remember of my most recent experiences in 2150 or my dream world, whichever it was-before Karl came back at noon. I hurriedly dressed, had a quick breakfast and was soon writing furiously in my journal.
When Karl came in at 12:15 p.m. I was almost finished, so I pulled out the pages I had completed and handed them to him so he could get caught up on my latest dream experiences while I finished writing.
Karl finished about the same time I did and for a few seconds we just looked at each other. Then Karl broke the silence.
'Hey, man,' he grinned, 'you've got to be the all-time super dreamer. You aren't content with one beautiful superwoman in love with you-no, you got to have two of 'em, one blonde and one brunette, even if they do wear it short.'
'All right,' I said. 'Any other comments? Aren't you at all impressed with the continuity? The fact that the dream picked up right where it ended before? And how about the continuing wealth of detailed information about the society of the future?'
Karl's face became serious and he frowned. 'Yes, Jon,' he said, 'I am impressed with it. I honestly don't know what to think except that if we take it seriously, we are both candidates for the loony bin. Think of that, Jon. Just imagine the headline, 'Two aspiring young psychologists, just one year from that big degree, break under load of studies and are admitted to State Mental Hospital.' '
It was amusing, but uncomfortably possible. 'Okay, okay, I'll be careful, Karl, I promise.'
'I'm not sure that even keeping it secret will end our problems, Jon. This dream has become an obsession with you.'
I thought about this and had to admit that he was right. 'I guess you're right, Karl. I've never experienced anything so satisfying, so completely and irresistibly engaging in my entire life.
'I'm still a bit skeptical of its reality,' I added. 'What I plan to do is test it out, like any other hypothesis. The ultimate test will be whether I can learn to liberate myself from this micro existence, as Lea suggested, and live in the Macro world of 2150 permanently.'
'Good God, Jon!' Karl came to the edge of his chair, his voice harsh with alarm. 'Do you know what you're saying? If this dream is a mental aberration, an escape from unpleasant reality, then you'll end up like a vegetable- permanently off in your dream world while cooped up in some hospital and fed intravenously in the real world of 1976. Just one more catatonic schizophrenic!'
Karl got up and began pacing about the room. He didn't say anything. The silence grew as I seriously considered the possibility that I might be becoming psychotic. Would I eventually deteriorate into the vegetable existence of the catatonic schizophrenic? What would happen to my body here in 1976 if I managed to stay permanently in the world of 2150? Would it become a vegetable? Would it just disappear? Would it die?
These were questions I couldn't answer, and I found myself wishing I could ask Central Information.
'I've got it, Karl,' I said. 'I'll ask C.I. when I get back what will happen to my body here in 1976 if I stay permanently in 2150.'
'Oh, that's just great,' Karl answered in a voice dripping with sarcasm. 'Now let's solve the problem by asking Satan to help us stop sinning!'
'But, Karl, I-'
'Listen to me, Jon,' he interrupted. 'You've got to realize that a society, even a real one, that would let itself be run by some giant computer has got to be sick! Sick! SICK!'
'Now wait a minute, Karl,' I replied. 'Let's be fair. Let's be pragmatic. Let's compare the results.'
'Our micro society of 1976 is dedicated to selfish exploitation of others in the interest of short-term material pleasures. This selfish behavior is performed and perpetuated in the name of our freedom, our family, our city, our state, our nation, our religion, or in the name of communism, socialism, capitalism, of some other damn ism, and it has produced inconceivable amounts of human misery.
'The world of 1976 is a world of selfish divisions breeding suspicion, distrust, hatred, and endless conflict both internally and internationally. It's a world so divided and so unable to cooperate that it has polluted its land, its water, its animal life, and even the air we breathe, to such an extreme that our planetary survival is in question.
'As for our people, at least one out of three lives in poverty, disease, and semi-starvation. This, Karl, in spite of the fact that we have the resources and the technology to provide adequate food, clothing, shelter, medical care, and education to each and every person on this entire planet!'
'My question, Karl, is why aren't we doing it?'
'Probably because we're too damned self-centered, Jon,' was Karl's response. 'But the solution isn't to turn all our problems over to some bloody machine to solve. Now that's a real cop-out!'
'They don't cop out in 2150,' I answered heatedly and suddenly realized that I had a desperate need to convince Karl, and maybe myself, of the truth, the value, and the rightness of my strange experiences.
'Okay, Karl,' I said, forcing myself into calmness, 'listen to me with as open a mind as you can, because if we get lost in our emotions we'll really be in trouble.
'Everything I've learned about the society of 2150 indicates that its people care about each other and are deeply involved with helping others. Now, that's not a cop-out.'
'Moreover,' I continued, 'they have developed a philosophy of life which provides such a large perspective that they can see the long-term destructive results of selfish behavior. In other words, from their Macro perspective they can see that we are all one interdependent whole and, therefore, the welfare of the apparently least important individual is the concern and the welfare of all. Only from this larger perspective is there any practical value in words like 'love one another,' 'you are your brother's keeper,' 'what you sow you must reap,' or 'treat others as you would like to be treated.' '
'But what about that damn machine?' Karl began.
'Screw the machine!' I shouted. 'It wasn't C.I. that developed Macro philosophy or a Macro society which could attract highly evolved souls! It wasn't the machine that provided love, patience, kindness, and understanding help for every living being! No! It was the people of the Macro society who chose an unselfish, Macro lifestyle.'
'And the results?' I continued 'The results are 300 million people free from war, pollution, poverty, selfishness, and hatred-every one of them educated and healthy, with a roof over their heads and three square meals a day.'
'If this is sick, sick, SICK,' I shouted as I slammed my fist down on the table, 'then, by God, I choose to be sick!'
Karl stared at me in disbelief. Then he said, 'Jon, I've never seen you so-so-I'm not sure what. Maybe passionately involved. You're shouting, you're arguing, you're slamming your fist around, and you're swearing. This is all new to me. I don't know what to think.'
'How about realizing that I've been an uninvolved spectator in this life up till now? I've prided myself on never losing my, cool, but actually I was just copping out. Now-at last-I'm concerned, involved, committed, and I'm not going to back out, no matter what happens. I'm going to give all I've got to exploring and learning about this world of the future.'
Karl slowly shook his head and I could see that his face was taut with strain. 'I'm afraid,' he said. 'You know that I feel closer to you than to anyone else on Earth. That I'd give my life to help you.
'I remember,' he continued, 'there's some philosophy that says if you save a man's life you are thereafter responsible for it. Well, I saved your life in Vietnam, and now I can't let you destroy it over some psychotic hallucination.'
'But, Karl– ' I began.
'No, damn it, you listen to me now!' Karl insisted as he shook his fist at me as though he were planning to physically wrestle me to my senses. 'You know as well as I that sudden massive personality changes are classic signs of mental disturbance, and you just admitted that you've got a whole new personality!'
Karl paused and looked at me carefully to see if I had registered this bombshell.
Obviously satisfied that he had gotten through to me, he continued, 'Now, Jon, I'm not going to argue with you over the merits of your dream world versus reality. I'm in favor of goodness and mercy and justice for all, and I'm opposed to selfishness, wickedness, and evil of all varieties. In spite of all that, I'm going to deal with the unpleasant reality of 1976, not escape into some dream world of the future.'
There was a silence now as Karl let me think over what he had just said.
I thought about the points he had made concerning sudden personality changes and running away from
