Their footsteps faded.
Silence fell, and lengthened. Gesca’s fingers drummed uneasily on his thigh. 'Is there a problem in the troop?' Ingrey prompted at last. 'Or with Boleso’s men?'
'Huh.' Gesca sat up and straightened his shoulders. 'Maybe you’ll tell me.' He hesitated again, sucked on his lower lip, then said abruptly, 'Are you falling in love with that accursed girl, Ingrey?'
Ingrey stiffened. 'Why should you think that?'
Sarcasm edged Gesca’s voice. 'Well, let me see. What could possibly have suggested this thing? Could it be the way you speak to her apart at every chance? Or could it be the way you plunged like a madman into a raging torrent to save her? Could it have been how you were surprised, half-dressed, trying to sneak into her bedchamber at midnight? The pale and starveling look on your face, when you think no one is watching you, when you look at her? The way the lovesick circles darken daily under your eyes? I admit, only Ingrey kin Wolfcliff would ignite with lust for a woman who bludgeons her lovers to death, but for you, that’s not a deterrent, it’s a lure!' Gesca snorted.
'You have,' said Ingrey coldly, 'entirely the wrong impression of the matter.' Dismay verging on horror gripped him at the blatant plausibility of Gesca’s interpretation, succeeded by the arrested thought that it might not be so bad a public cloak for the stranger and more deadly reality of the geas, at that. Followed in turn by an even more frightening suspicion that Gesca might not be misled at all...
'What?'
'That she bludgeoned.' He added after a moment, 'I admit, whatever her game bag lacks in numbers, it makes up in weight.' And after another moment, 'In any case, she isn’t attracted to me, so your fears are moot.'
'Not true. She thinks you a very comely man, though glum.'
'How do you know
'She discussed you with her warden, or perhaps it was the other way around. Quite frank and outspoken, that one, when you get her going. The Mother’s work does that to some women.'
'The warden doesn’t speak so to me.'
'That’s because you terrify her. I don’t. At least by contrast. Very useful, from my point of view. But have you ever overheard two women discussing men? Men are crude liars, comparing their drabs, but women—I’d rather have a Mother’s anatomist dissect me alive than to listen to the things the ladies say about us when they think they are alone.' Gesca shuddered.
Ingrey managed not to blurt,
'Oh, aye'—Gesca let his voice lilt upward into a feminine falsetto—'the lady thinks your smile is
Gesca’s smile, Ingrey thought, was an altogether evil smirk. Evidently, however, the shadows were not deep enough yet to hide Ingrey’s return glare, or possibly it burned through the darkness with its own heat, for Gesca sobered, raising a warding hand.
'Ingrey, look.' Gesca’s voice grew serious. 'I don’t want to see you do something stupid. You have a future in Hetwar’s house, far beyond mine, and it’s not just your kinship that gives you the leg up. For me, maybe I’ll make guard captain someday. You’re a lettered man in two tongues, Hetwar talks to you as an equal—not just in blood, but in wits—and you give him back as good as you get. Listening to the two of you makes my head spin round, sometimes. I don’t even want to walk the paths you seem destined to tread. Heights make me dizzy, and I like my head where it is. But most of all... I don’t ever want to be the officer who’s sent to arrest you.'
Ingrey unset his teeth. 'Fair enough.'
'Right.'
'We ride again tomorrow.'
'Good.'
'If I can get my boots on.'
'I’ll come help you.'
They both rose and started back down the ill-lit street. Ingrey paused at the door of his inn; Gesca, with a half salute of farewell, walked onward. Ingrey studied his back.
And if Hetwar had both men’s letters before him, which would be very like Hetwar... Ingrey’s silences would shout.
Ingrey swallowed a curse and went indoors.
DURING THE NEXT DAY’S RIDE, THE AUTUMN COUNTRYSIDE PASSED in a blur of inattention for Ingrey. But he was all too keenly aware of Ijada, riding alongside the wagon near her new warden, a daunted young dedicat from the Daughter’s Order in Red Dike, plucked by the local divine from her teaching duties for this unaccustomed task.
Once, when they first mounted up, Ijada smiled at him. Ingrey almost smiled back, till Gesca’s mockery echoed in his mind, freezing his face in an uncomfortable distorted grimace that made her eyes widen, then slide away. He spurred ahead before his mouth muscles went into spasms.
He wondered what madness had seized his tongue last night in the temple. Of
Nothing that he could not fully control, anyway.