escape today is because they went on some epic shopping trip.” As he spoke, Crow rubbed his forearm absentmindedly. Following his fingers, Em noticed Crow’s hands pass over a cluster of thin scars. Stripes on his arm, like a body bar code.
“What are these?” she asked, grabbing him.
They locked eyes for a moment, and in that second Em felt as if he wanted to devour her. Then he looked down and pulled her arm back, then tugged his sleeve down over the marks. “Nothing,” he said. “Just a little scrape.”
“Don’t. It’s not ‘just a little scrape.’?” She’d seen it; four or five lines all about an inch long. Em stared for a moment at the bags under his eyes. She suddenly felt very thirsty, and even more exhausted than she’d been in weeks. “Crow, talk to me. Are you okay? What’s going on?”
“Listen, princess, I really can’t handle this right now. There’s something more important. . . . The reason I called you here . . . ”
She swallowed hard. “Fine,” Em finally said. If Crow didn’t want to talk about the cuts on his arm, she wouldn’t make him. Not yet.
“I had another vision,” he said, looking forward at the running stream. His jeans were rolled up and his feet were in the water. For some reason, she found it hard to look at his ankles. They made him seem bony, human, weak. She wanted him to be strong, to have some kind of magic ability to change everything.
The stream gushed past them happily. It wasn’t warm enough for what they were doing, not really, but the sun was shining and the ice had melted and this was what Mainers did after long, cold, wicked winters. And anyway, she never got cold. Not anymore.
“Happened this morning.” He dipped a cupped hand into the stream and let the water sift out through his fingers.
She lifted her toes out of the water and hugged her knees to her chest. “Okay. ?Tell me.”
There was a flash of discomfort in his eyes. “I saw a woman in a dress. Or not a dress, exactly. Like a robe or something—long and white and flowing,” he said, staring across the stream into the trees, the dappled patterns of sun and shadow. “I couldn’t see her face. Or, well, I could, but it was dark, and the light caught something on her face that wasn’t human. Her face had these pale lines across it, like stripes. It was like she was a tiger. A white tiger woman. I have no idea what it means.”
Em plunged her feet back into the water, barely noticing how the icy water sliced into her skin. She was unconsciously balling her fists. “A tiger woman? Seriously?”
“It’s hard to explain,” he said defensively. “It’s like a bunch of images and, I don’t know, a certain
“What? What about me?” Em urged.
He looked at her anxiously. “You were . . . on fire.
“And then?”
“And then you were gone, and I snapped out of it.”
The words were even colder than the water. They carved straight through her heart.
“It’s useless,” she said. She cleared her throat, willing herself to stay calm. “They are taking over. Spreading through my life.
She lay back onto the muddy grass, willing herself not to cry. ?The blackness she was feeling inside crept over her in a thick blanket, making it hard to breathe. She felt she’d never be able to stand up again. How many times had she lain here next to Gabby or JD, when the woods were warming and the world was shaking off its layer of ice? How many days had she taken for granted, days she could never have back?
“I understand,” Crow said in a low voice. “But I’m not just giving up. I have a plan.”
He picked up her hand, massaging his thumb into her palm. She had to admit it felt good. Em stared down at their intertwined fingers. He had nice hands. His nails were clipped short. His knuckles were rough. She tugged her hand away.
“Okay, so what is it? What’s your brilliant plan?”
He leaned even closer, as though he were about to cuddle up next to her on the grass. She didn’t move away. “I can’t tell you,” he said.
“You . . .
Crow shook his head. He smiled, but his eyes were black, expressionless. “Sorry, sweetheart. You’re too stubborn. Like a mule. You’d try to get in my way.”
“So you have a plan, and you won’t let me help—much less even
“Looks that way.” He raised an eyebrow at her. “Believe me, you don’t want to be part of this. You’re in deep enough already.”
“But I
Crow cocked his head, like he was really thinking about it. “Well, all I’ll say is—I’ve gotten nowhere ignoring them. So maybe instead I need to study them,” he said.
“Study them?” she repeated incredulously. “Who? The Furies?”
“Not exactly,” he said. “The visions. I have to let myself listen . . . and give in to them.”
“Are you kidding?” she asked, jerking her hand away from his and sitting back up, a little dizzy. “You’re saying you’re going to surrender to them? Try to get closer? Whose side are you even on?”
“I’m not even going to answer that,” Crow said with a hint of bemused humor in his voice. “You think I’m a Mr. Fury?”
“This isn’t
“I don’t need a babysitter,” Crow fired back. “And I sure as hell don’t find this funny either.” She felt him drifting back into the abyss.
“I know,” she said, trying to reel him back in. But it was too late. He was on his feet, leaving wet footprints on the warm rocks in his wake. Already, she regretted her reaction. But she was terrified by what he wanted to do. Submit to his visions? Give in to the darkness? It was too dangerous, too awful to consider. ?And yet, a chord was struck deep within Em. Would Crow’s strategy work for her, too? If she played Ty’s game, did she stand a better chance of winning?
Impossible. She’d lost so much of her old self already—she couldn’t risk letting go of the last threads holding her to this life.
On her drive home from Devil’s Run, Em got a text from Gabby:
Her stomach plunged all the way down through her toes.
She hadn’t called Gabby this morning. She wasn’t going to meet Gabby at the movies.
But she had a feeling she knew who had, and who was.
Instead of going home, as she had intended to do, Em headed straight to the theater. Rage began to overcome her. Ty was impersonating her—that much was clear. The dyed hair. And now this. She gunned the gas petal with her foot and felt the car groan in response. She kept reminding herself to keep her eyes on the road. It had to be the work of ?Ty. But
The only rom-com currently playing—the only movie Gabby would agree to see—was in Theater Five. Em paid for a ticket and stalked across the lobby, deliberately avoiding looking at the new girl working the concession stand—the girl who’d taken Drea’s place. Only a few short months ago, she’d come to the movies with JD . . . sitting in the front row, like always, craning their necks up to the screen and sharing popcorn out of a jumbo-size bag. . . .