“I’m not really sad.”
“Wistful?” asked Jo.
“I guess.”
Jay looked at Mimi. “It’s weird-I don’t even know what he looks like.”
Mimi has been slouching, tired, fading. Suddenly she sat bolt upright. “I can fix that,” she said. “I’ve got footage of him on my camcorder.”
And so Mimi went out to the car for her camcorder. And when she came in, everyone was clearing the table, but they stopped as she opened the JVC.
“Nice unit,” said Jay.
“Lots of memory,” she said, and found the documentary she had made. “ A Murder of Good-Byes, ” said her recorded voice.
Mimi scrolled to the restaurant scene.
“Well, I never,” said Lou. “Even the glorious Marc Soto is getting old.”
Jay stared at the screen. Jack Nicholson came to mind, but it was probably just the dark glasses and the what-me-worry grin. He glanced at Mimi; she seemed to be waiting for him to say something. But what could he say? He took the camera from her and looked at the stranger who was not a stranger and saw in him… what?
“You’ve got his forehead,” said Lou.
“That’s what I thought,” said Mimi. “And his long tapered fingers, too. See?”
Jay saw fingers wrapped around a wineglass.
“I’ve got way more hair,” said Jay.
“He’s pretty self-conscious about hair loss. He had this jet-black rug for a long time.”
“He was going prematurely bald when he was in his twenties,” said Lou.
“Well, he’s now pretty much bald,” said Mimi. “I’m not sure how mature he is.”
“I’ll make coffee,” said Jo. “Or should I break out the Scotch?”
Apparently, she was only kidding. She drifted back to cleaning up.
Jay just stared at the moving image before him, as if in a spell. “This is so freaking weird,” he said.
His mother slipped her arm around his waist. “You okay?”
“Sure,” he said, his eyes never leaving the screen. He rewound the bit and watched it again. Lou joined Jo at the counter and started loading the dishwasher. It seemed to Jay as if they had tacitly agreed to give him some space-some privacy.
He looked at Mimi. “Chill,” he said.
She shrugged. “I think I’m nervous because I want you to like him. And I’m trying to figure out why.”
Jay reached out and touched her arm. It was maybe the nicest thing she’d said all evening. But her eyes wouldn’t hold his gaze. This was hard for her, too, he realized. As if her life was somehow under scrutiny. He examined the camera. “Very cool,” he said.
Mimi looked relieved. She showed him the features of the HDD. She showed him the rest of the film, too.
“Who is that?”
“Jamila. Hot, huh? Well, stand in line,” said Mimi. She fast-forwarded.
“This is my mother,” she said. She tilted her chin up and did an impression of her mother raising an eyebrow. Jay laughed.
The women came over to look and said how intelligent Grier Shapiro looked and what a beautiful color her pashmina was, and Lou marveled that anyone could walk with such style in high heels. “I never mastered that,” she said. Then they went back to cleaning up and Mimi joined them, but Jay didn’t. He’d made dinner, and anyway he was distracted. He sat on a stool at the kitchen island, playing with the camera. “Hey,” he said. “Here’s the house at the snye.”
Mimi was carrying stuff in from the porch. “What?”
He held up the camera for her to see. She put down the plates and bowls and took the camera from him. She frowned.
“I don’t remember shooting the house,” she said. The camera zoomed in on the upper gable. Someone was standing in the window, looking out at the garden.
It was Mimi.
CHAPTER NINE
Half a mile upstream from McAdam’s Snye, the mouth of Butchard’s Creek opened onto the Eden. But you had to know it was there to find the creek’s mouth. Passing by on the river, you’d see nothing but swamp, dense with soft rushes, water lettuce and arum, arrowhead, loosestrife. Cramer knew where the seam of water ran deep. He had an eye for the creek’s current and a craft responsive to his every demand. She was a fifteen-footer, cedar covered with red canvas, modeled on the old prospector trapper, the Bunny model. Bunny was a good name for her, too, the way she leaped to his response.
The creek opened out about fifty or sixty yards up from the river-too far away for any casual boater to discover it by chance. There were too many mosquitoes, anyway, and the fetid smell of rotting vegetation turned back even the most intrepid explorer. The result was that Cramer had never seen a soul on the creek. It was his private highway. He was its lord and master.
The sun was behind the trees by the time he passed under the Upper Valentine Road Bridge. Just ten minutes from home. The road continued for another couple of kilometers where it used to cross the Eden, but that bridge had been washed away years ago and never been replaced. The road beyond their place had gotten tired of waiting to be repaired. It petered out to a rutted and overgrown trail. The Lees’ box was the mail lady’s last stop. Cramer would watch her drive on up the road to a better turnaround spot to avoid using their steep and pitted driveway. The oil truck wouldn’t deliver to them, either, so they’d had to stick with wood heat. Mavis wanted to convert to electric, but that wasn’t going to happen any time soon, not with the money Cramer made. He was supporting the two of them.
The last house on the road, the last place up the creek; that’s where Cramer Lee was heading, filled with emotions he couldn’t put a name to. There was jealousy in there, resentment, too, but something else-something deeper. A shifting.
There was a quiet and deep pool just past the bridge, where he could pause for a moment without having to fight the current, where he could catch his breath, though his final destination was hardly any distance now. He stopped and laid his paddle across the gunwales. He closed his eyes and could feel the calm of the water rise up through the canoe’s hull. He breathed deeply, tried to block from his mind Mimi Shapiro’s Cracker Jack voice-a voice like some comedian on Saturday Night Live. He tried to block the vision of her naked bottom, her cleavage, her shiny eyes and defiant smile. And he tried to get out of his head the thought that she might be Jackson Page’s girlfriend. What had happened to Iris? Was he two-timing her? Cramer shook his head at the unfairness of it all.
The worst thing was that it would be awhile before he would see Mimi again. God, what if she left! What if she was only there for the weekend? No, there had been things in the back of the car-a box of dishes, kitchen stuff. She has to stay until I’m free again. He worked the nightshift, eight out of twelve days at the 3M plant just outside of town. That started up again tomorrow. He might sneak in an early afternoon trip to the snye, but he also worked part-time at PDQ Electronics, and Hank Pretty had extra work for him. Cramer couldn’t turn down extra work.
It was more unfair than anything.
He opened his eyes and stared down at his hands gripping the paddle. The veins stood out in high relief. He breathed deeply again but couldn’t get the calmness back. He imagined himself in Mimi’s documentary. “This is Cramer,” he could hear her say it. “My good friend Cramer.” And in the film he smiled at her and winked. Then he said something clever like her clever friends to make her laugh. Yeah, right.
He dug his paddle deep into the creek’s dark water, and the canoe shot forward, rounding the last bend.
Up ahead, to his surprise, he saw his mother down by the shore. She was sitting on a granite boulder that poked out into the creek. She had her bare arms wrapped around her knees, and her head was tipped back to catch the very last of the sun. She saw him and waved.
