroke Pines, and Dania Beach. Police from Miami to the south and Delray Beach to the north, state cops, and gray-suited FBI agents, all watching her with hawk-like eyes. Even in her worst nightmare, she’d never imagined this. When she ran from St. Louis, Helen changed her name, but not her face. Did the court send her description to Florida?
White female, age forty-two, weight approximately 150 pounds, height six feet, brown hair, brown eyes, no distinguishing marks... ? Had these cops seen her photo? They had phenomenal memories. Would someone remember her and send her back to St. Louis?
She put her head down, hunched her shoulders, and tried to make herself invisible. But there was no way she could erase herself. Any odd behavior would make her more noticeable.
I’m being ridiculous, she told herself. I’m twelve hundred miles from St. Louis. I’m here to help my friend Peggy. Who’s going to recognize me?
She felt trapped in the security line. There was a police officer behind her, so she couldn’t even bolt. She put her purse on the conveyor to be X-rayed and walked through the scanner. Something on her set it off. The guard waved the wand around her. She held her breath until she passed.
Helen presented her driver’s license and signed her fake name, Kay Gordy, then sat and waited. An elderly woman sat down next to Helen, then moved away. I must stink of fright sweat, she thought. Or maybe the woman just wanted to be alone.
Finally, she was shown to a narrow cinder-block booth with a Plexiglas window set in the wall. Peggy sat down.
Redheads were supposed to look good in green, but Peggy’s green jailhouse scrubs seemed to drain all the color from her face. Her dark red hair was too vivid, as if it belonged to a more flamboyant woman. It did—the old Peggy who sat out by the pool with Pete. She looked forlorn without her parrot.
Helen wanted to reach out and touch her friend. Instead, she picked up the phone receiver on the wall. Peggy’s first words were, “How’s Pete? Is he eating OK?”
Peggy had not been eating at all. She was thin and tired.
Helen did not know how she would survive in here until her trial. And after the trial, if she lost... She wouldn’t go there.
“Pete’s fine,” Helen said quickly. “He misses you.”
She did not mention that Pete was driving Margery nuts.
He squawked constantly and demanded to be let out of his cage. When Margery had let him out, he’d chewed up her living room curtains. Now Pete was in jail, too, life without possibility of parole. He threw his seed on the floor and spilled his water in fury.
“How is everybody at the Coronado?” Peggy said, as if she were asking about her family.
“The same. Margery is still into purple. Phil is still into pot. Cal is still cooking up smelly suppers of boiled broccoli and Brussels sprouts.”
“And you’re still seeing Dr. Rich?”
“Tonight’s my first visit to his home. I’m going to meet the animals, Sissy and Beans.”
“I never liked a man enough to take him home to Pete,” Peggy said.
Helen found this attempt at ordinary conversation un-bearably sad. It felt strange talking on the phone to someone you were looking at, someone separated only by a sheet of Plexiglas. She sneaked a peek at her watch. She’d have to start back soon. They had not discussed anything important yet.
“Peggy ...” Helen began, and then stopped. She did not know how to go on.
But Peggy knew what she wanted to ask. “I didn’t do it. I hated Page Turner. But I never killed him.”
“A witness says you picked Page up at the bookstore the night he died.”
“I did,” Peggy said. “Did Margery tell you why? I thought I could get that video back.”
“The one with the senator’s son?” That was tactful, Helen thought.
“The senator’s dead son. If that video got out, I’d be the Monica Lewinsky of Florida. Only it would be a hundred times worse. I not only had coke-snorting sex with an anti-drug senator’s son, I killed him, or let him die. At least that’s what Page said.”
“Did you?”
“I don’t think so. But I was so fucked-up back then, I don’t know.” This didn’t sound like the Peggy Helen knew.
I talked to her almost every day, Helen thought, and she told me nothing about herself. But then what did I tell her about me? People in Florida did not discuss the past. They moved here to get away from it.
“I didn’t know you were engaged to Page Turner,” Helen said.
“It wasn’t anything I was proud of,” she said. “I hoped when we broke off” (Helen noticed that
“What did you see in him?” Helen asked. It was a rude question, but this didn’t seem the place for ordinary politeness.
Peggy shrugged. “Page was different from the other men I’d dated. He was funny. He was rich. We did things and went places. We’d sail to Miami for dinner or fly to New York for a play. On Monday morning, I’d go back to my dull little job and my dull little life. Being with Page was like having a secret life. It was exciting. I knew if he ever left me, I’d have nothing. Then he started with the cocaine.
That was another exciting secret. I felt so good, so mellow, so alive that first time. I never felt that way again, but I kept trying. First drugs are a lot like first love.
“Coke changes people,” she said. “It made Page meaner.
It made me do crazy things I’d never even thought about before.”
Like a threesome with a senator’s son.
“I loved him,” she said. “I thought we were getting married. Page gave me a ring for my birthday. We were going to fly off one weekend and go to the Elvis chapel in Las Vegas. But somehow, we never got around to it. Then one morning, after he got out of my bed, I opened up the paper and there was the announcement for his society wedding in Palm Beach. You know what happened next.”
Helen did, but she couldn’t picture this pathetic woman summoning up enough rage to run barefoot in her nightgown to Page Turner’s bookstore. Maybe she and Peggy had both used up their lifetime quotas of anger.
“The police haven’t found that video yet, have they?”
Peggy said.
Helen was glad Peggy asked that question. It seemed to confirm her innocence.
“No,” she said. “They’re still looking. When did Page first start blackmailing you with that tape?”
“About a month ago. He’d dried out when he married Astrid and he behaved himself for a while. But then he started drinking. All he did was trade coke for booze. Soon he was back to his old ways with women, too. Last month, he got drunk, called me up, and started tormenting me about the video. I begged him to burn it. I’d get him calmed down and then he’d call again. After the last call, I didn’t hear from him for several days.
