not always work in practice.’
‘My father … No, finish eating first, and bathe if you want. There’s a tub in the rooms across the courtyard.’
Adam gave him a single bright look and cut free a cluster of grapes from the mound in the centre of the table. ‘It might be best,’ he agreed. ‘Elene sends you her love. There’s one of her famous letters in my baggage.’ He glanced at Olwen. ‘She’s become a fine young woman in your absence. Pretty too.’
‘Has she?’ Renard stared at the wall behind Adam’s head. He had been forewarned by that piercing glance, by the very fact that Adam was here in Antioch. The smell of the goat’s cheese was suddenly so strong it was nauseating. He pushed his bowl aside, and standing up went to the doorway and looked out on the fountain. De Lorys, groggy-legged, was ducking his head in it and groaning. Renard clenched his fingers in his belt. He leaned one shoulder against the gritty white wall and watched the sunlight pattern the tiles around the fountain. Now he knew why he had been thinking of the marches yesterday.
Fingers pressed his sleeve. Startled, he looked round at Olwen. Already he had forgotten her. She was as unreal to him now as a fevered dream.
‘It is best if I leave, my lord. You know where to find me if you have need. I am sorry if your news is not good.’
She saw him make the effort to concentrate, to bring his mind and eye back from the distance and focus on her. ‘I am sorry too,’ he said with a forced smile. She remembered the touch of his lips on her body, the words they had formed, and shivered. ‘Thank you for last night,’ he added. ‘It was a …’ he hesitated, seeking the words, ‘… a memory to treasure on a cold winter’s night.’ He kissed her lightly on the mouth in farewell and dismissal.
He heard the rustle of her gown, caught the drifting scent of her perfume, attar of roses and something spicier, and then even that was gone. He went back inside.
Finished, Adam was leaning back from the crumb-covered table, a cup cradled in his hands. ‘Who was she?’ he asked. ‘Or am I treading on forbidden ground?’
Renard shrugged. ‘A tavern dancer. It was my first night at home in Antioch after a round of duties for Prince Raymond.’
‘Attractive,’ Adam said appreciatively.
‘Yes.’ Renard sat down in the place Olwen had been occupying and once more caught the echo of her perfume. He moulded a piece of bread into a pellet, then broke it apart.
Adam studied his goblet for a moment, then looked at Renard from beneath his brows. ‘Your father will see another winter snow if he is fortunate, but not beyond.’
Renard stared at Adam and felt the hair rise at his nape.
‘The damp got into his lungs last year. We had to ford the Dee in the spring spate and his horse put a foot wrong. He was wearing mail and the wonder of it was that he was still alive by the time Henry and I finally managed to drag him out. He took the lung fever and it was only by a miracle and your mother’s skill that he survived at all, but there was permanent damage. He can’t take out the patrols like he used to. The first breath of cold or damp air and he starts coughing. Before I left at Christmastide he had begun to bring up blood.’
Renard swallowed. His own lungs stopped working. He struggled for a breath.
‘It was your father who sent me to fetch you,’ Adam said gently. ‘Before it is too late … are you all right?’ Anxiously he leaned across the trestle to touch Renard’s shoulder.
‘Struck by lightning,’ Renard answered woodenly. ‘What do you expect?’ He shrugged off Adam’s compassionate hand. ‘Yes, I’m all right.’
‘There is more,’ Adam warned. ‘Ranulf de Gernons is making a nuisance of himself and your father can’t hold him any more. Henry’s doing his best but …’ He grimaced. ‘Well you know Henry. All brave heart and nothing but solid stone in the head.’
‘What manner of nuisance?’
‘He’s nibbling at Caermoel. Claims that the castle stands on land belonging to him, not Ravenstow.’
Renard’s eyes flashed. ‘That’s a lie! We have a charter from the time of the great survey to prove it, and reaffirmed by King Henry!’
‘I know that. There’s no need to blaze at me!’ Adam raised and lowered his hands in a calming gesture. ‘It is the excuse that’s important, not the truth. There have been a couple of nasty clashes between Chester’s and Caermoel’s patrols, and when your father has complained, it has fallen on deaf ears. De Gernons merely laughs and goes his own way, and Stephen does not want to anger one of his most powerful tenants-in-chief over a fly- biting dispute so he just mutters platitudes into his beard and looks the other way.’
Renard put his hands down on the trestle and stared at a white scar on one of his knuckles, legacy of a skirmish with the Welsh when he was scarcely old enough to wield a war sword. The sun-brown skin would eventually fade like a dream, but the scar would remain with him for life.
‘De Gernons has also been hinting to the King that a certain betrothal might be broken and placed more profitably elsewhere,’ Adam said. ‘To his credit, Stephen has taken scant notice thus far, but he’s apt to change his mind under persuasion.’
Renard felt a burden settle on him, heavy as a black cloak with a gilded border — the responsibility for his family’s estates. ‘So,’ he said, ‘Ravenstow still stands by Stephen then?’
‘For the moment. Your father would rather have Stephen for king than the Empress for queen, but it eats at his conscience that he swore to uphold her claim while her father was still alive.’
‘Everyone swore, and under duress,’ Renard grunted. ‘What about you, where do you stand?’
Adam grimaced. ‘Precariously on the fence, like your father. Were it practicable, I would support Matilda. Her son might only be seven, but the throne is his by right, not Stephen’s. The pity is that she is not fit to be regent while he’s growing up, and his father is too occupied with matters in Normandy and Anjou to be bothered with England. As matters stand, I’m too close to Stephen’s stronghold at Shrewsbury to risk renouncing my fealty. For now I’m a crusader, beholden to neither, and it’s a relief.’
Renard made some swift mental calculations. ‘It will take about a month to make ready. That should give you time enough to reach Jerusalem and return — unless you plan to stay longer?’
‘There is not the time.’
‘No,’ Renard agreed and saw that his hands, flat a moment ago, had clenched into fists. ‘It will soon be winter, won’t it?’
Chapter 3
Hand steady, Olwen painstakingly applied a line of kohl beneath and within her lower eyelid, stepped back from the tiny sliver of polished steel to study the effect, and picking up a pot of red paste and a dainty camel-hair brush, started to paint her mouth. A sodden snore stopped her in mid-stroke. She looked round at the couch and scowled at her Uncle Gwylim. Her sister had taken pity on him last night and given him drinking money and sleeping space — more fool her, the stupid slut. Gwener was never going to be anything more than a common soldier’s whore; this tiny hovel in the wrong quarter of Antioch a reflection of her capabilities.
Olwen returned to her preparations. Her sister brushed through the curtain that separated the house into two squalid rooms. She was wearing a gold silk over-dress that Olwen recognised as her own, and new at that. Gwener had larger breasts and the seams were straining to contain her flesh. Yesterday Olwen might have made a cat-fight out of such blatant misappropriation. Tonight, the glimpse of another world in her eyes, she was merely filled with contempt. Bestowing on her sister a single, cold look, she returned to her toilet.
Gwener yawned and scratched her armpit. ‘Who is he?’ She picked up Renard’s knife that was lying on Olwen’s pallet and examined it.
‘That is my business.’
