damn obvious to me. “Cooper, we come from different worlds. Different centuries. He’s a freakin’ medieval knight, for God’s sake!”
“Aye,” he agreed. “And some days, he feels the weight of six hundred years’ worth of immortality, six hundred years of being Outcast, six hundred years of hunger. He feels the cut of every betrayal, everyone who turned against him, called him a ghoul, called him a monster, called him unnatural. He feels the loss of every loved one who succumbed to age and death, while he went on and on; sometimes dying, only to be thrown back into the feckin’ mortal coil in no more time than it takes your heart to beat once.”
I had a feeling Cooper wasn’t just talking about Stefan.
“But you know what?” he continued, gazing steadily at me. “Some days he feels just like the regular old boyo he used to be before heaven and hell slammed the door in his face. Some days, all he wants to do is have a laugh with his mates, drink poteen, and steal kisses from a pretty lass without creeping into her soul along the way. And those days? Those are the loneliest days of all.”
I doubted that was the sort of regular old boyo Stefan Ludovic had been, but I got the point. “I’m sorry,” I said softly.
Cooper looked away. “You’re suited, is all I’m saying. You being a bit of a tempest and all. You’d have a good run. And he’d take care of you when it was over.”
“Excuse me?”
“When it was over,” Cooper said patiently. “You’re . . . what? Mid-twenties? You’d have at least ten years.” Looking back at me, he grinned. “Maybe longer these days, eh? You’ll be what they’re callin’ a cougar in your forties.”
My mouth had fallen open. I closed it. Well, duh. Of course it would end that way. How else could it end? Even Ashton Kutcher and Demi Moore couldn’t make it work, and an immortality gap was a hell of a lot bigger than an age difference. And I didn’t doubt that Stefan would take good care of me in my dotage. More and more, I was realizing he had a highly developed sense of honor.
“Thanks,” I said to Cooper. “But I think I’d rather spend my life with someone I can grow old with.”
“Or of course,” he said in a casual tone, “you could always invoke your birthright and bargain for immortality.”
“And risk unleashing Armageddon?” I stared at him. “Are you out of your fucking mind?”
“Don’t think so, no.” Cooper rocked back and forth on his heels. “But some days? Some days, I’d welcome Armageddon.”
Cody finished his call and rejoined us. “Okay, Daise. I told the chief that the Cavannaugh curse was a dead end so far. Levitt’s pulled files on a handful of kids with priors for vandalism in the cemetery, and that’s what the chief wants us to follow up on tomorrow. Sound good to you?”
“Sure.”
He glanced at Cooper. “You willing to lend a hand again?”
Cooper sketched a bow. “The big man’s placed me at your disposal. Just tell me when and where.”
“The big . . .” Cody frowned. “Oh.”
“I’ll call you,” I said to Cooper. With a nod, he straddled his bike, brought it to life, and chugged away.
Cody watched him go. “He looks so young.”
“I know. But he’s over two hundred years old.” It occurred to me that Cooper might be the perfect candidate to tell Heather Simkus, the underage vampire acolyte wannabe, a few things about the burden of immortality. That was either a great idea or a recipe for catastrophe. I’d have to think about it more. I didn’t have a lot of faith in my judgment right now.
Cody had to drive me back to his place to pick up my car, which of course resulted in an awkward parting with the two of us standing in his driveway, both of us feeling that something needed to be said, neither of us knowing what it was.
“This has been a very, very disconcerting day,” I said finally.
He looked relieved that I’d broken the silence. “No kidding.”
“I should go.” Something howled in the distance, long and mournful. Cody’s head turned. “Kinfolk?”
“No. Bob Conklin’s dog. He keeps her tied up around the full moon.” He glanced up at the darkening sky, then at the shadows falling around the woods, then at me, and there was regret in his gaze. I didn’t need to read minds to read his at that moment. If I were a suitable mate, we’d hunt beneath the just-past-full moon tonight, running with the pack and calling to one another, the autumn air ruffling our pelts. We’d hunt and kill and feast, and then we’d go home and fuck like werewolves, and one day we’d teach our own little wolf cubs to do the same thing. Well, just the hunting part with each other, obviously.
I sighed. “Just make sure you get some sleep. God only knows what tomorrow will bring.”
“I will.” Cody hesitated, then grabbed my shoulders and kissed me. It was quick, but firm and decisive.
“You confuse me,” I informed him when he released me, feeling slightly breathless.
“Sorry.” He took a deep breath, possibly feeling the same way. “I’ll talk to you tomorrow.”
I got in my car, settled the spirit lantern I’d been toting around all day in the passenger seat, and did what any sensible hell-spawn in my situation would do: I called my mom.
Less than ten minutes later, I was sitting at the old Formica dinette table she’d found at a thrift store when I was still a kid, shuffling the deck of
I plucked out El Diablito, my significator, and laid it faceup on the table, then shuffled the cards a few more times, doing my best to hold the image of Talman Brannigan’s mausoleum in my mind before cutting the deck three times and handing it to Mom.
She turned over the first card. La Luna, the moon. Cody’s significator.
“Wait.” I held out my hand. “Something doesn’t feel right. Let me try again.”
Mom waited while I shuffled and reshuffled, cut and recut the deck. Once again, she turned over the first card, indicating the crux of the matter.
La Luna.
I sighed. “This isn’t going to work tonight.”
Mom returned La Luna and El Diablito to the deck and set it aside. “Did something happen with Cody, honey?”
“I don’t want to talk about it.” I laid my forehead against the Formica table with a thunk. “Mom, I screwed up big-time.”
She paused. “With Cody?”
“No,” I said without lifting my head. “Yesterday. Everything went wrong. And it’s my fault.”
“Oh, sweetheart!” The chair legs scraped as she got up and came around the table to stroke my hair. “It didn’t sound like it from what I heard.”
“Well, if Jojo hadn’t—” I lifted my head. “Wait a minute. What did you hear?”
“Sandra said that the coven made a mistake focusing on protecting Sinclair Palmer,” she said.
I stared at her. “You knew Mrs. Sweddon was in the coven?”
“It wasn’t my place to tell you, sweetheart.” Mom sounded apologetic. “But it’s all right to talk about it now that you know.”
“Well, there’s not a lot to say.” I shrugged. “Whatever mistakes were made, the responsibility is mine.”
Mom went to the sink to fill the teakettle. “I understand the coven is thinking of trying a summoning spell to capture this . . . duppy, is it?”
“Uh-huh. Sounds like you know more about it than I do,” I said. “I hope they were planning to inform me.”
“Of course.” Mom set the kettle on the stove and turned on the burner. “We were just talking. Sandra’s been after me to join the coven for years.” She gave me a faint smile. “She thinks I have a gift.”
“Why didn’t you?” I asked her.
Her smile faded. “I’ve had enough of summoning for one lifetime, honey,” she said quietly. “I’m happy with my cards.”