back to look upon it once more.
‘I am always arriving and then leaving,’ he thought.
What would it be like to stay?
I wish you would speak to me again, Sergeant Presley. That you would say,
But the Boy knew it was only his own voice.
Knew it was what he wanted to hear.
Knew it was a lie he wanted to believe, which is the worst kind of lie we tell ourselves.
The Weathered Man was already out in the water with his rake.
He was working.
Long strokes through the water.
Only the rake betrayed the Weathered Man’s presence in the water and the fog. Then the troop passed the bend on the coast road and the Weathered Man was gone.
The troop rode on through the quiet morning mist. From a small inlet they could see a great shroud of fog clutching at the ruins of San Francisco, across the bay.
I can go there now, Sergeant; if you will not stop me I will go there.
He hoped the voice would come. He hoped it would tell him, as it had all the other times before, that he must avoid such places.
But it didn’t.
AT A SMALL farm, the troop leader dismounted and knocked at the door of a large spreading house. After words and more words, a small man, squinting and hobbling on bad feet, opened the door and came out. He peered at the Boy as if seeing him from across a great distance.
The leader spoke softly and then the small man walked forward, standing in front of the Boy.
“
The Boy had no idea what this meant.
“
The Boy shook his head to mean he didn’t understand.
“
After the third failure the small man turned back to the troop leader and shook his head sadly. The leader laid his hand on the small man’s shoulder and whispered something in his ear. Then he patted the old man and moved off to remount his horse.
They rode farther south and for a moment, the Boy thought they might be going to cross a massive bridge that spanned the entrance to the bay and landed in the ruins of San Francisco.
The Boy felt a surge of excitement.
The troop descended into a little cove that opened up onto the bay. A small city ran alongside the edge of the water and climbed up into the green heights overlooking Sausalito.
The edge of the bay was guarded by rock walls that ran upward over the green hills inland and down to the water’s edge. Soldiers with guns watched from the high walls as the troop came down the road toward the gate and disappeared into a spreading shantytown that threw itself along the mudflats and out into the calm waters of the bay. In the shantytown there were many Chinese mixed with others like himself. Like the outpost at Auburn.
There were buildings where the smells of food came wafting heavily out onto the muddy lanes. They passed stores where he could see objects waiting in the dark beyond the front porch. He smelled fish. He smelled the oil of the rifles. He smelled the same smell of the fields that he’d tasted in the Pee Gee Oh.
Children and women came out and watched as the Boy was escorted through the winding maze of the shantytown that lay at the foot of the gates to the city beneath the green hills and along the edge of the bay. Soon a small crowd followed at a distance.
The troop came to a large gate of polished dark wood set in a smooth white wall. Tall buildings rose up in stone and timber on the other side. But only their tops could be seen.
The leader dismounted and indicated the Boy should wait. Then he disappeared through an opened crack in the gate.
When the leader returned there were many other Chinese soldiers with him now. There was chatter, voices bouncing and bubbling, but over all pervaded a sense of seriousness, even concern.
An older Chinese soldier, steely eyed and with an air of command, his iron-gray hair streaked with black, came forward in highly polished leather boots.
He barked in Chinese at the Boy.
The troop leader interceded.
The older Chinese soldier watched the Boy.
The troop leader, who’d been inspecting the drawing that morning at the village by the water, turned to the Boy and waved his hands at the ground.
He wants me to draw what I drew at the village where they eat stones.
The Boy went to his saddlebag and took out his bag of charcoal.
He took out a long piece and sharpened it with his knife.
He looked at the troop leader, letting the thought “Where should I draw?” form itself on his face.
For a moment the troop leader, intent and hopeful, didn’t understand.
Then he raised his hand to his head. He looked around.
He led the Boy to the smooth wall that encompassed the gate.
The Boy tried to see the attack.
The old courthouse.
The bodies.
The horror.
He limped forward until he could feel the wall blocking out all the watching pairs of eyes.
He raised the charcoal to the wall and made the first line. A curving arc that represented the dome of the old courthouse from Before.
At once there was a gasp from the crowd.
The older soldier began to speak in definite and harsh tones to the troop leader. But the troop leader gave a quick reply and silence returned.
The Boy looked back at the troop leader.
The Chinese soldier nodded.
The older soldier rolled his eyes toward the sky and then lowered them into a thin slit. Then, he too nodded at the Boy.
The Boy gave them war.
The Boy gave them the rain of arrows.
Fire and smoke.
The staring dead.
The Boy went big.
He showed the ashen-faced warriors, grim and determined as they worked their shining crossbow.
He showed them the Psychos in their Mohawks and tattoos, their axes held aloft, reminding him even as he worked of winter trees in morning’s first light.
He showed them MacRaven in armor.
When he stepped back, he heard his foot make a sandy scraping sound as he dragged it across the flagstones of the pavement. It was the only other sound he’d heard besides his charcoal
He turned.
He saw horror in their eyes.
They had known those people.
A woman wept. She was Chinese. She was pregnant.
The Boy thought of the Chinese snipers in the courthouse windows.
