return home. Then came the familiar creak of the loose floorboard near the front door. Another pool of light appeared as Father lit a second lamp. Through the stained-glass panels of the front door, I watched the distorted sphere of yellow pass along the hallway.
‘Who is it at this hour?’ my father called.
‘It is I, Father. William.’
‘William? What the devil …’
I heard him place the lamp on a table near the door and then came the rasp and scrape as he undid the locks and slid the bolts. Finally, the door opened and we stood face to face.
I had been back here only rarely since going up to Oxford. I hated this place and I did not wish to refresh my memories of the years I was forced to live in Fellwick Manor. I wrote to my father only very occasionally, and when I did filled the letters with the sort of utter tosh and lies I knew he would want to read, so as not to deter him from paying me my allowance. I had known for as long as I could remember that the man detested me. Always had done. Always would. Furthermore, he had no glimmer of understanding as to why I should wish to waste three years studying Fine Art. But that said, Father was civil enough upon my arrival. He did not send me back to town to find a lodging house, at least. He offered me some food. Cook had left a plate of cold meats in the pantry. What I wanted most was a stiff whisky, but I knew that that would be entirely out of the question, and so I settled for cocoa, which I insisted I made, while Father sat nearby and asked me inane questions about life at Oxford.
The drug took only a few minutes to work. The first sign was that he started to slur his speech, as though he were drunk. Then he began to stare at me with a slightly glazed expression. ‘Good Lord,’ he said, running his fingers over his bald pate. ‘I feel most odd.’
‘That would be the morphine, Father.’
He stared at me unsteadily, his eyes wandering off target, then he looked puzzled.
‘I put morphine in your drink.’
He did not have the energy to move or even to alter his facial expression. It was really very amusing, dear lady. I did not waste a moment. I knew I had to move fast because I had only used a tiny quantity, so it would soon wear off. I wanted its effects to evaporate, but not until I was entirely ready.
I walked around the back of Father’s chair and pulled him to his feet. He could barely walk, but I managed to half-carry him to his study. As we reached the room, I could tell he was already beginning to shake off the effects of the drug, but I had a firm grip on him. I pulled two short lengths of rope from my pockets and swiftly bound his wrists and ankles. Then I positioned a chair in front of the desk, spun my father round and pushed him so that he fell face forward across the desk, with his knees on the chair.
‘Have you … go … gone … ma … mad?’ he managed to splutter.
‘Most probably, Father,’ I retorted. I pulled off my cravat and wrapped it around his head, pulling it tight between his lips so that he could no longer move his jaws. The best he could manage was a low grunt, which I found quite hilarious. I stood back to survey my efforts, then took a step forward to tear away the back of his shirt. I then undid his trousers and yanked them down to his ankles, exposing his scrawny backside. Spinning round, I reached into the cupboard for the cane. It was there, just as it always was.
I walked around the other side of the desk and crouched down to twist my father’s head round so as to face me. His eyes were wild with fear and fury. Saliva ran down his chin because in this position he could not swallow.
‘Well,’ I said, ‘this is what the novelists call a reversal of fortune, Father. For many years I’ve fantasised about doing this. I’ve had very pleasant dreams about it. The only pity is that your bitch of a wife is not here to see it too. That would have been a truly delicious experience.’
He grunted and struggled to slide off the chair, but he was not the man he once was, and I was no longer a little boy he could overpower.
I returned to the other side of Father’s desk, raised my hand and brought the cane down with that old familiar ‘whoosh’.
I cannot tell you for how long I beat my father, each stroke more frenzied than the last. I lost all track of time. My arm began to ache from the exertion, but I did not let that deter me. I was panting; sweat ran off me. At length I felt a terrible pain in my chest and almost passed out. That was when I stopped.
Slowly, I lowered my arm to my side and dropped the bloodied cane to the floor. It fell silently on the rug. My father had stopped making any sound some indefinable time earlier. There was little left of his skin. The flesh was flayed, blood-smeared, grey; a few vertebrae lay exposed.
I seemed to snap back to myself then. I untied the ropes, letting Father’s body tumble to the floor. Then I slipped the ropes back into my pocket, crouched down and removed my cravat from his distorted mouth. His face was blackened and bruised from where it had slammed against the desk. His horrible moustache was bloodied. His eyes were closed. Turning, I picked up the cane and broke it in two, tossing the pieces to opposite sides of the room.
In the outhouse, I found a can of paraffin. I opened the top and sniffed, coughing as the fumes hit me. Then I paced around the ground floor of the Manor with the can tilted, the liquid sliding out and over the floors. I started the fire in the study by tossing the oil lamp on to the floor beside my father’s body. Staying inside the house just long enough to get the stink into my clothes, I blackened my face and shirt with soot. As I ran out on to the road beyond the Manor’s grounds, the flames really started to catch hold. I heard the voices of neighbours running towards me. Putting on a performance that would have made Sarah Bernhardt proud, I staggered along the path, weeping and screaming for assistance. Deep inside me, I felt the old William Sandler, son of Gordon and Mary Sandler, vaporise like my father’s blood spilled on the study carpet.
Chapter 21
Brick Lane, Saturday 24 January, 6.30 a.m.
The station was quiet. It usually was at this time of the weekend, a relatively mellow stretch between the chaos of late-Friday night and early-Saturday morning, when the holding cells were emptied and the drunks booted out. Jack Pendragon nodded to the duty sergeant at the front desk and paced down the corridor towards his office. Glancing into the Ops Room, he saw Turner sitting at a terminal. The sergeant looked up, bleary-eyed.
‘You look awful,’ Pendragon said, stepping into the room.
Jez yawned loudly, placing a hand over his mouth. ‘Thanks, guv. But at least I don’t look as bad as some of this lot.’ And he pointed to the screen.
‘What is it?’ Pendragon came round the desk and leaned on Turner’s chair.
‘It’s Jackson Price’s film of the knees-up on Tuesday night. Some right old characters.’
‘Have you seen anything interesting?’
‘No. I’ve been through the whole thing. Just about the most boring two hours I’ve spent in my life. On my second run-through now.’
Pendragon pulled up a chair and studied the images on the screen. The film was shot in fashionable Gonzo- style. The cameraman, Michael Spillman, passed through the room casually interviewing people. Sometimes he would merely ask how they were; at others he was more mannered, offering faux-philosophical questions. ‘Do you think the creator of a work has a controlling stake in the outcome?’ he asked one guest. The reply was inaudible and he moved on to a tall woman in dungarees. ‘If there’s an afterlife,’ he posited, ‘what would be God’s commission?’
‘I’ve done some Google searches on a few of the characters on the guest list and matched them up with the video,’ Turner said. Then he pointed to the screen. ‘There’s Berrick.’
A solidly built man came into view holding a champagne flute. In his mid-fifties, he was jowly, hair dyed black, with a confident, proprietorial air about him. ‘The woman he’s talking to is Meg Lancaster the actress.’ Pendragon nodded. ‘And there’s Noel Thursk,’ Turner added, tapping the screen. A slightly built, white-haired man appeared from the right-hand edge of the monitor. He was wearing a black suit, a collarless white shirt and grey waistcoat.
‘Who’s the woman there?’ Pendragon asked, pointing to a tall brunette in a stylish black evening dress. She looked to be in her mid-thirties, with a stunning figure that could only have come from a combination of great genes
