'Guess the right situation never came along. Would you ever kiss a girl?' I looked at Haley, and saw that she was being honest with me, and just talking, so I may as well be honest with her.
'Yes.'
'Really?' She smiled. 'Would you do anything else?'
'Like have sex?' She nodded. 'I don’t know.'
'Well, I mean, your experience in that wasn’t great with a guy, maybe you’d enjoy it more with a woman. Maybe you should try it someday.'
'Maybe I should.' Certainly not the first time the idea had come to mind. And I doubted it would be the last. 'What about you? Would you have sex with one?'
'Well, I’m not sure about a one-on-one sort of thing, but like in a threesome? Oh, yeah.'
'So, you’d have to have a guy there, too?' She shrugged, flicking the surface of the water with her fingers.
'That’s what I’m most comfortable with. What I know.' I nodded.
'Fair enough. I could see being in a threesome.' I stared at a shampoo bottle on the side of the tub for a moment before I looked at Haley again. 'So, what would the circumstances have to be? I mean, like you and two strangers, or you and two friends?'
'Well, I have no problem with having sex with friends. Did I ever tell you about my first time?' I shook my head. 'Well, you know who my buddy Tommy is, right?' I looked at her, stunned.
'Tommy Gauna? Gay guy, Tommy?'
'Hey, he’s my friend.'
'Well, come on, Haley. The guy is so obvious.'
'Well, anyway, we were sixteen, and decided we both wanted to see what all the fuss was about, so, well, we did it.'
'Oh my god!' I laughed, still stunned, and a bit jealous.
'Yeah, a detail of my life few know about.' She smiled, relaxing a bit more as she slid down in the water so that only her head was above the surface. 'So, I guess you can tell I don’t have a problem with having sex with friends. It’s certainly not something I like to make a habit of, though.'
'So, would you do a threesome with strangers?'
'Hmm.' She thought for a moment. 'I would prefer to know the woman, that’s for sure.' She stopped, then her eyes landed on me. 'Like you, for instance.' I pointed to myself.
'Me?'
'Sure. You’re gorgeous, sweet,' her eyes dropped to take in what belonged to me below the water’s surface. 'Sexy.' I looked at her, stunned all over again. She thought I was gorgeous and sexy? She must be joking. Never mind what she was talking about doing.
'Well, um, wow. Not sure what to say.'
'You don’t need to say anything. I didn’t say it to get a response from you. I just think you’d be my ideal if I ever decided to try it.'
'Well, can I be honest with you?' To hell with it.
'Please do.'
'You’d be mine, too.' Haley’s face slid into an easy, sensuous smile.
'Really?' I nodded. 'Well see that? We’re perfect for each other.' She winked. 'And, I don’t know about you, but I’m starting to prune, so, can we get out?'
'Sure. In the mood for a lesson?' Her face broke out into a huge grin as she nodded.
'Yes, ma’am, Sunbae Nim.'
I quickly got out of the tub, afraid to hear anymore, and afraid I wouldn’t be able to control myself or my tongue and say something that we’d both regret. I, for certain.
Changed back into sweats and tanks, we headed to the basement, and my practice mats. Haley had a been a wonderful student, very observant, and willing to try anything. Obviously that willingness extended to far more than I had realized.
'I figured today we’d start working on more offensive moves for you. So far you’ve done very well in defending yourself, but what about when it comes to your being the aggressor?'
'Sounds great.' Haley smiled as she started doing the stretches I had taught her. Once we were both stretched, Haley took her position, bowing to me, and then we began.
I taught her how to attack, how to come at me to disarm me, or if it came to it, kill. Haley listened, and was very observant. I was quite impressed, as she managed to nearly get a few good licks on me. I wasn’t keeping my guard up as well as I should have been, I guess not figuring she’d catch on so fast. If she ever continued the teachings, someday she’d make a wonderful student.
In a few of the moves, we had to get awfully close, Haley’s body against mine, her breasts against mine, and there wasn’t much material separating hers from mine. I felt horrible, taking my little guilty pleasures where I could.
While blocking a punch, I realized she wasn’t paying the attention to it that she should, and I was able to turn the table on her. I grabbed her by the arm, spinning her around, and pinned her against the wall, my arm across her throat.
She was breathing heavily from both the exertion, and the surprise. Our bodies were less than a hair apart, her breaths matching my own as we stared each other in the eye.
'I think you missed that loophole,' I said, my voice low and throaty from the action.
'I think you’re right,' she said, her voice just as low, but breathy. God, if I could have gotten away with keeping her pinned there all day, I would have. But there was no reason, so I let go.
Haley rubbed her throat and shook her head.
'Wow. I never even saw that coming.' I took many steps away, needing to physically get some distance away from her. I had never felt anything so intense, needing to touch her, wanting her to touch me. What was this? It couldn’t mean anything.
'What do you say we stop for today?' I ran my hands through my hair, trying to stop them from shaking.
'Okay. That sounds good. Damn, that was a good move.' She walked over to me, putting her hand on my shoulder. 'Got any more of those?' She smiled, crooked and meaningful.
'Ah, no. Not really.' I smiled, sweet and innocent, still shaken from the intensity of my previous feelings. Previous, hell, they were still running through me like the blood in my veins, and just as hot.
'I need a shower.' Haley walked over to the wet bar and grabbed a few pieces of paper towel, wiping her face and neck. 'Gross.'
'Go ahead. You can use the shower in my mom’s room, I’ll use the one in mine.'
'Will there be enough hot water?' she asked, wiping under her hair on the back of her neck.
'Oh, yeah. That’s one thing we have; an excellent water heater.' I sounded like such an idiot, nearly babbling to hide my unease.
'Okay. That sounds good. A shower.'
I stood under the spray, letting it fall over me, cleansing not only my body, but my mind, too. This was ridiculous and there was just no way of ever doing anything about this want, for so many reasons. I could never risk losing Haley’s friendship. I’d rather drool in private for the rest of my life, then find release and lose her. Not to mention my family. It would kill me if I ever made my mom ashamed of me. She had done everything she could to make sure Chris and I were happy and well taken care of. She deserves no less from me.
I shook off all the old feelings and curiosities, deciding that today, right now, this minute, was a new beginning for me and Haley. She was my best friend, and I wanted it to stay that way. Surely she did, too?
I turned the water off, just as it was about to start getting cold on me. I wondered if Haley had managed to get a hot shower, too. I dried myself off, rubbing my hair vigorously with the towel so it all stood on end, then began to dress in flannel pants and a sports bra. I looked around the bathroom, realizing I had forgotten my sweatshirt in my bedroom. Damnit.
A burst of cold air blew into the steam-filled bathroom as I stepped into the bedroom, heading toward my dresser.
'Hey.' I turned to see Haley walking into the room, fully dressed in flannel pants and a tank, brushing out her
