hamburger, and munched it down. When I asked what it was, he said, 'Valium, Vitamin V. I've never been so nervous in my life.'
'Were you on call last night?'
'Nape. Tonight. Hooper was on call last night.'
When I asked Hooper how it had been, he got that same gleam in his eye that he'd gotten at the B?M Deli when the Pearl told the story about doing the autopsy in secret, and he giggled and said, 'Great, just great. Two deaths. One permission for the postmortem. Watched it myself this morning. Fantastic'
'Does the Valium help?' Potts asked the Runt.
'It makes me feel kinds sleepy, but I feel pretty unflappable. I'm writing orders for it for all my patients.'
'What?' I asked. 'You're putting them on Valium too?'
'Why not? They're all very nervous, having me as their doc. By the way, Potts, thanks a lot for that transfer last night, the Yellow Man,' said the Runt sarcastically. 'Terrific.'
'I'm sorry,' said Potts, 'I should have given him the steroids. Has he stopped convulsing?'
'Nope. Not yet.'
I got beeped to go back to the ward, and as I left I asked Eat My Dust how it was going for him.
'How's it going? Compared to California, it sucks.'
When the Rokitansky girls asked to speak with me again, I felt grand. Their hearing aids turned up full blast, they asked for the latest bulletin from 'our brother's doctor.' I felt like I was in command, like I had something to give. They hung on my every word. When my beeper called me away, they said they were sorry they'd bothered me and that I must have more important things to do, and as I left them to go down to my first Outpatient Clinic, I felt a real thrill. When I stepped into the elevator, people looked at me, tried to read my name tag, knowing I was a doc. I was proud of my stethoscope, of the blood on my sleeve. The Fat Man was a burnt?out case. Being a doc was a thrill. You could do things for people. They had faith in you. You couldn't let them down. Rokitansky would get well.
Cocky, seduced by the illusion of somehow getting Rokitansky to regenerate his brain, I entered the Outpatient Clinic. Chuck and I had our Clinics on the same day, and, side by side, listened as the Clinic was explained. We'd be functioning just like General Practitioners, except we wouldn't get paid. We each were given an office, to use once every two weeks. The final seduction was when they presented each of us with our cards:
ROY G. BASCH, M.D. OUTPATIENT CLINIC, HOUSE OF GOD.
Bolstered by pride, pretending to know what I was doing, I waded through my first Clinic. Too poor to afford a House Private, Clinic patients would turn out to be of two types: fifty?two?year?old husbandless black mothers with high blood pressure, and seventy?two year?old husbandless Jewish LOLs in NAD with high blood pressure. I would hardly ever see a male, and to see someone below the age of fifty?two, except for 'mental disturbance' or venereal disease, would be publishable. My first very own patient was a LOL in NAD in need of a checkup and a prescription for a new artificial breast and padded bra with fillable pockets. Who knew how to write a prescription? Not me. She wrote it, I signed it, and, grateful, she left. Next was a Portuguese woman who wanted me to do something about her corns. Who knew about corns? I toyed with the idea of writing her a prescription for an artificial foot and a padded shoe with finable socks, but then I remembered the Fat Man and TURFED her to Podiatry. The next LOL in NAD was seventy?five, Jewish, and came in with her upper eyelids, Scotchtaped to her forehead. Reading her old chart, I found out that this was a case of 'drooping lids of unknown etiology' and that her previous Clinic tern had TURFED her to Ophthalmology, where the resident had told her to 'tape them up or I operate' and she'd chosen the tape and had been TURFED back to Medicine. This was a BOUNCE.
'Oh, I love meeting all you nice young doctors,' she said.
'How long have you had this tape on your lids?'
'Eight years. How much longer do I have to wear it?'
'What happens if you take it off?'
'My eyelids fall down.'
I wrote her a prescription for more tape. She grasped my hand and began to chatter about how glad she was to have me as her doctor. It was hard for me to listen because her taped?up lids made her eyes bulge out like a monster of the deep, and the only thing that stopped her life story from pouring out was that the nurse brought in my next patient, the last of the afternoon. This was a hypertensive black woman of fiftyfour named Mae, with no chief complaint except 'my joints hurt when I play basketball with my kids' and a request for a pelvic exam. When she was up in the stirrups Mae started spouting Jehovah's Witness gospel, and after she got dressed, chattering all the while a mixture of religion, family history, and history of her previous terns at the House Clinic, she spewed out some Witness pamphlets and left. These women loved coining to the doctor. I walked into Chuck's office and found him with a LOL in NAD too. He was doing something I'd never seen done before in medicine, something with a tape measure and a breast.
'Well, you see, man, this lady says her breast is growing.'
'Just one of them?'
'Right. So I thought I'd better measure and see if it gets any bigger in the next two weeks.'
Back on the ward, I felt grand. I was excited, thrilled at being a doctor. Having been a red?hot in my academic career, there was no reason not to be a House red?hot too. Hadn't the Pearl himself, earlier in the day, congratulated me on the way I'd cleaned out his patient for the bowel run? Feeling Dr. Kildarish, I sat in the warm sunlight of the nursing station. Looking into the room across the hallway, I saw Molly, perky transparent Molly, bending over the bed, fiddling with the sheet. She kept her legs straight, so her miniskirt rode up her thighs, and with a final reach over to the far side of the bed, she hiked the hem up over her ass, showering me with the rainbow?and?flower pattern of her little?girl panties, snug against the firm full gluteal folds that formed an awning over the juicy female thing that grew up there. I could feel a half?chub mumbling and squirming in my whites.
'That's the straight bendover.' It was the Fat Man. He sat down beside me, unrolling the Journal.
'Huh?'
'That nursing maneuver, where they bend from the waist and flash their ass. Called the Straight Bendover Nursing Maneuver. Learn it in nursing school. What are you going to do about TURFING Sophie? She's settling in, and I'm warning you, she's really getting Putzeled this time. She could be here for months.'
'Putzeled?'
'Bob Putzel, her Private, remember? He uses the standard method: admit the LOL in NAD, do a test, produce a complication, do another test to diagnose the complication, get another complication, and so on until they're gomertose and non?TURFABLE. Do you want that nice LOL in NAD to become an Ina Goober? Nip it in the bud. Do something now. You gotta get her to leave.'
'How?'
'Do a painful procedure. She doesn't like painful procedures.'
'I can't think of anything that's indicated.'
'Oh. Well, she has a headache, and her noon temp is a degree high. No matter that it's almost a hundred Fahrenheit up here and all the temps are a degree high, no matter, 'cause the chart is BUFFED with a recorded noon temp a degree high. Oh, and she has a stiff neck too. So: headache, fever, stiff neck; diagnosis?'
'Meningitis.'
'Procedure?'
'Lumbar puncture, LP. But she doesn't really have meningitis.'
'She might. If you don't LP her, you might miss it, like Potts missed with Mellow Yellow. And don't worry about hurting Sophie, she's tough. A Gray Panther. Get Molly to help.' Looking in the paper, Fats mumbled, 'The Dow Jones is up, baby, up. Good. Good climate for the Invention now, for sure.'
'For what?'
'The Invention, the Invention! The Great American Medical Invention!'
With the Dow Jones rising up over America's colorful ass, how could I not enjoy doing an LP on Sophie? Molly had never before assisted at an LP and was glad to help. Together we walked into Sophie's room. Levy the Lost, my BMS, was sitting on Sophie's bed Putzeling her hand, 'taking a history.' He was still at the beginning, asking her 'What brought you to the hospital?'
'What brought me? Dr. Putzel, in his white Continental.'
I stopped Levy, and instructed Molly in how to hold Sophie curled up in a fetal position on her side, exposing
