resourcefulness and lack of self-respect. Too little resourcefulness or too much self-respect will doom a woman
to failure as a Total Woman. A submissive nature is the miracle for
which religious women pray.
No one has prayed harder, longer, and with less apparent success than Anita Bryant. She has spent a good part of her life on her knees begging Jesus to forgive her for the sin of existing. In
Bryant described herself as an aggressive, stubborn, bad-tempered
child. Her early childhood was spent in brutal poverty. Through
singing she began earning money when still a child. When she was
very young, her parents divorced, then later remarried. When she
was thirteen, her father abandoned her mother, younger sister, and
herself, her parents were again divorced, and shortly thereafter her
father remarried. At thirteen, “[w]hat stands out most of all in my
memory are my feelings of intense ambition and a relentless drive
to succeed at doing well the thing I loved [singing]. ” 13 She blamed
herself, especially her driving ambition, for the loss of her father.
She did not want to marry. In particular, she did not want to
marry Bob Green. He “won” her through a war of attrition. Every
“No” on her part was taken as a “Yes” by him. When, on several
occasions, she told him that she did not want to see him again, he
simply ignored what she said. Once, when she was making a trip
to see a close male friend whom she described to Green as her
fiance, he booked passage on the same plane and went along. He
hounded her.
Having got his hooks into her, especially knowing how to hit on
her rawest nerve—guilt over the abnormality of her ambition, by
definition unwom anly and potentially satanic— Green manipulated
Bryant w ith a cruelty nearly unmatched in modem love stories.
From both of Bryant’s early books, a picture emerges. One sees a
woman hemmed in, desperately trying to please a husband who
manipulates and harasses her and whose control of her life on every
level is virtually absolute. Bryant described the degree of Green’s
control in
He w illingly handles all the business in m y life— even to including
the Lord’s business. Despite our sometimes violent scraps, I love
him for it. ” 14 Bryant never specifies how violent the violent scraps
were, though Green insists they were not violent. Green himself,
in
room, and it’s not so I can play him a piece on the piano. We play
a piece on the seat of his pants! ” 15 Some degree of physical violence, then, was adm ittedly an accepted part of domestic life.
Bryant’s unselfconscious narrative makes clear that over a period of
years, long before her antihomosexual crusade was a glint in Bob
Green’s eye, she was badgered into giving public religious testimonies that deeply distressed her: Bob has a w ay of getting my dander up and backing me up
against a wall. He gets me so terrifically mad at him that I hate
him for pushing me into a corner. He did that now.