He’d broken her heart time and again, but all Donia could think was that he was here and he was hers in this instant.
She knew that her court was inside the safety of her home and would turn their faces away. Like her, they too often looked on him with affection. Centuries ago, he’d been a child who’d played in this Winter Garden, the son of another queen, a queen he’d killed. The woman who’d cursed him and her both had bid them to cherish him, and they still did.
“I miss you,” he whispered into the storm.
“Yet you curl up with your queen and leave me alone,” she reminded him.
“Don—”
“No,” she interrupted. “I know every objection, every word, every wish you’ll utter, Keenan. I’ve heard them for decades.”
“You
Embarrassingly, she wanted to be captured.
When she stayed still, letting the ice roll out across the ground but not striking him, he paused. His eyes widened slightly. “Don?”
“This doesn’t mean I forgive you,” she whispered, and then she pulled him to her, unmindful of the burns his sunlight left on her skin and the frostbite she left on his. They’d obliterate each other one day if they kept this up, but she couldn’t step away any more than he could.
But when he kissed her it was hard to remember why it was so wrong, and when she pressed her body to his, she couldn’t help but wonder if the cost was worth it.
CHAPTER 20
Sionnach sat atop the roof of one of the dilapidated buildings. Beneath him a broken door hung crookedly in the frame. A few years ago, Sionnach had replaced the hinges, but he wasn’t a carpenter, so it sagged oddly. On either side of the door was a window frame. One had dirty glass with a spiderweb crack running through it. The other frame was open; no glass remained where the window should be.
Across from him were the remains of other buildings, and over top that the sky was a riot of colors as the sun rose. Below him he could see the faeries who were walking through the deserted streets, clustering in groups on the porches, sitting in window frames, perched on other railings. None were brazen enough to climb up as high as he was. His position was a statement, and they knew it.
The view from the roof of this building was among the best, and the view of him was imposing. Part of being Alpha was simply a game: show the others that he was the most daunting faery here. He wasn’t, hadn’t been so since Rika had arrived in the desert, but she’d disdained anything that had a taint of the political to it. He couldn’t blame her, not really. The Summer King and the now-dead Winter Queen had both done their level best to destroy her. It wasn’t personal; she was just one of the many pawns in their conflict.
Sionnach ignored the faeries milling about, instead studying the dusty streets and scrubby plants that grew alongside sagging porches and storefronts. One porch had a dry-rotted plank, but after the first faery stepped on it and put his foot through the wood, the others realized not to step there.
For now, he didn’t move from his position. He didn’t glance at them, even though they were staring at him. Some were openly curious, but still he waited, letting the tension build.
Finally, a faery who was leaning against a railing kitty-corner from the building he was on called out, “Sionnach?”
He let his gaze drop to the crowd of faeries, taking their measure, dragging it out to keep the tension high. “Well then . . .” he drawled. “Are we having a party I didn’t know about?”
A few faeries smiled, but no one answered. Instead, there was a restless shifting around, foot shuffling, and downcast gazes. They were nervous. Maili had caused that, sowing seeds of dissention and inviting the Summer King to walk among them. There were reasons they all eschewed the courts; more than a few solitaries had once belonged in one or another court—not all of the solitaries, of course, but at least a few of their number had lived among the stiffer sort of faeries. Some had left on their own; others had been cast out. A few had even lived in Faerie itself, a place ruled by an unchanging queen who—if myths were true—was one of the first fey. Here in the desert was as far from Faerie and the courts as they could get.
Sionnach remained as still as when he was watching the sky; his expression didn’t hint at his thoughts or his feelings about the assembled faeries’ scrutiny. His jacket was folded over one leg, and his posture was relaxed. Almost casually, he looked up at the sun. “I’ve been here far too long to want to move. Things don’t often change out here . . . not really. But sometimes, changes
They waited.
“We need to work on letting the mortals have peace here.”
Grumbling rose up at Sionnach’s words.
“Why?”
“Where’s the sport in
“Just because you’re with—”
Sionnach fixed the latter faery with a glare that stopped him mid-sentence. Then, he looked back out at the sky and said, “The new Winter Queen was once a mortal. The missing Summer Queen was a mortal. The new Dark King loved a mortal. Would you have any of the courts come here angry?” He looked at them, allowing his gaze to slowly drift over the crowd, before adding, “Or would you keep your freedom?”
A few nodded. Some exchanged looks with one another. They knew; they mightn’t like it, but they knew that he was right. All things changed in time. As mortals spread over the world, mingling more and more in the matters of faeries, a change was upon them all. Maybe if the courts had never left Faerie things would be different, but they had left. They’d come here, set up their courts and lived among mortals. Now, because of a curse, mortals had become fey, and as the regents loved and lived with mortals, their stances had changed. Sionnach had to do his part to protect those under his sway in the desert.
“I won’t let Maili or her ilk take away my right as Alpha in our home.” Sionnach bared his teeth. “Aside from Rika, no one here is strong enough to wrest power from me.”
“And where
Sionnach didn’t even glance his way, much less answer the question. “You will all follow the new rules or pay the price.”
A faery with a wicked grin said, “Why? I
At that Sionnach was off the roof and in a fraction of a moment had knocked the faery to the sand. The jacket from Sionnach’s lap dropped to the ground in the process.
As Sionnach pressed his arm to the faery’s throat, he looked over his shoulder at the crowd standing around them in a loose circle now. “I’m feeling quite fine. Good of you to ask. . . .”
The faery grasped at the sand near him, searching for a weapon and finding a piece of broken wood nearby. His fingertips grazed it, and almost immediately, he gripped it and swung.
Seemingly without looking, Sionnach caught the faery’s wrist and forced it to the ground. Then, he looked into the faery’s face and whispered, “Don’t.”