answer her. He barely noticed her. She took the napkin off the tray and used it to wipe the tears off his cheeks. 'It's okay,' she soothed. 'It's okay.' 'Is it?'
'It's the injury. Nothing to be embarrassed about. Head injuries jumble the emotions. One minute you're crying, the next you're laughing. Let me open these curtains. Maybe that will cheer you up.'
'I think I just want to be left alone.' She ignored him and opened the curtains and Bosch had a view of another building twenty yards away. It did cheer
him up, though. The view was so bad it made him laugh. It also reminded him he was in Cedars. He recognized the other medical tower.
The nurse then closed his briefcase so she could roll the table over the bed. On the tray was a plate containing Salisbury steak, carrots and potatoes. There was a roll that looked as hard as the eight ball he had found in his pocket the night before and some kind of red dessert wrapped in plastic. The tray and its smell made him feel the onset of nausea.
'I'm not going to eat this. Is there any Frosted Flakes?'
'You have to eat a full meal.'
'I just woke up. You people kept me up all night. I can't eat this. It's making me sick.'
She quickly picked up the tray and headed to the door.
'I'll see what I can do. About the Frosted Flakes.'
She looked back at him and smiled before heading out the door.
'Cheer up.'
'Yeah, that's the prescription.'
Bosch didn't know what to do with himself but wait for time to pass. He started thinking about his encounter with Mittel, about what was said and what was meant. There was something about it that bothered him.
He was interrupted by a beeping sound coming from the side panel of the bed. He looked down and found it was the phone.
'Hello?'
'Harry?'
'Yes.'
'It's Jazz. Are you okay?'
There was a long silence. Bosch didn't know if he was ready for this yet, but now it was unavoidable.
'Harry?'
'I'm fine. How'd you find me?'
'The man who called me yesterday. Irving something. He-'
'Chief Irving.'
'Yes. He called and told me you were hurt. He gave me the number.'
That annoyed Bosch but he tried not to show it.
'Well, I'm fine, but I can't really talk.'
'Well, what happened?'
'It's just a long story. I don't want to go through it now.'
Now she was quiet. It was one of those moments when both people try to read the silence, pick up each other's meanings in what they weren't saying.
'You know, don't you?'
'Why didn't you tell me, Jasmine?'
'I...'
More silence.
'Do you want me to tell you now?'
'I don't know ...'
'What did he tell you?'
'Who?'
'Irving.'
'It wasn't from him. He doesn't know. It was somebody else. Somebody trying to hurt me.'
'It was a long time ago, Harry. I want to tell you what happened ... but not on the phone.'
He closed his eyes and thought for a minute. Just hearing her voice had renewed his sense of connection to her. But he had to question whether he wanted to get into this.
'I don't know, Jazz. I've got to think about -'
'Look, what was I supposed to do? Wear a sign or something to warn you away from the start? You tell me, when was a good time for me to tell you? Was it right after that first lemonade? Should I have said, 'Oh, by the way,
six years ago I killed the man I was living with when he tried to rape me for the second time in the same night?' Would that have been proper?' 'Jazz, don't ...'
'Don't what? Look, the cops didn't believe my story here, what should I expect from you?'
He could tell she was crying now, not so that he was supposed to hear. But he could tell it in her voice, full of loneliness and pain.
'You said things to me,' she said. 'I thought...' 'Jazz, we spent a weekend together. You're putting too much -'
'Don't you dare! Don't you tell me it didn't mean anything.'
'You're right. I'm sorry ... Look, this isn't the right time. I've got too much going on. I gotta call you back ...' She didn't say anything. 'Okay?'
'Okay, Harry, you call me.' 'Okay, good-bye, Jazz.'
He hung up and kept his eyes closed for a while. He felt the numbness of disappointment that comes from broken hopes and wondered if he would ever talk to her again. In analyzing his thoughts he realized how much they seemed to be the same. And so his fear was not of what she had done, whatever the details were. His fear was that he would indeed call her and that he would become entwined with someone with more baggage than himself.
He opened his eyes and tried to put the thoughts aside. But he came back to her. He found himself marveling at the randomness of their meeting. A newspaper want ad. It might as well have said Single White Killer Seeks Same. He laughed out loud but it wasn't funny.
He turned the television on as a distraction. There was a talk show on and the host was interviewing women who
stole their best friends' men. The best friends were also on and every question devolved into a verbal cat fight. Bosch turned the sound down and watched for ten minutes in silence, studying the contortions of the women's angry faces.
After a while he turned it off and rang the nurses' station on the intercom to inquire about his cereal. The nurse he spoke to knew nothing about his request for breakfast at lunch time. He tried Meredith Roman's number again but hung up when he got the tape.
Just as Bosch was getting hungry enough to be tempted to call for the return of the Salisbury steak, a nurse finally came back in with another food tray. This one contained a banana, a small glass of orange juice, a plastic bowl with a little box of Frosted Flakes in it and a pint-size carton of milk. He thanked her and began eating the cereal out of the box. The other stuff he didn't want.
He picked up the phone and dialed the main number at Parker Center and asked for Assistant Chief Irving's office. The secretary who eventually answered said Irving was in conference with the police chief and could not be disturbed. Bosch left his number.
Next he dialed Keisha Russell's number at the paper.
'It's Bosch.'
'Bosch, where have you been? You turn your phone
off?'
Bosch reached into his briefcase and took the phone out. He checked the battery.
'Sorry, it's dead.'
'Great. That doesn't help me any, does it? The two biggest names in that clip I gave you end up dead last
