Tomohiro smiled, but his eyes never moved from the paper.

And suddenly, as he moved his pen to sketch the wings of another butterfly, the first spiraled upward from the page.

It was colorless, with jagged sketched outlines. A stream of ink trailed behind it like a firework, shimmering in shades of black and dark plum. I watched as the butterfly lifted on the breeze, the membranes of its wings thin and transparent.

I glanced down at the page, and it was there, too, like the flying one was only a copy.

Three smaller butterf lies rose amid a shower of black sparks, beating their wings as they fluttered through the air.

And the whole time Tomohiro grinned and sketched more and more, until a cloud of them hovered in the sky above us.

I watched with my hand to my mouth. Almost fifty of them, swirling around each other as their trails crossed and intertwined in slow, gleaming pinwheels. Such terrifying beauty.

And then Tomohiro scratched through the drawings and they dropped one by one, like black cherry petals crumpling to the ground. It was so horrible that tears welled up in my eyes.

“Don’t kill them,” I whispered. Tomohiro’s eyes widened and he stared at me for a moment.

“I didn’t kill them,” he said. “They’re not alive. They’re just drawings.”

“But it’s horrible to see them fall like that.”

“Katie,” he said gently, and I felt his warm palm curl around my shoulder. His smooth voice was calm, and he gazed into my eyes through the wisps of his bangs. I felt like the butterflies had tumbled into my rib cage. “It’s dangerous not to call them back. If they left Toro and someone else saw them…” He sighed. “I can’t let anyone know. It would be the end of me.”

“Then stop drawing, Yuu,” I said. “Don’t bring them to life.”

“They aren’t alive.”

“How do you know?”

“I just know. When I look at them, I can feel them somehow, like they’re fluttering around in my head. So I know they’re a thought of mine, not real. They’re part of me.”

It was too awful. Tears rolled down my cheeks and I stood to leave. Tomohiro stumbled to his feet, the notebook slapping closed as it fell off his lap.

“Katie,” he said, and I hesitated. “I never asked for this…

ability, you know. It’s not something I can walk away from.”

I looked into his eyes, which seemed deeper and darker than before. “I even have nightmares,” he said. “It sounds dumb, but I can’t get away from this. I wake up and there’s ink dripping on my floor. And I’ve lost so much because I’m a Kami.

I can’t lose any more. I can’t lose—”

He didn’t have to say it.

We stood there for a minute and I really, truly pitied him.

He couldn’t walk away from it. It was true. And right now he didn’t look at all like the jerk Myu had slapped.

He blinked and shook his head. “It was wrong of me to say that,” he said. “You have a choice. You can walk away from this, but please just promise you won’t tell anyone.”

Something about the two sides of Tomo clicked in my head. It was like the sketch in his notebook and the butterfly that lifted; there was some sort of difference there, something between his pleading eyes and his arrogant slouching.

My eyes snapped to his. “This is why you broke up with Myu.”

He paused.

“Did she find out about you?”

Another hesitation. “No.”

“But she was going to, wasn’t she?”

“—yes.”

“Did you make it all up? Did you pretend to cheat? Did you pretend to be a jerk, like you do at school?”

“I wasn’t a jerk, Katie.”

“You were an ass,” I said.

“Oi.” He sounded annoyed.

“And you let her believe you cheated on her, didn’t you?”

He shrugged, leaned back and slouched into the wooden house.

“Things with Myu were breaking down anyway. Too many questions. I drew a few sketches of Shiori in case anyone went snooping and then just happened to forget my notebook in the genkan. I didn’t say anything either way and it worked in my favor.”

“You’re doing it right now,” I said.

“Huh?”

“You’re being a jerk.”

“Am I?”

“Yes.”

He blinked at me, his lips curving into a sly smile.

“Tomo, I’m serious. Stop it.” It slipped out, just like that.

I’d switched to his first name, a shortened one even, and made whatever it was we had closer. He heard it the minute I did, and his face started to turn beet-red. “Anyway,” I babbled,

“why would you do that to Myu? That’s cold.”

“Because,” he said in a gentle voice, “I had to do it, to protect her.”

“You could’ve been less of a jerk about it.”

“If I’d been less of a jerk, she wouldn’t hate me like she does now. And I needed her to hate me.” And I heard the guilt in his voice, the carefully thought out sacrifice. I saw the way his eyes softened when he talked about her. And despite all the denial I could muster, something flipped over in my stomach when I heard him talk about her like that.

“So why not push me away like you did Myu?” I asked.

The heat rushed to my cheeks. I wasn’t jealous. I wasn’t. I just thought he was being stupid.

He didn’t answer at first, and he stared at the ground, the corners of his mouth curved up like he was laughing at me.

I wanted to smack him and walk away, but first I wanted an answer.

“You already know, don’t you?” he said eventually. “It’s not an easy burden, is it? I didn’t want to involve you, but the ink is tied to you. I’ve known that since— I know. Anyway, how was I supposed to know you would come to Toro Iseki when I was supposed to be at a funeral?”

“Well, don’t you think it was going to happen sooner or later? I’m here every week, watching you draw stuff and cross it out.”

“Maa.” His eyes flashed up and caught mine. “I guess deep down I wanted you to know,” he said.

My heart pounded in my ears. “Why me?”

“First, because the ink is hunting you down. I can’t keep you in the dark and protect you at the same time. You’re part of it somehow. And second, because…”

He walked toward me slowly, his leather shoes pressing down the long grasses. I could feel his breath on my cheek as he leaned forward. My eyes fluttered shut, but I forced them open again. His breath was hot against my lips, and his face blotted out the sky, so I could see nothing but his eyes and the pores of his skin.

“Because,” he said in tones of honey and velvet, “I’ve always had to push away people I cared about. You’re the only one who ever pushed back.”

The words brushed against my lips and sent the butterflies tumbling again. He’s going to kiss me, he’s going to—

He leaned back and patted me on the head. My cheeks turned tomato-red as I glared at him.

He blinked and stared back, looking completely innocent.

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