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now and that I’d been gone, that was all. No one told him that I was asleep. Dying. Then becoming alive again.” She tilted her head and finished off the blood in the tube like it was the last gulp of beer from a bottle, then she tossed the empty tube away. “I found him at a party.”

I imagined her, starving, entering a room of humans, the sound of their blood singing in her ears.

“He said I’d been cheating on him, and went to hit me. I stopped him. For good.”

I wondered if Javier had realized the mistake he’d made—right before Luz had broken his head off. “The party ended after that. I ate him. It was awful, in retrospect. At the time?” She picked up another test tube and looked at it as though it paled in comparison, then threw it aside. “At the time I was hungry. And then she arrived to claim me. Your friend.”

I wasn’t sure friend was the best term to describe the bond between Anna and me. I’d saved her life once, and that was a very big deal, but friend was pushing it.

“I think she wanted me to do what I did. I think she knew I would do it, and she wanted me to, to show me what I was capable of. So that I would believe her. I would know what I’d become, and feel her power over me. But even after that I still fought her.” She looked directly at me. “I don’t like being told what to do. By anyone.”

I snorted. “I remember that about you.”

“We made a deal. As long as I don’t out vampires, or create followers—if I don’t bite anyone human or share any of my blood with them—she will leave me be. So far I have been true to my word.”

I wondered if Anna had given Luz her freedom as a test. And if so, had she ever imagined that Luz would manage to hold out this long? Luz was strong-willed indeed. I looked around at the test tube pit we were in. “How long’d it take you to come up with this workaround?”

“Longer than I would have liked. There were not many dogs out to feed on in winter.” I imagined Luz, half mad with hunger, wandering the streets at night. Her eyes were distant, probably remembering the same. “The only thing keeping me alive—and not under her sway—was my pride. Pride is not a very filling dish.”

She began to sink back against the cement floor, her black hair spilling out like the roads on a map. “And then Adriana found me. She was the most beautiful thing I’d ever seen. She knew Catrina, and Catrina … helped.”

If this was helping. The jury was still out on that one.

“I have been true to my word. And I may kill people, as long as I don’t bleed them. When I realized that—” A sly smiled crossed her face. “I took charge. I punished the gang that had hurt Javier in the first place. Then I started to take their place. Only in different ways. Hopefully better.” Luz finished lowering herself to the floor. “Morning is near. Enfermera, why are you here?” She was fading before my eyes, with the arrival of the sun.

“I need to talk to Anna.”

“If she wanted to talk to you, she’d find you. Next.” Her eyes were halfway closed, like a resting cat.

“My mother has cancer. I want some of your blood.”

She paused, and then laughed and laughed and laughed. “Please say you’re kidding me. No. You’re too earnest to kid. I remember that about you.” She rolled to her side and closed her eyes, nuzzling into the chill cement floor. “Do you really think that’s wise?”

“I don’t know what else to do.”

“I couldn’t help you, even if I wanted to. If I did that, I would break my word. If I give you my blood, I would break my promise to Anna, and that would be the end of my freedom. I have no doubt that she would come herself to take me back.”

“There has to be something I can trade you. Or something that you want.”

She snorted. “You? No. There is nothing more for us to discuss.” The sensation of her presence in the room kept fading.

“Goddammit! Luz!” I crawled over to her on the cement floor, empty test tubes rolling out of my path. I grabbed her shoulders and shook her. It was unwise, but I had finally found a vampire that wasn’t going to kill me and she was turning out to be fucking useless. She didn’t move. I twisted around, looking around her room for anything to grab hold of, leverage to get her to help me. Her unused bed, bathed in heart-shaped pink, mocked me. I frowned and looked down at her now peaceful face. I shook her again. “Luz! Who else lives down here with you?”

One eye opened and fixed on me. “Who told you?”

“No one. Pink hearts aren’t exactly a vampire decorating theme.” I’d gotten a reaction, so I decided to press my luck. “Where is he? Who is it that you’re looking for?”

She groaned, shaking herself, trying to fight the sun. She pushed herself up on her elbows, and I quickly scooted back. “She,” Luz corrected me. “Where is she. She isn’t here.” She breathed like a dying person, raspy and with long pauses, except in her case she was fighting to stay awake. Luz fixed her eyes on me and panted. “There is no way you can find her if I cannot.”

“If it’s a deal—if it’s for your blood—I can. Try me.”

Luz squinted at me, her head beginning to sink down. “Ask Catrina. She can tell you what you need to know.”

I nodded at her relaxing form. “Okay.” I stood, dusting off my knees, as Luz faded. Lightning-fast, one of her arms snaked out and her hand caught my ankle, fingers tight. It would be nothing for her, even half asleep, to crush my ankle and rip off my foot.

“Don’t come back unless you’ve found her,” Luz warned.

“Okay,” I said, my voice pitched higher. She finally went to sleep, and her hand released me. 

CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR

I stared at Luz’s prone form. Could I condemn my mother … to this? I didn’t want her to be a vampire, just a daytimer; I wanted her to get just enough blood to be healed and stay that way. But there were no promises after that, no way I could predict how things would go with 100 percent certainty.

Catrina was waiting outside on the stairs, on the other side of the locked gate. She called out to me. “Get the keys.”

I looked down at Luz again, trying to imagine my mother sleeping there instead of her. “Really?”

“Really.” Catrina crossed her arms.

I slunk back over to Luz and tapped her. She was well and truly gone now—I didn’t know if she was mostly dead, or dead-dead, or what. It was creepy. I reached into her pockets and yanked out the keys too quickly, shaking her. I jumped back, just in case, and then ran back to the doorway.

Catrina snapped her fingers on the other side. “Give them here.”

I imagined her taking them once I did, leaving me locked in here with Luz—there were so many locks, it’d take me hours to free myself on my own. She snapped her fingers again, and I tossed the keys through. From here, I had a good view of the tattoo on her right-hand ring finger’s first knuckle. It looked like a stylized bone.

She began opening the door. I talked while she worked. “Reina said you would help me. She’s looking for someone—”

“I know.” Catrina knelt to get at the last locks on the gate.

“I need something that smells like her, to give to the Hound.” She frowned again at hearing this as I stepped out. I wondered if I would ever see her smile. She closed the door and started relocking the gate.

It wasn’t too late. I could stop Catrina and run back in there and somehow bleed Luz while she slept. But pledging my mother to a vampire that hated her wouldn’t do any good—it was likely to get her killed.

“Come on,” Catrina said as she finished locking the door. She threw the keys back inside, where they clattered on the cement floor and landed by Luz’s thigh. “I’ll take you to her room. We’ll find something for your devil there.”

I took one last look at Luz’s sleeping form. I tried to imagine being in love with a vampire, and drew a blank. Anna and I had done right by each other—but love was not the word. Whatever human