'Should you not be dead?'
'Aren't I?'
'Be in no haste,' he said grimly. 'You have ten years left to you.'
'You told me twelve.'
'Possibly twelve.'
I looked into his eyes. 'How many have you?'
'Two,' he said. 'Possibly.'
'How do you know?'
'I know.'
'How can you tell?'
'I can.'
'This is ridiculous,' I snapped. 'You feed me this nonsense of scars being lifted and put onto another man; of Sahdri using magic to set me atop this rock; of me being born, as if once wasn't enough; of me surviving this leap that only a madman would make-'
'A madman did.'
'-and then you expect me to believe this nonsense?'
'This nonsense will convince you.'
'I don't think so.'
'Look at yourself,' he commanded. 'Look at your flesh.'
I scowled. 'So?'
'He lifted the scars from you. '
I looked at myself. Peered down at my abdomen, where the Northern blade had sculpted flesh and muscle into an architecture I hadn't been born with.
The flesh was whole. Unblemished.
I clapped a hand to my face. The cheek was whole. Unblemished.
I looked then at my hands, seeking the cuts, the divots, the over-large knuckle where a finger had been broken, the nails themselves left ridged from hard usage. All of me was whole. All of me was new.
I stared hard at Nihko. 'You have scars.'
'You begin anew,' he answered. 'What damage you do to yourself from this day forward will be manifested in your flesh-it can even kill you-but you were reborn on the spire. A child comes into the world without blemish.'
I knew better. 'Not all children!'
He conceded that. 'But not all children are ioSkandic.'
'And the ones who are?'
'Are mages. Are mad.'
I laughed harshly. 'You tell me I have power, now; that I'm a mage, now. And also that I'm mad? What advantage is that?'
'None.'
'Then?'
'We are transient,' he said. 'We burn too brightly. We burn ourselves out.'
I stabbed a finger at him. 'This is not helping.'
He grinned toothily at me. 'I live to serve.'
'Clothes,' I said, focusing on nakedness; on what I could understand.
'In the cart.'
'Good. Get them.'
'Ah. I am to serve.'
'You said that's what you were here for.'
'For the moment.' But he went to the cart, found a bundle of linen and tossed it at me.
I caught and shook it out. 'What is this?'
'Robes,' he answered, untying the molah's lead-rope. 'But you need not concern yourself with how they suit you.'
Slipping into the linen, I eyed him irritably. 'Why not?'
'Because you will not be wearing them for very long.'
The hem of the robe ended just above my ankles. 'Why not?'
'Because,' he said, 'Sahdri will have you stripped.'
I froze. 'Why?'
'Rituals,' he said briefly, leading the molah over. Cartwheels grated on stone.
'What rituals?' I asked suspiciously. 'No more leaping off of spires!'
'That is done.' He gestured. 'Get in.'
'Little chance of that,' I retorted. 'There's only one thing that will convince me I should.'
'Yes?'
'That this cart is going to a ship that can take me back to Skandi.'
'No,' he answered.
'Then I guess I'm going nowhere. Not to Sahdri. Not with you.'
Nihko sighed. 'Do you believe I cannot make you?'
'If I'm a mage,' I said promptly, 'you can't make me do anything.'
'But I can,' he said, and touched me.
I tumbled into darkness.
And into the cart.
THIRTY-FOUR
SENSE RETURNED with a rash. Ropes cut into me, rubbed wounds into newly sensitive flesh; I felt everything as if it were hot as wire. The pounding of my heart filled my skull, reverberated in my chest. I heard the hiss of blood running back and forth in its vessels, as if my skin were too thin.
I flailed, felt ropes give; realized it was net. I was cradled, captured. Bundled up within the ropes fashioned into nets. And I was suspended.
From a spire.
I flailed again, spasming. Felt the net, harsh as wire. Felt the sway of the rope used to haul me up.
I depended from the spire. Depended on the spire.
Movement. I was being hauled up, winched up; I heard the creak of wood, the rubbing of the rope. Was this how Sahdri had taken me up the other spire?
There had been no rope. And nothing to which rope might be attached. There had only been stone. And spire. And me.
This was different.
I was meat in a net, hauled up. If my flesh wasn't eaten, my spirit would be.
Sahdri. Who had known the moment he saw me. Saw the brow ring hooked in my necklet.
I snatched at necklet. Found it. Caught it. Closed my hand upon it. Ten curving claws, strung upon a thong. I had cut them from the paws. Pierced them. Strung them. Wore them as a badge: see what I have become? I am the boy that killed the sandtiger; that saved the children; that saved the tribe; that freed himself.
Twenty-four years I had worn the necklet.
I knew that, now. I was forty years old. Nihko had told me. The magic had manifested. Sixteen when I killed the sandtiger; sixteen when I conjured it. And thirty-seven when I met Del.
Not thirty-six. Not thirty-eight.
I had a name. An age. One I gave myself. The other was given to me.
