Mirror Dance

“How long,” Mark swallowed, “is that how long I have to go on laying Miles?”

“I don’t know!” said Quinn sharply. She gulped back control of her voice. “A day, a week, two weeks—at least till we can deliver you and the cryo-chamber to ImpSec’s galactic affairs HQ on Komarr. Then it will be out of my hands.”

“How the hell do you think you’re going to keep all this under wraps?” Mark asked scornfully. “Dozens of people know what really happened.”

“ ’Two can keep a secret, if one of them is dead’?” Quinn grimaced. “I don’t know. The troops will be all right, they have the discipline. The clones I can keep incommunicado. Anyway, we’re all going to be bottled up on this ship till we reach Komarr. Later … I’ll deal with later.”

“I want to see my … the … my clones. What you’ve done with them,” Mark demanded suddenly.

Quinn looked like she was about to explode, but Bothari-Jesek cut in, “I’ll take him down, Quinnie. I want to check on my passengers too.”

“Well … as long as you escort him back to his cabin when you’re done. And put a guard on his door. We can’t have him wandering around the ship.”

“Will do.” Bothari-Jesek chivvied him out quickly, before Quinn decided to have him bound and gagged as well.

The clones had been housed in three hastily-cleared freight storage chambers aboard the Peregrine, two assigned to the boys and one to the girls. Mark ducked through a door behind Bothari-Jesek into one of the boys’ chambers, and looked around. Three rows of bedrolls, which must have been podded over from the Ariel, filled the floor space. A self-contained field latrine was strapped into one corner, and a field shower hastily connected in the other, to keep any need for the clones to move about the ship to a minimum. Half jail, half refugee camp, crowded—as he walked down a row between bedrolls the boys glowered up at him with the hollow faces of prisoners.

I freed you all, dammit. Don’t you know I freed you?

It had been a rough rescue, true. During that hideous night of siege the Dendarii had been liberal with the most dire threats, to keep their charges under control. Some clones now slept, exhausted. The stunned ones were waking up sick and disoriented; a female Dendarii medic moved among them administering synergine and soothing words. Things were … under control. Suppressed. Silent. Not jubilant; not grateful. If they believed our threats, why don’t they believe our promises? Even the active boys who had cooperated enthusiastically in the excitement of siege and firefight now stared at him with renewed doubt.

The blond boy was one of them. Mark stopped by his bedroll, and hunkered down. Bothari-Jesek waited, watching them. “All this,” Mark waved vaguely at the chamber, “is temporary, you know. It’s going to get better later. We’re going to get you out of here.”

The boy, propped on his elbow, shrank slightly away. He chewed on his lip. “Which one are you?” he asked suspiciously.

The live one, he thought of answering, but did not dare in front of Bothari-Jesek. She might mistake it for flippancy. “It doesn’t matter. We’re going to get you out of here just the same.” Truth or not? He had no control over the Dendarii now, still less over the Barrayarans, if indeed as Quinn threatened that was their new destination. Dreary depression washed over him as he stood and followed Bothari-Jesek into the girls’ chamber across the corridor.

The physical set-up was identical, with bedrolls and sanitary facilities, though with only fifteen girls it was slightly less crowded. A Dendarii was passing out a stack of packaged meals, which lent the chamber a moment of positive activity and interest. The trooper was Sergeant Taura, unmistakable even from the back and dressed in clean grey ship-knits and friction-slippers. She sat cross-legged to reduce her intimidating height. The girls, overcoming fear, crept up to her and even touched her with apparent fascination. Of all the Dendarii Taura had never, even in the most frantic moments, addressed the clones with anything but politely-worded requests. She now had all the air of a fairy-tale heroine trying to make pets of wild animals.

And succeeding. As Mark came up, two of the clone girls actually skittered around behind the seated sergeant, to peek at him over the protection of her broad shoulders. Taura frowned at him, and looked at Bothari- Jesek, who returned a short nod, It’s all right. He’s with me.

“S-surprised to see you here, Sergeant,” Mark managed.

“I volunteered to baby-sit,” rumbled Taura. “I didn’t want anybody bothering them.”

“Is … that likely to be a problem?” Fifteen beautiful virgins … well, maybe. Sixteen, counting yourself, came a tiny jeer from the back of his brain.

“Not now,” said Bothari-Jesek firmly.

“Good,” he said faintly.

He waffled up the row of mats for a moment. It was all as comfortable and secure as possible, under the circumstances, he supposed. He found the short platinum blonde clone asleep on her side, the soft masses of her body sculpture spilling out of her pink tunic. Embarrassed by his own arrested eye, he knelt and drew her cover up to her chin. His hand, half-unwilled, stole a touch of her fine hair in passing. Guiltily, he glanced up at Taura. “Has she had a dose of synergine?”

“Yes. We’re letting her sleep it off. She should feel all right when she wakes up.”

He took one of the sealed meal trays and set it down by the blonde’s head, for when she did wake. Her breathing was slow and steady. There seemed not much else he could do for her. He looked up to catch the Eurasian girl watching him with knowing, malicious eyes, and he turned hastily away.

Bothari-Jesek completed her inspection and exited, and he followed in her trail. She paused to speak with the stunner-armed guard in the corridor.

“—wide dispersal,” she was saying. “Shoot first and ask questions later. They’re all young and healthy, you don’t have to worry about hidden heart conditions with this lot, I don’t think. But I doubt they’ll give you much trouble.”

“With one exception,” Mark put in. “There’s this dark-haired girl, slim, very striking—she appears to have undergone some special mental conditioning. Not … quite sane. Watch out for her.”

“Yes, sir,” said the trooper automatically, then caught himself, glancing at Bothari-Jesek, ”… uh …”

“Sergeant Taura confirms the report on that one,” said Bothari-Jesek. “Anyway, I don’t want any of them loose on my ship. They’re totally untrained. Their ignorance could be as dangerous as any hostility. This is not an ornamental guard post. Stay awake.”

They exchanged parting salutes. The trooper, overcoming reflex, managed not to include Mark in his directed courtesy. Mark trotted after Bothari-Jesek’s long stride.

“So,” she said after a moment, “does our treatment of your clones meet with your approval?” He could not quite tell if her tone was ironic.

“It’s as good as anyone could do for them, for now.” He bit his tongue, but the too self-revealing outburst escaped it anyway. “Dammit, it’s not fair!”

Bothari-Jesek’s brows rose, as she paced along the corridor. “What’s not fair?”

“I saved these kids—or we did, you did—and they act like we’re some kind of villains, kidnappers, monsters. They’re not happy at all.”

“Perhaps … it will have to be enough for you just to have saved them. To demand that they be happy about it too may exceed your mandate … little hero.” Her tone was unmistakably ironic now, though oddly devoid of scorn.

“You’d think there’d be a little gratitude. Belief. Acknowledgement. Something.”

“Trust?” she said in a quiet voice.

“Yes, trust! At least from some of them. Can’t any of them tell we’re on the level?”

“They’ve been rather traumatized. I wouldn’t expect too much if I were you, till they get a chance to see more evidence.” She paused, in speech and stride, and swung to face him. “But if you ever figure it out—figure out how to make an ignorant, traumatized, paranoid stupid kid trust you—tell Miles. He urgently wants to know.”

Mark stood, nonplussed. “Was that … directed to me?” he demanded, dry-mouthed.

She glanced over his head, around the empty corridor, and smiled i bitter, maddening smile. “You’re home.”