The Athenian pressed her hands to her ears. ‘Shut up, just shut up!’ she screamed. ‘I can’t stand to hear your voice any more.’
She scrambled to her feet and ran from the surgery in tears.
Lysandra watched her go. She knew that Danae was merely lashing out in her grief. Anyone else would have taken her words to heart, but Lysandra was pleased that she was above such things. Now was the time that the Hellene women would need her leadership most. It occurred to her that this more personable, caring side of her nature had been brought out by Eirianwen.
She leant over the corpse that had been Penelope and whispered a prayer for the dead. She did not know if the gods would accept her words but this was a duty she felt she must fulfil. She had no coin for Charon, and hoped that he would understand this, allowing Penelope to pass over the Styx to Elysium.
That was all she could do.
XXII
Lysandra decided that there was no time like the present to console the Hellene women. Certainly, they would all be upset at Penelope’s demise but it was her opinion that Danae’s histrionics would only make the situation worse. Now was a time for cool heads and calm voices, not for funeral wailing.
That Penelope was gone was tragic, but a warrior must not only be prepared to meet death but walk with him as a constant companion. The reasoning may have sounded hollow even in her own mind but it was her duty to convey strength to the others.
She made her way through the warren of tunnels beneath the arena, back towards the Hellene women’s cell. On her way, she spied Sorina and her entourage walking purposefully to the Gate of Life. The aging barbarian was not clad for battle and Lysandra paused, interested to see which one of the more experienced fighters from Balbus’s ludus would take to the sands. As they passed her by, her throat caught as she saw Eirianwen among them.
She was totally naked, her body coated in the same strange bluish paint that Albina had used, and her normally lustrous hair was sticking out from her head at all angles. Eirianwen stared straight ahead, her eyes not deviating from the woman in front of her. Lysandra was about to call out but stilled her voice. She did not want to break her love’s concentration before a bout.
Her love.
The thought came unbidden but she realised the truth of it. She was gripped with anxiety at the thought of Eirianwen entering the arena. What if she were hurt, or worse? Certainly, it was an ill-omened day; they had lost Penelope, and Lysandra feared that Eirianwen would share the same fate. She must watch the combat and pray for her safe deliverance. She could not bear the thought of having to await the outcome, even though she would not be welcome in the stalls with Sorina’s people.
She waited for them to pass her by and had decided to follow on at a discreet distance, when she realised that she should go to her friends. The Hellene women needed her now, but she was torn: her heart told her to follow Eirianwen, to see her safe home; her duty, her responsibility, lay with the Hellenes. Biting her lip in frustration, she hesitated. Perhaps, she told herself, she should wait before seeing the Hellene women. Emotions would still be running high and she should speak when they were calm. That might be the more prudent option — then she could both watch Eirianwen’s bout and fulfil her duty.
‘No,’ she said aloud. That was a dereliction. The feelings that urged her to be near Eirianwen were of no consequence. Eirianwen was strong. She had not survived thus far by luck alone and perhaps she would be insulted if she knew Lysandra had been worried over her. After all, she had shown no such concern when Lysandra had fought her own bout.
Lysandra watched the little entourage till they were swallowed by the crowd and gloom of the tunnel before turning about to stride purposefully back towards the gaol.
Nastasen looked up, squinting at the light that flooded into his prison. He still ached from the beating he had taken but his fury had burned much of the hurt away.
‘Hello, Nasta.’ Stick’s ugly face greeted him with a grin. ‘Are we calm today?’
‘Just get me out of here.’
‘Balbus should be mightily fucked off with you.’ Stick sauntered in, keys jingling. ‘I know I was. But you’re lucky that these games are such a huge event and that he has much to worry about.’
Nastasen nodded his thanks as Stick freed him from his bonds.
‘What about the Spartan bitch?’
‘You just forget about her,’ Stick admonished, waving a finger in his face. ‘She’ll take a lashing for insubordination and that will be that.’
‘Is that all?’
‘That’s more than enough.’ Stick retorted. ‘It’s not her fault that you’ve taken a dislike to her. Besides, she won her bout and looked good doing it. Balbus isn’t going to sell her after that display so you’d better get used to having her around the ludus.
And,’ he went on as they left the cell, ‘you put this whole thing behind you. You don’t like her, ignore her.’
‘She has offended my honour.’ Nastasen would not be molli-fied. Inwardly he burned with the desire to have the girl punished in the most humiliating of ways.
‘And you think trying to shove your fingers in her cunnus isn’t offending her honour?’ Stick gave one of his neighing laughs.
‘You know how uptight she is.’
‘You do that to the novices all the time.’
‘Only to the ones I know will take it without causing a fuss.’
Stick grumbled. ‘You’re the second person to mention me doing that. Is everyone around here getting soft all of a sudden?’ Nastasen did not respond to that. ‘Look,’ Stick said after a moment. ‘It’s better for everyone if you just stay away from her.’
Nastasen regarded the little man. He could not let Lysandra go unpunished for drawing his blood, for daring to strike him.
She was a woman and such an insult could not be borne. But he was no fool. Revenge would be his, but he must play the crocodile for now, waiting calmly beneath the surface to strike when none expected it. He forced a smile. ‘You’re right, Stick,’ he said, patting him on the shoulder. ‘I’m being foolish.’
‘Yes, you are.’ Stick responded with his buck-toothed grin showing that he considered that matter closed. ‘Now then -
Eirianwen is just about to fight. Let’s go and see our woad-painted savage in action.’
Lysandra could hear the roar of the crowd as she entered the cell. Pressing her lips into a thin line, she tried to cast thoughts of Eirianwen from her mind. She must focus on the task at hand.
The women were sitting about the cell, a pervasive air of gloom hanging about them like a shroud. Danae was sobbing incon-solably, rocking back and forth in the arms of Thebe. The Corinthian glanced up at Lysandra as she entered but made no comment.
She drew herself up and took a deep breath. ‘I can see that you are all aware that Penelope has…’ she groped for the right words, before deciding that laconic was best, ‘… died.’ At this, Danae wailed and began crying aloud. Lysandra glowered, but pressed on. ‘That this happened is unfortunate. But not altogether unexpected.’
‘I don’t think now is the time for this sort of thing,’ Thebe said, her comment greeted by affirmative mutterings from the others.
‘I disagree,’ Lysandra told her. ‘This is precisely the time. In retreating into sadness, we do Penelope no honour,’ — she made a slashing motion with her hand — ‘none at all. We debase her with our grief and,’ she scowled at Danae, ‘our wailing. All of you have turned your thoughts to the possibility of death. You saw Penelope fall and you think: ‘that could be me’. Indeed, it could. But if you fear death and go to fight with that fear in your hearts, you will surely follow her. The superior fighter does not fear Hades. The Lord of the Dead is our constant companion whilst we play this game. Show him no fear, and he will not rush to take you. Cower from him and you
