accusingly at Julitta.
'What have you done now?' Ailith sighed.
'Hamo told a lie, and when I said it wasn't true and his tongue would drop off, he said it was so, and I was a stupid little bitch. So I kicked him.' Julitta's face was red with indignation.
Ailith eyed her daughter with a mingling of love and exasperation. Hamo's mother was cuddling her fat, pasty-faced son and glowering across the hall at Julitta. 'You should not have done that.'
'He deserved it!'
'Still, you should not have struck the first blow.'
'But he called me a name and he told a lie!' Julitta cried, beside herself with fury. 'He said that Ben was going to marry someone in Normandy. It's not true, he's going to marry me!'
Ailith winced and bit her lip. The child had been bound to discover the truth sooner or later, but she had not bargained for quite so much vehemence. 'Julitta, it was wrong of Hamo to call you names, but he told you no lie. Benedict de Remy has been betrothed to someone in Normandy, a girl of his own age.'
Julitta stared at Ailith with huge, stricken eyes. Her lower lip trembled and she shook her head from side to side with gathering speed.
'Sweetheart… ' Ailith reached for her.
Julitta threw down her slate and stylus and ran away down the hall, her red curls flying and her sobs trailing behind her like a ragged banner. Ailith hastened in pursuit. As she did so, one of the hide thongs securing Rolf's battle axes to the wall gave way, and both weapons clashed down onto a small trestle holding jugs of ale and trencher loaves. One axe landed harmlessly on its side, but the other sank into the table as if the wood was made of moist butter.
Ailith halted. A feeling of dread raised the hairs on her nape and seeped through her pores, chilling her to the marrow. The luck of Ulverton was down, and the way the axe had sundered the wood was an omen. She stared at the still quivering haft and tried to shake off the notion. The thongs were rotten after more than ten years aloft, she told herself; it had been bound to happen. But as she hurried on beyond the exclaiming witnesses to find Julitta, her heart was pounding with fear and the dread remained.
The little girl had thrown herself down upon her small pallet in the main bedchamber, her entire body shaking with grief. It's not fair, it's not fair!' she sobbed.
Ailith gathered Julitta in her arms. Life never was, she thought as she smoothed the unruly hair and kissed the hot temple. 'Benedict is like a brother to you,' she murmured. 'Girls do not wed their brothers.' She half- expected Julitta to be awkward and demand to know why, but the child said nothing. Her sobs diminished to sniffles and the occasional body-shaking hiccup.
'So Hamo was telling the truth,' she said in a quavering, forlorn voice.
'Yes, sweetheart, I'm afraid he was. It doesn't mean he is a blameless innocent,' she added grimly. 'I can imagine the pleasure he took in telling you. Ah, Julitta, why is it so easy to make enemies and so hard to make friends?'
Julitta sniffed loudly, and sitting up, dried her face on the kerchief that Ailith gave her. 'What's a whore?' she asked.
Ailith's blood turned to ice. 'Who told you that word?'
'Is it a bad one?'
'Who told you, was it Hamo?'
Julitta swallowed. 'He said that I would never make a good marriage because you were nought but Papa's stupid English whore and that Papa had another proper wife and little girl somewhere else.' Julitta twisted the kerchief viciously in her fingers. 'He said that Benedict was betrothed to her. I didn't believe him. Mama, what's a whore?'
'Merciful God,' Ailith whispered and turned her head aside, her lips pressed tightly together and her eyes closed. Was this what it had come to? Rolf had been more cruel than he had known that frosty morning in the forge when he had prevented her from cutting her own wrists.
'A whore is a woman who lends herself to a man for money,' she said, forcing herself to speak for the sake of the bewildered child. 'I gave your father everything for love, and we made a pledge to each other.'
'But does he have another, proper wife and a little girl somewhere else?'
How did you explain such things to a precocious six-year-old, Ailith wondered, when you could not explain the wherefores and whys to yourself? The bedchamber walls seemed to be hemming her in, stifling her. With sudden decision, she stood up, tugging Julitta by the hand. 'Come,' she said, 'we're going out for a ride. Elfa needs the exercise, and the fresh air will make us both feel better.'
'But, Mama…'
'You can ask me things as we ride along, and I will do my best to tell you.'
In the hall there was no sign of Hamo, or his mother. Ailith wondered where the boy had picked up his notions and prejudices. Did the other Normans at Ulverton look upon her with resentment as Rolf's 'stupid English whore'? Surely she would have felt such hostility.
Someone had pulled the battle axe out of the trestle and laid it to one side. Ailith gave it a wide berth, issued brief instructions to the servants to continue the spring cleaning, and went outside. But despite the soft spring warmth, she was cold.
'Yes, your papa does have a wife,' she told Julitta as they rode their mounts down the coast path and came to the long expanse of shoreline, bordered by the hissing suck and murmur of the sea. 'But she lives in Normandy and he does not see her often.'
Julitta stared over the glittering plumes of spray to the line where the blue of sea merged hazily with the blue of sky. 'Does he love her?'
'I do not know. It was a marriage arranged by their parents when they were both very young.'
'Like Ben's, you mean?' Julitta looked at her mother, the sea-sparkle reflecting in her blue-green eyes.
Ailith saw the trap waiting to swallow her. If she said yes, then she was condoning the breaking of marital law. If she said no, she was a hypocrite. 'Every arrangement is different,' she fenced. 'If my husband had not died, or your tiny half-brother, I would never have given myself to your father. So much depends on chance.'
As they rode along the beach, Julitta held herself to a listening silence that was unusual for her bright, impatient nature, and Ailith found herself talking to the child as if she were an adult.
She told her about the past, about Goldwin and the forge for which he had nurtured such plans; about Aldred and Lyulph, Julitta's dead uncles, their stature and prowess. About the baby she had lost, and her eyes filled with tears.
Julitta was only just six years old and did not understand all that Ailith told her, but she sensed that her mother had suffered greatly, and that the thin, often broken thread-of-gold which her father had woven into her mother's life had been the reason for her survival. She still did not really understand what a whore was, nor why her beloved papa should go and betroth Benedict to his other little girl. Perhaps he loved the other one more. The thought frightened her, and suddenly Julitta did not want to understand. She kicked her heels against her pony's sides, making him canter, and then gallop, as if she could outrun her fears.
Mother and daughter returned by way of the village, where they were greeted cheerfully by those folk not absent in the fields. The carpenter's wife gave Julitta a drink of milk fresh from the cow and a piece of bread smeared with honey from her own hives.
At the end of the village they came to Inga's house. It stood a little apart from the other dwellings and was surrounded by a palisade of stakes to contain her flock of geese when they were not out grazing on the common. Julitta craned her neck nervously, but there was not a single goose, gosling or gander to be seen. Inga's door was open, and as Ailith and Julitta rode past, the little brown terrier came hurtling out to bark at them, its stumpy little legs almost leaving the ground with the force of the noise.
Elfa flickered her ears and sidled. The dog made several dashes as if to attack the horses, but stopped short each time, barking ever more frantically.
Then, faintly, Ailith heard a woman's voice calling for help. For a single, appalling moment, she was tempted to ignore the voice and ride on. So strong was the urge that she actually heeled Elfa's flanks, although her hands remained firm on the reins. The confused mare snorted and turned in a circle.
Julitta watched her mother with wide eyes. After last autumn's incident with that horrible gander, she had privately christened Inga the 'goose witch' and would lief as not go anywhere near the cottage — although
