It was an hour before the Guardians were sure New Hope was secure. When I got home, my mother was waiting for me, cradling Adam in her arms. “Amy,” she cried, making a strangled noise.
“Mom! Are you okay?” I ran to her and hugged her and Adam at the same time. I reached for Baby as well, squishing her to us.
“Amy, what possessed you to run off like that? You could have been killed!” My mother pulled away and peered into my face, gripping my arms tightly. “Are you hurt? Did one bite you?”
“No, I’m fine.” I didn’t know how to explain. “Mom . . . I had to help.” The more Floraes I killed, the fewer people they could slaughter. “They don’t know how to deal with them. No one here . . . Rice—is he okay?”
“Yes. Rice was working late in the lab.” She paused. “Oh, Amy honey, I know that you survived out there with the Floraes, but you’re not a Guardian. You don’t have the proper training, the right equipment.” She sighed heavily. “I’m assuming you’re the one who took the gun from my room?”
“I had to,” I say, unable to meet her gaze. “The Guardians took it from me, but I’ll get it back.”
“I’ll take care of it.” My mother rubbed her forehead with her palm and I could see the strain and guilt etched on her face. “Now that you’re here, I’m sorry, but I have to go. We’re in a state of emergency . . . I can’t believe this happened.”
“I understand, Mom. It’s all right.” I reached for Adam. “You can go. I’ll stay put.”
“Okay.” She placed Adam in my arms and kissed his head. He was awake but subdued. She leaned in to kiss the top of my head as well. “Amy, I’m proud of you for trying to help,” she told me. “But I’m more grateful that you’re safe.”
I grimaced. I didn’t even think of my mother when I went to fight the Floraes. I didn’t wonder if she was okay or how she would feel if I died; it was like I was back in the After, with no one but Baby.
My mother gathered her computer bag and looked at me with a sad smile. She kissed Adam again, then me, before heading to the door.
“I love you.” I needed her to know it.
“I love you too, Amy.” She stopped at the door. “I’m sorry I wasn’t there,” she told me without turning around.
I didn’t know if she meant tonight or three years ago. It didn’t matter. The nightmares of Them had returned and I wondered if they had ever really left.
School was canceled the next morning while New Hope recovered. We weren’t supposed to leave our apartments. I tried to call Vivian, but a voice kept prompting me for an emergency access code. All the lines were being held for official use.
I watched the news for a while, but I couldn’t stand hearing the names of the dead read over and over, each time with new additions. They announced them alphabetically, so Vivian would be near the front. After they skipped over Alvarez for the third time, I flipped to cartoons for Baby.
There was a knock at the door and I yelled, “Come in.” Rice appeared in the living room. “Rice!” I was so happy to see him I jumped off the couch. I ran at him, nearly knocking him off his feet with a leap of a hug.
“I’m so glad you’re here. My mom told me that you were okay. I thought we weren’t supposed to leave our homes,” I said, giving him an extra squeeze.
“The director’s assistant gets special privileges.” He was holding me tight and kissed my head. “I had to stop by, especially after I heard about what you did last night.”
“My mother told you?” I asked, breaking away.
“Haven’t you been watching the news?”
“I needed a break from the death toll and I didn’t think it was good for Baby.”
“Here.” Rice took the remote and switched the channel. Baby was watching us, grinning.
To my surprise, he replied,
“Rice, I didn’t know you were learning our sign language.” I was impressed. I realized I’d have to watch what I said to Baby around him.