arose sorrowfully in my mind, and I said to myself, 'She has been anxious about him,' and I wondered how that love would end.
When I had come home from Caddy's while she was ill, I had often found Ada at work, and she had always put her work away, and I had never known what it was. Some of it now lay in a drawer near her, which was not quite closed. I did not open the drawer, but I still rather wondered what the work could he, for it was evidently nothing for herself.
And I noticed as I kissed my dear that she lay with one hand under her pillow so that it was hidden.
How much less amiable I must have been than they thought me, how much less amiable than I thought myself, to be so preoccupied with my own cheerfulness and contentment as to think that it only rested with me to put my dear girl right and set her mind at peace!
But I lay down, self-deceived, in that belief. And I awoke in it next day to find that there was still the same shade between me and my darling.
CHAPTER LI
Enlightened
When Mr. Woodcourt arrived in London, he went, that very same day, to Mr. Vholes's in Symond's Inn. For he never once, from the moment when I entreated him to be a friend to Richard, neglected or forgot his promise. He had told me that he accepted the charge as a sacred trust, and he was ever true to it in that spirit.
He found Mr. Vholes in his office and informed Mr. Vholes of his agreement with Richard that he should call there to learn his address.
'Just so, sir,' said Mr. Vholes. 'Mr. C.'s address is not a hundred miles from here, sir, Mr. C.'s address is not a hundred miles from here. Would you take a seat, sir?'
Mr. Woodcourt thanked Mr. Vholes, but he had no business with him beyond what he had mentioned.
'Just so, sir. I believe, sir,' said Mr. Vholes, still quietly insisting on the seat by not giving the address, 'that you have influence with Mr. C. Indeed I am aware that you have.'
'I was not aware of it myself,' returned Mr. Woodcourt; 'but I suppose you know best.'
'Sir,' rejoined Mr. Vholes, self-contained as usual, voice and all,
'it is a part of my professional duty to know best. It is a part of my professional duty to study and to understand a gentleman who confides his interests to me. In my professional duty I shall not be wanting, sir, if I know it. I may, with the best intentions, be wanting in it without knowing it; but not if I know it, sir.'
Mr. Woodcourt again mentioned the address.
'Give me leave, sir,' said Mr. Vholes. 'Bear with me for a moment.
Sir, Mr. C. is playing for a considerable stake, and cannot play without-need I say what?'
'Money, I presume?'
'Sir,' said Mr. Vholes, 'to be honest with you (honesty being my golden rule, whether I gain by it or lose, and I find that I generally lose), money is the word. Now, sir, upon the chances of Mr. C.'s game I express to you no opinion, NO opinion. It might be highly impolitic in Mr. C., after playing so long and so high, to leave off; it might be the reverse; I say nothing. No, sir,' said Mr. Vholes, bringing his hand flat down upon his desk in a positive manner, 'nothing.'
'You seem to forget,' returned Mr. Woodcourt, 'that I ask you to say nothing and have no interest in anything you say.'
'Pardon me, sir!' retorted Mr. Vholes. 'You do yourself an injustice. No, sir! Pardon me! You shall not-shall not in my office, if I know it-do yourself an injustice. You are interested in anything, and in everything, that relates to your friend. I know human nature much better, sir, than to admit for an instant that a gentleman of your appearance is not interested in whatever concerns his friend.'
'Well,' replied Mr. Woodcourt, 'that may be. I am particularly interested in his address.'
'The number, sir,' said Mr. Vholes parenthetically, 'I believe I have already mentioned. If Mr. C. is to continue to play for this considerable stake, sir, he must have funds. Understand me! There are funds in hand at present. I ask for nothing; there are funds in hand. But for the onward play, more funds must be provided, unless Mr. C. is to throw away what he has already ventured, which is wholly and solely a point for his consideration. This, sir, I take the opportunity of stating openly to you as the friend of Mr.
C. Without funds I shall always be happy to appear and act for Mr.
C. to the extent of all such costs as are safe to be allowed out of the estate, not beyond that. I could not go beyond that, sir, without wronging some one. I must either wrong my three dear girls or my venerable father, who is entirely dependent on me, in the Vale of Taunton; or some one. Whereas, sir, my resolution is (call it weakness or folly if you please) to wrong no one.'
Mr. Woodcourt rather sternly rejoined that he was glad to hear it.
'I wish, sir,' said Mr. Vholes, 'to leave a good name behind me.
Therefore I take every opportunity of openly stating to a friend of Mr. C. how Mr. C. is situated. As to myself, sir, the labourer is worthy of his hire. If I undertake to put my shoulder to the wheel, I do it, and I earn what I get. I am here for that purpose.
My name is painted on the door outside, with that object.'
'And Mr. Carstone's address, Mr. Vholes?'
'Sir,' returned Mr. Vholes, 'as I believe I have already mentioned, it is next door. On the second story you will find Mr. C.'s apartments. Mr. C. desires to be near his professional adviser, and I am far from objecting, for I court inquiry.'
Upon this Mr. Woodcourt wished Mr. Vholes good day and went in search of Richard, the change in whose appearance he began to understand now but too well.
He found him in a dull room, fadedly furnished, much as I had found him in his barrack-room but a little while before, except that he was not writing but was sitting with a book before him, from which his eyes and thoughts were far astray. As the door chanced to be standing open, Mr. Woodcourt was in his presence for some moments without being perceived, and he told me that he never could forget the haggardness of his face and the dejection of his manner before he was aroused from his dream.
'Woodcourt, my dear fellow,' cried Richard, starting up with extended hands, 'you come upon my vision like a ghost.'
'A friendly one,' he replied, 'and only waiting, as they say ghosts do, to be addressed. How does the mortal world go?' They were seated now, near together.
'Badly enough, and slowly enough,' said Richard, 'speaking at least for my part of it.'
'What part is that?'
'The Chancery part.'
'I never heard,' returned Mr. Woodcourt, shaking his head, 'of its going well yet.'
'Nor I,' said Richard moodily. 'Who ever did?' He brightened again in a moment and said with his natural openness, 'Woodcourt, I should be sorry to be misunderstood by you, even if I gained by it in your estimation. You must know that I have done no good this long time. I have not intended to do much harm, but I seem to have been capable of nothing else. It may be that I should have done better by keeping out of the net into which my destiny has worked me, but I think not, though I dare say you will soon hear, if you have not already heard, a very different opinion. To make short of a long story, I am afraid I have wanted an object; but I have an object now-or it has me-and it is too late to discuss it. Take me as I am, and make the best of me.'
'A bargain,' said Mr. Woodcourt. 'Do as much by me in return.'
'Oh! You,' returned Richard, 'you can pursue your art for its own sake, and can put your hand upon the plough and never turn, and can strike a purpose out of anything. You and I are very different creatures.'
He spoke regretfully and lapsed for a moment into his weary condition.
'Well, well!' he cried, shaking it off. 'Everything has an end.
We shall see! So you will take me as I am, and make the best of me?'
'Aye! Indeed I will.' They shook hands upon it laughingly, but in deep earnestness. I can answer for one of them with my heart of hearts.
