Ailith found herself pitying the young Norman woman, and despite Goldwin's dark looks, she continued to visit her regularly at the convent.
She fell into a restless doze and dreamed that a flock of ravens flew over London and settled in such numbers on the roof of her house that the thatch collapsed and buried her beneath it. She awoke with a gasp, her heart thundering in her breast. Grey fingers of light were prying through the cracks in the shutters and she could hear Alaric's relentless crowing. Goldwin still snored. Quietly, so as not to disturb him, Ailith left the bed and donned her shift and undertunic.
Below stairs, Wulfhild was scratching herself and yawning as she coaxed last night's banked fire to life and prepared the soup cauldron. Sigrid was clattering about in the storeroom behind the screen. Ailith joined her and collected a shallow, wooden bowl of chopped up scraps from the previous evening's meal, then went outside to feed the hens. The birds were able to find most of their own food in the summer months, but a small supplement ensured a reliable supply of eggs. Frequently there was a surplus and Ailith would trade these with a neighbour for cheese or butter.
Entering the garth, she let the hens out of confinement and scattered the scraps for them to peck at while she set about collecting the eggs, warm and damp from their straw. She gathered eight in her wooden bowl, and was deliberating whether to serve them scrambled and piled in a buttered, scooped-out loaf, or hard-boiled, when she caught sight of a man sidling cautiously into her garth from the house that she still thought of as Sitric's.
Alarm winged through her and roosted in her stomach as she recognised him. 'Aubert!' she cried, and almost dropped the eggs.
'What's happened? Where is everyone, why is our house empty?' Less than cautious now that he had been seen, Aubert strode up to her. His face was as brown as a sailor's, with paler creases fanning from his hazel eyes. He had lost weight and there was a tired drag to his mouth corners. 'Where's Felice?'
'If you had taken her with you four months ago you would not have to ask!' Ailith snapped. 'I do not know how you have the audacity or foolishness to return here now!'
'In Jesu's name, Ailith, what has happened to her?'
There was a note of panic in his voice that almost caused her to relent and pity him. 'She is safe, with thanks due to the people whose hospitality you have so lightly abused,' she said stiffly. 'Do not look to receive a welcome in my house, and do not insult me by pretending you do not know what I mean.'
Aubert stared at her, a look of shocked astonishment on his face. Then he rallied. 'Whatever you think you know of me, I still love my wife and it was never my intention to harm you or your family.'
Ailith eyed him in return. His manner seemed sincere, but then he had always appeared affable and genuine when he was winkling information out of Goldwin about the Godwinsons. She shook her head. 'I cannot give you my trust again. Felice is safe in the convent of St Aethelburga, but if you try to see her you will be arrested on King Harold's order. He knows you for what you are.' Her lip curled. 'Take ship for Normandy, Aubert, and do not come back.'
'But I need to see her. I want to take her home to Rouen!'
'That is impossible. You will have to return as empty-handed as you arrived. If Felice travels any distance it will be the death of her. She is with child, Aubert, and there have been some difficulties.'
He looked stunned and the lines of exhaustion on his face deepened further. Against her will, Ailith began to feel sympathy for him, but she hardened herself against the impulse to invite him inside to eat and drink. He was their enemy and he had abused their trust.
'What kind of difficulties?' Aubert rubbed his forehead.
'She came close to losing the child in her second month -she bled for three days. If you value her life, leave her alone.' Ailith gestured brusquely. 'Now go. If Goldwin should come out and discover you, he will kill you with his own two hands, and I would not blame him.'
He chewed his lip and hesitated. 'Ailith, I…'
She did not want to hear what he was going to say, whether it be an apology, a justification, or a stumbling plea for her aid.
'Aubert, go!' she cried. 'Must I drive you oft by screaming for help?'
Numbly he shook his head and turned away. Clutching her wooden bowl before her like a shield, Ailith watched him limp dispiritedly down the garth and compressed her lips so that she would not call him back.
CHAPTER 8
In the September dusk, Rolf stood on the bridge between the courtyard and the keep at Brize-sur-Risle, and gazed out upon a small army of footsoldiers and grooms, knights and equerries, the caretakers of a herd of warhorses more than two thousand strong. The last glimmerings of sunlight flashed across glossy hides, burnishing chestnut into fire-red, gilding dun to gold, and polishing black with a rich patina of bronze. A feeling of awe joined Rolf's elation as he watched the gleaming, equine bodies which were going to bear Duke William's endeavour to victory or doom within the next few weeks.
The holding camp was in the act of being transferred from Dives-sur-Mer to St Valery-sur-Somme which was closer to the English shore and in a better position to receive winds favourable to a crossing. Most of the supplies for the invasion had travelled up the coast in William's huge war fleet, but Rolf had deemed it less stressful to bring the horses in his care overland. Soon enough the destriers would have to be led on board ship and securely tied and hobbled for the sea crossing. Their role was vital and they had to arrive in England healthy and undamaged.
Rolf had practised loading and unloading the horses in Dives, starting initially with his own docile dun and progressing through the various levels to the Duke's highly strung black Spanish stallion. Once a rhythm had been established, the task had not been too difficult. Horses that baulked were blindfolded. Others were sweetly coaxed. Rolf discovered the troublesome ones and practised with them, not only practised, but learned, building upon his expertise. The Duke's horse was given a placid old sumpter pony as a companion in his stall and immediately became more manageable. Not that Rolf had to load every single one of the two thousand. His responsibility lay with those of the most value, those of the Duke's personal stable, and those belonging to William FitzOsbern, Rolf's mentor.
The sun sank behind a banner of solid grey cloud, although the sky was still underlit with burning rose, and the river was as bright as a honed sword pointing towards the sea. The neigh of a horse floated up to him and the loud laughter of a soldier at one of the camp fires. Small midges hovered in the twilight. It occurred to Rolf that he might be looking out over the lands of Brize-sur-Risle for the last time, that a month from now his bones might be lying at the bottom of the narrow sea, or bleaching on an English headland. It was a sobering thought, but he was not depressed by it. Rather it served to add a certain piquancy to his determination. Without a little uncertainty, life was apt to become as dull as unsalted bread in Lent.
Above the fading rose colour on the skyline, the first star twinkled out, bright and tiny. He watched its winking pinpoint and savoured the strange pang of pleasure-pain in his soul.
'My lord, will you not come within?' Arlette joined him, laying her hand upon his tunic sleeve. He saw her glance wander over the huge horse herd which had become a single shape in the dusk. He knew that she was afraid he was going to spend the evening hours at the camp fires with his comrades, rather than with her. She had dressed to please him. Her gown of blue wool was moulded to her figure, accentuating her small waist and clinging across her breasts. A scent of herbs and dried rose petals rose from her garments. His hunger sharpened. He had not been home very often these past few months.
There had been women available in Duke William's camp at Dives; a whole industry had been built up around servicing the needs of the large contingent of mercenary soldiers and keeping them happy in the field. Sometimes Rolf had availed himself of their sweaty charms – there had been a particularly athletic, if pungent fisher-girl at Dives, but for the most part he had practised abstinence. While Rolf had a weakness for women, it seldom extended to the sluts and harlots in the army's tail.
He smiled and kissed her because that was what she expected, and followed her into the keep. A portion of his brain kept up a sensible conversation with Arlette while the rest busied itself itemising all the things that had to be done before the morning when the destrier herd would continue its journey to St Valery-sur-Somme.
