Pete tried to edge past again, but James planted his feet and blocked the aisle. “Maybe I should do it, then, what d'you reckon?” He inspected me more closely, moving his face towards mine with slow deliberation.
“Anything that goes near my mouth gets bitten.” I showed my teeth hoping, pointlessly, that Pete would step in before things went too far.
Then James' grip loosened and he looked up. I followed his gaze.
“I think you kids should sit down.” The conductor was fiddling nervously with his belt, but his jaw was set in a firm line.
Immediately James released me and started to slide into the seat behind mine.
“Not there.” The conductor looked at me, then back at my tormentor. “You can sit at the back with the kids you got on with.”
James gave his adults-only smile and reached to pat my shoulder. “Hey, no worries, mate. We're friends from school. Aren't we, China?” His nails dug into my collar bone.
“Actually,” I turned, wide-eyed, “I've never seen them before.”
“Right.” The conductor exhaled. “Look, I'm not having trouble on this bus. Either you move to the back, son, or you get off.” He leaned on the seat opposite. “And I'll be staying right here until the young lady reaches her stop.”
James moved his hand from my seat and leaned back. He stared the conductor out for an uncomfortable minute.
“James, what's taking so long?” Justin's arm was around Tamsin's shoulder and he was stretched out on the back seat, apparently relaxed, but his eyes were steady on us. “We've got stuff to discuss. You're holding us up, man.”
Finally James sucked air between his teeth, a long hiss of displeasure, then he stood. With a final smirk at the conductor he trailed his fingers along the back of my seat. “See you at school, China.” Then he bent to put his mouth against my ear. “You'd have liked it,” he whispered.
The conductor jerked his head and James held his hands up and loped up the bus. Tamsin giggled excitedly as he sat next to her.
Pete followed, with relief in the set of his spine.
The conductor watched until they were settled, then he sat down himself.
“Thanks,” I muttered and he nodded.
Gratefully I huddled into my hoodie, counting down the minutes until I could change buses.
When the Routemaster reached my stop, the conductor waved me off. My shoulder blades itched as the vehicle drew away and I turned. James was standing at the back, watching me. As the bus drew away the streetlights set his eyes on fire. The otherworldly glow pursued me until Justin appeared behind him and tugged him back down.
I shivered and pulled my hoodie close. I couldn't waste any more time on James. I was still an hour from home and there was a city full of the dead to avoid.
3
THEY AREN’T GHOSTS, THEY’RE HALLUCINATIONS
As I dragged myself round the corner of our road, my limbs felt like china, fragile with fatigue. The only thing that kept me moving was the knowledge that I would soon be in bed.
But halfway down the street I realised the lights in our flat were on.
I sighed so deeply my chest hurt and moved into the light cast by the living room window. Movement inside told me that Dad had seen my approach. I glanced at his chair-lift, considered it briefly then climbed the stairs slowly as an old woman.
“Where’ve you been?”
“You know where.” I kept my back to him as I peeled off my hoodie and hung it by the door. There was a small rip in the arm. I didn’t even remember doing it. His silence pricked at me. I shook my hair out till it brushed my shoulders, then turned round. I held up my hands to show him the unblemished palms.
“No black mark. So you’re well at the moment. No hallucinations?”
“They're not–” I stopped and shook my head. “I’m fine.”
He held up a syringe. “I need another sample.”
“Why now?” I wrapped suddenly aching arms around myself.
“Cameron suggested your blood may change when you're ill. I need to take a sample now and when the blackness next appears so I can compare them.”
“You’ve got loads of samples.”
“I don’t know which are from when the illness has hold of you.” He frowned and rolled forward in his wheelchair. “Don’t be difficult, Taylor.”
I took a step backwards. “Can’t we do this in the morning?”
“You don’t know when the stain will next appear.”
“The ghosts can’t come into the house, Mum made sure of that. I’ll be fine in the morning.”
“There’s no such thing as ghosts.” He stopped his advance and I stared down at his greying hair and bloodshot eyes. He looked as tired as I felt. “You know how I feel about you going out after so-called killers. The only reason I’ve let you up till now, is that you don’t seem to be doing anything dangerous and after you’ve done it you feel better for a while. But I’m beginning to think this thing you do is feeding your illness, not improving it.”
I stared at his serious frown. “What are you saying?”
“I don’t think you should go out like this any more.”
My cheeks went cold. “You remember what happened last time you kept me in? How dark the Mark got?”
“Yes, and I know your mother told you this
“It isn’t.”
“Maybe you need to
“
He set his jaw. “I don’t want you doing this any more.”
I licked my lips. “How are you going to stop me?” My voice was so quiet he had to roll nearer to hear.
When he worked out what I’d said, his wheelchair wobbled. Then his face reddened and stubble stood out on his cheeks like shadows. “As long as you live under my roof, you’ll do as I say.”
I shook my head. “I do as you say. I give you sample after sample.” I pulled my sleeves up until he could see the livid bruises inside my elbows. “I don’t dare get changed with the others for games in case they think these are track marks.”
Dad closed his eyes briefly and his fist tightened around the syringe in his hand.
“I took those anti-psychotic medications you found on the Internet.” I shuddered and choked into silence as the memories slid up, blurred as if Vaselined, vague and full of holes. Memories of being so dazed that I could barely identify the ghosts that Marked me.
“I know
“
“You enjoy it,” he spat. “Cameron’s right, you want this illness. It makes you feel close to your mother.”
I gasped and for a moment we gaped at each other.
“You believe that?” I whispered.