Reaper were far more suited for that. But right now, he was all there was.
“Jack, don’t,” Rhali whispered behind him.
“Breezer!” Jack shouted again. The man paused by the dried skeleton of a huge, dead potted plant and turned around. He looked haunted.
“There’s nothing we can do,” Breezer said. “Clinton died this morning. Remember Clinton?” Jack did. The black man sat in a shopping trolley, snatching truths from the air like flies, affected by the same sickness that was taking root in many of London’s survivors. Even Nomad had displayed signs, though she’d denied it.
“It doesn’t matter,” Jack said. He breathed deeply, trying to make sense of his outburst. Fear contributed, he was sure, and fury at what had happened here, what London had become. Anger, too, at the monster his father had turned into. “We’ll get out of London, and out there we’ll find a cure.”
“It
Jack felt himself filling up. Tears burned behind his eyes. He nodded, said nothing.
“We’ve brought as many here as we can,” Breezer continued. “Passed the word however we could. Word of mouth, pre-arranged signs. We’ve even got a woman who can talk with pigeons, use them as messengers. But… two groups have already been caught by the Choppers. Three people hanged from Blackfriar’s bridge. Two more machine-gunned in Waterloo. I’m doing the best…” He gasped, swallowed deeply. “The best I can. And we’re going to make a run for it.”
“Not yet,” Jack said. “Anyone crossing the Exclusion Zone will be slaughtered. Is that the end you want for all these people?” Jack looked around at everyone watching the conversation and wondered what they could all do. It was a room of wonders, but he felt only sadness. He could see several who were obviously in the final throes of the sickness. “Is that what you
No one answered.
“So how long do we have?” Breezer asked.
“Midnight.”
“Do you know where it is?”
“Would it matter?” Jack asked.
“Can’t you stop it? Nomad’s touched you, so can’t you disarm it, or take it somewhere else? Or…I don’t know…break it?”
“I don’t think so,” Jack said. He walked closer to Breezer, lowering his voice in the hope that no one else would hear. His friends most of all. “I’m a mess, Breezer. I have so much inside me, but I’m scared at what I’ll do. So no, even if I knew where it was, I don’t think I could take that risk. I need time to learn.”
“Don’t
“No. But we’ve got a plan. A way to get out, perhaps safely. Are you ready to hear it?”
Breezer seemed to shrink into himself a little, slumping down with the unbearable weight on his shoulders. Perhaps he had burdened himself, but that didn’t matter. His tired nod did.
“Anything,” he said. “God help us all.”
“Not Him,” Jack said. “Miller. We need to find him, and you should come with us.”
“Let’s talk,” Breezer said. He looked past Jack and nodded, and at first Jack thought he was greeting Sparky and Jenna again. But when Jack turned around he saw Fleeter standing back by the stairwell doors. She was smiling her usual faint, superior smile.
“Okay,” Jack said. “First things first, though. You need to tell me about that.”
Not dead at all, but surely no longer alive.
He moved towards her slowly, and she remembered the expression he wore. Four years ago she’d come home from school and Andrew had been waiting for her in the living room, watching TV but obviously distracted. Their parents were at work. Andrew was seventeen then, and he was always home just before Lucy-Anne, ready to get her a snack and make sure she’d had a good day in school, tell her to do her homework, and generally look after her for a couple of hours before their mother arrived home. But from the moment she’d walked through the door that day she’d known that she was in control. Andrew had looked nervous, contrite, and as he’d walked towards her he’d seemed to lessen in stature.
He looked the same now as he approached across the cracked concrete car park.
“You’re not here,” she said.
“I am,” Andrew said. “Enough, at least. But I’m only really an echo. I dreamed myself alive.”
“I dream too!” she said.
“You always did. And your dreams drove you to distraction.”
Lucy-Anne stepped forward and reached for her brother, but he drifted back as she came closer. His feet barely seemed to move.
“What are you? A ghost? What happened?”
“Ghost is as good a word as any,” he said. “And I’ll tell you. But you should walk south, and quickly. Those things aren’t the only ones moving out of the north today.”
“Because of the bomb?”
“Word is spreading,” Andrew said.
“Aren’t you afraid?”
“Only for you, sister. I’m already dead.”
Lucy-Anne closed her eyes and breathed deeply, fighting off a faint.
“Lucy-Anne,” he said, and she felt something almost stroke her cheek.
Her eyes snapped open and he was there before her, one arm outstretched and his hand moving away. He’d touched her face, just like he used to when she was a little girl and he wanted to show affection. He’d very rarely kissed her. A fingertip to her cheek was his greeting, a gentle touch that said more than any words.
“Oh, Andrew,” she said. The tears came at last because she knew he was gone. He echoed to her now, but there was no future for them.
“Quickly,” he said, moving backwards, pointing south. “I’ll tell you while you walk.”
He made her feel safe. She wasn’t sure why. He’d seen off the ape-like people, true, but he was hardly there at all. Perhaps it was simply the fact that she no longer felt alone.
“I ran,” Andrew said. “After I found Mum and Dad dead in the hotel room I left and ran, as fast as I could, directionless. The streets were filled with bodies back then, so soon after it had happened. And sometimes other people. But most were so scared, so shocked, so alone, that they hid. So I just ran, and I was already dying. Whatever killed everyone else seemed to be acting much slower on me. I didn’t know why. I felt myself fading. My strength was filtering away. I fell, and I dreamed myself alive again.”
“So you dream, too,” Lucy-Anne said, but she should not have been surprised.
“I dreamed of a folly on the hill, and knew what was happening. So I ran on until I found it, and then let everything take its course.”