so deeply their alarm clocks can't get them out of bed. Either way, Kylie always knows he's been close by when she wakes to find that Gillian is crying in her sleep. She knows when she goes down the hall to the bathroom and sees that the toilet is clogged and when it's flushed the body of a dead bird or a bat rises up in the water. There are slugs in the garden, and waterbugs in the cellar, and mice have begun to nest in a pair of Gillian's high heels, the black patent leather ones she bought in L.A. Look into a mirror and the image starts to shift. Pass by a window and the glass will rattle. It's the man in the garden who's responsible when the morning begins with a curse muttered under someone's breath, or a toe stubbed, or a favorite dress torn so methodically you'd think someone had sliced through the fabric with a pair of scissors or a hunting knife.
On this morning, the bad fortune rising from the garden is particularly nasty. Not only has Sally discovered the diamond earrings she was given on her wedding day tucked into Gillian's jacket pocket, but Gillian found her paycheck from the Hamburger Shack torn into a thousand pieces, spread across the lace doily on the coffee table.
The silence Sally and Gillian mutually agreed upon at Kylie's birthday dinner, when they snapped their mouths shut in fury and despair, is now over. During these days of silence, both sisters have had migraine headaches. They've had sour expressions and puffy eyes, and both have lost weight, since they now bypass breakfast so they won't have to face one another first thing. But two sisters cannot live in the same house and ignore each other for long. Sooner or later they will break down and have the fight they should have had at the start. Helplessness and anger make for predictable behavior: Children are certain to shove each other and pull hair, teenagers will call each other names and cry, and grown women who are sisters will say words so cruel that each syllable will take on the form of a snake, although such a snake often circles in on itself to eat its own tail once the words are said aloud.
'You dishonest piece of garbage,' Sally says to her sister, who has stumbled into the kitchen in search of coffee.
'Oh, yeah?' Gillian says. She's more than ready for this fight. She's got the torn paycheck in the palm of her hand, and now she lets it fall to the floor, like confetti. 'Deep down, under all that goody-goody stuff, is a grade-A bitch.'
'That's it,' Sally says. 'I want you out. I've wanted you out from the moment you arrived. I never asked you to stay. I never invited you. You take whatever you want, just the way you always have.'
'I'm desperate to go. I'm counting the seconds. But it would be faster if you didn't tear up my checks.'
'Listen,' Sally says. 'If you need to steal my earrings to pay for your departure, well, then good. Fine.'
She opens her fist and the diamonds fall onto the kitchen table. 'Just don't think you're fooling me.'
'Why the hell would I want them?' Gillian says. 'How stupid can you be? The aunts gave you those earrings because no one else would ever wear such horrible things.'
'Fuck you,' Sally says. She tosses the words off, easy as butter in her mouth, but in fact she doesn't think she's ever cursed out loud in her own house before.
'Fuck you twice,' Gillian says. 'You need it more.'
That's when Kylie comes down from her bedroom. Her face is pale and her hair is sticking straight up. If Gillian stood before a mirror that was stretched to present someone younger and taller and more beautiful, she'd be looking at Kylie. When you're thirty-six and you're confronted with this, so very early in the morning, your mouth can suddenly feel parched, your skin can feel prickly and worn out, no matter how much moisturizer you've been using.
'You have to stop fighting.' Kylie's voice is matter-of-fact, and much deeper than that of most girls her age. She used to think about scoring goals and being too tall; now she's thinking about life and death and men you'd better not dare to turn your back on.
'Says who?' Gillian counters haughtily, having decided, perhaps a little too late, that it might actually be best if Kylie were to remain a child, at least for another few years.
'This is none of your business,' Sally tells her daughter.
'Don't you understand? You make him happy when you fight. It's just what he wants.'
Sally and Gillian immediately shut up. They exchange a worried look. The kitchen window has been left open all night, and the curtain flaps back and forth, drenched from last night's downpour.
'Who are you talking about?' Sally asks in a calm and steady tone, as though she were not speaking with someone who might have just flipped her lid.
'The man under the lilacs,' Kylie says.
Gillian nudges Sally with her bare foot. She doesn't like the sound of this. Plus, Kylie's got a funny look about her, as if she's seen something, and she's not telling, and they're just going to have to play this guessing game with her until they get it right.
'This man who wants us to fight—is he someone bad?' Sally asks.
Kylie snorts, then takes out the coffeepot and a filter. 'He's vile,' she says—a vocabulary word from last semester that she's putting to good use for the very first time.
Gillian turns to Sally. 'Sounds like someone we know.'
Sally doesn't bother to remind her sister that only Gillian knows this man. She's the one who dragged him into their lives simply because she had nowhere else to go. Sally can't begin to guess how far her sister's bad judgment will go. Since she's been sharing a room with Kylie, who knows what she's confided?
'You told her about Jimmy, didn't you?' Sally's skin feels much too hot; before long her face will be flushed and red, her throat will be dry with fury. 'You just couldn't keep your mouth shut.'
'Thanks a lot for trusting me.' Gillian is really insulted. 'For your information, I didn't tell her anything. Not a word,' Gillian insists, although at this moment she's not sure. She can't be angered by Sally's suspicions, because she doesn't even trust herself. Maybe she's been talking in her sleep, maybe she's been telling all while in the very next bed Kylie listens to every word.
'Are you talking about a real man?' Sally asks Kylie. 'Someone who's sneaking around our house?'
'I don't know if he's real or not. He's just there.' Sally watches her daughter spoon decaf into the white paper filter. At this moment, Kylie seems like a stranger, a grown woman with secrets to keep. In the dark morning light, her gray eyes look completely green, as though they belonged to a cat that can see in the dark. All that Sally wanted for her, a good and ordinary life, has gone up in smoke. Kylie is anything but ordinary. There is no way around that. She is not like the other girls on the block.
'Tell me if you see him now,' Sally says.
Kylie looks at her mother. She's afraid, but she recognizes her mother's tone of voice as one to be obeyed and she goes to the window in spite of her fear. Sally and Gillian come to stand beside her. They can see their reflections in the glass, and the wet lawn. Outside are the lilacs, taller and more lush than would seem possible.
'Under the lilacs.' Little knobs of fear are rising on Kylie's arms and her legs and everywhere in between. 'Where the grass is the greenest. He's right there.'
It is the spot exactly.
Gillian stands close behind Kylie and squints, but all she can make out are the shadows of the lilacs. 'Can anyone else see him?'
'The birds.' Kylie blinks back tears. What she wouldn't have given to look out and find he's gone. 'The bees.'
Gillian is ashen. She is the one who should be punished. She deserves it, not Kylie. Jimmy should be haunting her; each time she closes her eyes, it should be his face she sees. 'Oh, fuck,' she says, to no one in particular.
'Was he your boyfriend?' Kylie asks her aunt.
'Once,' Gillian says. 'If you can believe it.'
'Is that why he hates us so much?' Kylie asks.
'Honey, he just hates,' Gillian says. 'It doesn't matter if it's us or them. I just wish I'd learned that when he was still alive.'
'And now he won't go away.' Kylie understands that much. Even girls of thirteen can figure out that a man's ghost reflects who he was and everything he's ever done. There's a lot of spite under those lilacs. There's a
