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past go. Do it.'

'Yes, Sire.'

Miles cut the com.

This time Miles was admitted to Haroche's/Illyan's office without delay or a murmur of protest. Haroche, studying something on his comconsole display, waved him to a chair. Miles pulled it wrong-way-around and sat astride it, his arms across its back.

'Well, my Lord Auditor,' said Haroche, turning off his vid. 'I trust you found the cooperation of my subordinates to be fully satisfactory.'

Illyan did irony better, but you had to give Haroche credit for trying. 'Yes, thank you.'

'I admit'—Haroche gestured to the comconsole—'I misestimated you. I'd seen you flitting in and out of here for years, and I was aware you were covert ops. But I was not always fully aware of which covert ops, or how many. No wonder you were Illyan's pet.' His gaze, on Miles's decorated tunic, was now more calculating than disbelieving.

'Reading my record, were you?' Miles refused to flinch in front of Haroche.

'Scanning the synopses, and some of Illyan's annotations. A full study would take a week. My time is at a premium at the moment.'

'Yes. I've just talked with Gregor.' Miles inhaled. 'We've concluded that the chip has to be removed.'

Haroche sighed. 'I'd hoped that could be avoided. It seems so permanent. And so crippling.'

'Not nearly as crippling as what's going on right now. Incidentally, Illyan definitely should have had someone familiar by him from the start, for his comfort. It seems to make a tremendous difference in his level of combativeness. He could possibly have avoided most of the sedation. And the humiliating restraints. Not to mention the wear and tear on the corpsmen.'

'Much earlier, I still wasn't sure what we were dealing with.'

'Mm. But it was wrong to leave him alone in agony.'

'I … admit, I had not gone down to the clinic to inspect in person. The first day was bad enough.'

Understandable, if cowardly. 'Ivan and I were able to do a lot, just by being there. I've thought of another person who could do even more. I think Lady Alys Vorpatril should sit with him until the surgery is prepared.'

Haroche frowned, his forehead wrinkling. 'You and Lieutenant Vorpatril are, or at least were, oath-sworn military personnel. She's a civilian, and barred by her gender from most oaths.'

'But hardly a nonperson, for all of that. If I must, I will order her admittance on my authority as Auditor, but I wanted to give you a chance to mend your mistake. If nothing else, you should be alive to the fact that as Gregor's Baba and closest senior female relative, she will be in charge of all the social arrangements for the Emperor's wedding. You may still be acting head of ImpSec at that time. How this fits into your security . . . challenges, should be obvious. The Empress Laisa may make new arrangements once she's installed, but in the meantime, Lady Alys is the old guard, in charge of the transition. It's Vor custom.

'The military, in an admirable effort to promote merit before blood, spends a lot of time pretending that Vor is not real. The high Vor, whose safety and good behavior are going to be your particular charge as long as you sit behind that desk, spend at least as much energy pretending Vor is real.'

Haroche's brows rose. 'So which are right?'

Miles shrugged. 'My mother would call it the clash of two competing fantasies. But whatever your personal opinion of the merits and defects of the Vor system—and I have a few thoughts of my own about it that I wouldn't necessarily spout on the floor of the Council of Counts—it's the system we are both oath-sworn to uphold. The Vor really are the sinews of the Imperium. If you don't like it, you can emigrate, but if you stay, this is the only game in town.'

'So how did Illyan get along so well with you all? He was no more Vor than I.'

'Actually, I think he rather enjoyed the spectacle. I don't know what he thought when he was younger, but by the time I really came to know him, in the last ten years or so … I think he'd come to feel that the Imperium was a creation he helped to maintain. He seemed to have a vested interest in it. An almost Cetagandan attitude, in a weird way; more of an artist to his medium than a servant to his master. Illyan played Gregor's servant with great panache, but I don't think I've ever met a less servile human being.'

'Ah.' Haroche's eyes were alert, as he took this in. His fingers drummed once on the black glass, a downright Illyan-esque gesture. The man was actually listening, by God. And learning? A heartening thought.

Haroche's lips compressed with decision, and he tapped out a code on his comconsole. Lady Alys's secretary appeared; after a few murmured words of greeting and explanation, Alys's own face formed over the vid plate. She frowned at Haroche.

'Milady.' He nodded shortly to her. His hand gesture might be interpreted either as a modified analysts salute, or a man tugging his forelock; the nuance was nicely vague. 'I've reconsidered your request for admittance to the ImpSec clinic. Chief Illyan may be facing surgery shortly. I'd take it as a personal favor if you would be willing to come down here and stay with him for a while beforehand. Familiar faces seem to help him to, um, stay calm with fewer drugs.'

Alys straightened. 'I told you that yesterday!'

'Yes, milady,' said Haroche meekly. 'You were right. May I send a car to your residence for you? And how soon?'

'For this,' Alys stated, 'I can be ready in fifteen minutes.'

Miles wondered if Haroche appreciated what an awesome statement this was. It could take a high Vor lady fifteen hours to get ready to go places, sometimes.

'Thank you, milady. I think this could be a great help.'

'Thank you, General.' She hesitated. 'And thank Lord Vorkosigan too.' She cut the com.

'Huh,' said Haroche; his mouth twitched lopsidedly. 'She is sharp.'

'In certain areas within her personal expertise, one of the sharpest.'

'One wonders how Lord Ivan … ah, well. How was that, my Lord Auditor?'

Extraordinary. 'A noble apology. She had to accept. You won't be sorry.'

'As hard as it may be for you to grasp, considering the history of your attitude to most of your commanding officers'—Haroche tapped his comconsole—just which files had he been reading?—'I do want to do a good job. Do your duty is not enough. The lower ranks are filled with men who merely do their duty, and no more. I know I'm not a suave man—never have been—'

'Neither was Illyan's predecessor Captain Negri, I've heard,' Miles offered.

Haroche smiled bleakly. 'I didn't ask for this emergency. I will likely never be as smooth and polished as Illyan. But I mean to do as good a job.'

Miles nodded. 'Thank you, General.'

Miles returned to the clinic level to relieve Ivan. Miles found him still sitting next to Illyan, though as far back in his chair as he would go, smiling in a pained way; one boot tapped softly on the floor in a nervous pattern.

Ivan rose hastily, and came to the door when he saw Miles leaning there watching. 'Thank God. It's about time you got back,' he muttered.

'How's it been going?'

'What d'you think? I can see why they sedated him, even without his trying to tear their heads off. Just so they didn't have listen to hour after hour of this. Miles, this is a nightmare.'

'Yes. I know.' He sighed. 'I have some help on the way for this part, though. I've asked your mother to come in and sit with him.'

'Oh,' said Ivan. 'Good idea. Better her than me, anyway.'

Miles's mouth twisted. 'You're not afraid it'll be too hard on her?'

'Oh. Um. Hell, she's tough.'

'Tougher than you?'

'She'll be good at this,' Ivan promised somewhat desperately.

'Take a break, Ivan.'