Brothers in Arms

'I can blow your—' Miles's fingers drummed against his trouser seam where no holster was tied. Earth, old Earth, old civilized Earth. Commander Quinn, at his shoulder, touched his elbow in a fleeting gesture of restraint. He shot her a brief reassuring smile—no, he was not about to let himself get carried away by the—exotic—possibilities of Admiral Miles Naismith, Commanding, Dendarii Free Mercenary Fleet. He was merely tired, his smile said. A slight widening of her brilliant brown eyes replied, Bullshit, sir. But that was another argument, which they would not continue here, out loud, in public.

'You can look,' said the engineer neutrally, 'for a better offer if you wish.'

'We have looked,' said Miles shortly. As you well know . . . 'Right. Um . . . what about . . . half up front and half on delivery?'

The Earthman frowned, shook his head. 'Kaymer does not pad its estimates, Admiral Naismith. And our cost overruns are among the lowest in the business. That's a point of pride.'

The term cost overrun made Miles's teeth hurt, in light of Dagoola. How much did these people really know about Dagoola, anyway?

'If you're truly worried about our workmanship, the monies could be placed in an escrow account in the control of a neutral third party, such as a bank, until you accept delivery. Not a very satisfactory compromise from Kaymer's point of view, but—that's as far as I can go.'

A neutral third Earther party, thought Miles. If he hadn't checked up on Kaymer's workmanship, he wouldn't be here. It was his own cash flow Miles was thinking about. Which was definitely not Kaymer's business.

'You having cash flow problems, Admiral?' inquired the Earther with interest. Miles fancied he could see the price rising in his eyes.

'Not at all,' Miles lied blandly. Rumors afloat about the Dendarii's liquidity difficulties could sabotage a lot more than just this repair deal. 'Very well. Cash up front to be held in escrow.' If he wasn't to have the use of his funds, neither should Kaymer. Beside him, Elli Quinn drew air in through her teeth. The Earther engineer and the mercenary leader shook hands solemnly.

Following the sales engineer back toward his own office, Miles paused a moment by a viewport that framed a fine view of Earth from orbit. The engineer smiled and waited politely, even proudly, watching his gaze.

Earth. Old, romantic, historic Earth, the big blue marble itself. Miles had always expected to travel here someday, although not, surely, under these conditions.

Earth was still the largest, richest, most varied and populous planet in scattered humanity's entire worm- hole nexus of explored space. Its dearth of good exit points in solar local space and governmental disunity left it militarily and strategically minor from the greater galactic point of view. But Earth still reigned, if it did not rule, culturally supreme. More war-scarred than Barrayar, as technically advanced as Beta Colony, the end-point of all pilgrimages both religious and secular—in light of which, major embassies from every world that could afford one were collected here. Including, Miles reflected, nibbling gently on the side of his index finger, the Cetagandan. Admiral Naismith must use all means to avoid them.

'Sir?' Elli Quinn interrupted his meditations. He smiled briefly up at her sculptured face, the most beautiful his money had been able to buy after the plasma burn and yet, thanks to the genius of the surgeons, still unmistakably Elli. Would that every combat casualty taken in his service could be so redeemed. 'Commodore Tung is on the comconsole for you,' she went on.

His smile sagged. What now? He abandoned the view and marched off after her to take over the sales engineer's office with a polite, relentless, 'Will you excuse us, please?'

His Eurasian third officer's bland, broad face formed above the vid plate. 'Yes, Ky?'

Ky Tung, already out of uniform and into civilian gear, gave him a brief nod in lieu of a salute. 'I've just finished making arrangements at the rehab center for our nine severely-wounded. Prognoses are good, for the most part. And they think they will be able to retrieve four of the eight frozen dead,' maybe five if they're lucky. The surgeons here even think they'll be able to repair Demmi's Jumpset, once the neural tissue itself has healed. For a price, of course …' Tung named the price in GSA Federal credits; Miles mentally converted it to Barrayaran Imperial marks, and made a small squeaking noise.

Tung grinned dry appreciation. 'Yeah. Unless you want to give up on that repair. It's equal to all the rest put together.'

Miles shook his head, grimacing. 'There are a number of people in the universe I'd be willing to double- cross, but my own wounded aren't among 'em.'

'Thank you,' said Tung, 'I agree. Now, I'm just about ready to leave this place. Last thing I have to do is sign a chit taking personal responsibility for the bill. Are you quite sure you're going to be able to collect the pay owed us for the Dagoola operation here?'

'I'm on my way to do that next,' Miles promised. 'Go ahead and sign, I'll make it right.'

'Very good, sir,' said Tung. 'Am I released for my home leave after that?'

Tung the Earth man, the only Earther Miles had ever met—which probably accounted for the unconscious favorable feelings he had about this place, Miles reflected. 'How much time off do we owe you by now, Ky, about a year and a half?' With pay, alas, a small voice added in his mind, and was suppressed as unworthy. 'You can take all you want.'

'Thank you.' Tung's face softened. 'I just talked to my daughter. I have a brand-new grandson!'

'Congratulations,' said Miles. 'Your first?'

'Yes.'

'Go on, then. If anything comes up, we'll take care of it. You're only indispensable in combat, eh? Uh . . . where will you be?'

'My sister's home: Brazil. I have about four hundred cousins there.'

'Brazil, right. All right.' Where the devil was Brazil? 'Have a good time.'

'I shall.' Tung's departing semi-salute was distinctly breezy. His face faded from the vid.

'Damn,' Miles sighed, 'I'm sorry to lose him even to a leave. Well, he deserves it.'

Elli leaned over the back of his comconsole chair. Her breath barely stirred his dark hair, his dark thoughts. 'May I suggest, Miles, that he's not the only senior officer who could use some time off? Even you need to dump stress sometimes. And you were wounded too.'

'Wounded?' Tension clamped Miles's jaw. 'Oh, the bones. Broken bones don't count. I've had the damn brittle bones all my life. I just have to learn to resist the temptation to play field officer. The place for my ass is in a nice padded tactics-room chair, not on the line. If I'd known in advance that Dagoola was going to get so—physical, I'd have sent somebody else in as the fake POW. Anyway, there you are. I had my leave in sickbay.'

'And then spent a month wandering around like a cryo-corpse who'd been warmed up in the microwave. When you walked into a room it was like a visit from the Undead.'

'I ran the Dagoola rig on pure hysteria. You can't be up that long and not pay for it after with a little down. At least, I can't.'

'My impression was there was more to it than that.'

He whirled the chair around to face her with a snarl. 'Will you back off. Yes, we lost some good people. I don't like losing good people. I cry real tears—in private, if you don't mind!'

She recoiled, her face falling. He softened his voice, deeply ashamed of his outburst. 'Sorry, Elli. I know I've been edgy. The death of that poor POW who fell from the shuttle shook me more than . . . more than I should have let it. I can't seem to . . .'

'I was out of line, sir.'

The 'sir' was like a needle through some voodoo doll she held of him. Miles winced. 'Not at all.'

Why, why, why, of all the idiotic things he'd done as Admiral Naismith, had he ever established as explicit policy not to seek physical intimacy with anyone in his own organization? It had seemed like a good idea at the time. Tung had approved. Tung was a grandfather, for God's sake, his gonads had probably withered years ago. Miles remembered how he had deflected the first pass Elli had ever made at him. 'A good officer doesn't go shopping in the company store,' he'd explained gently. Why hadn't she belted him in the jaw for that fatuousness? She had absorbed the unintended insult without comment, and never tried again. Had she ever realized he'd meant that to apply to himself, not her?

When he was with the fleet for extended periods, he usually tried to send her on detached duties, from which she invariably returned with superb results. She had headed the advance team to Earth, and had Kaymer and