March To The Sea

numbers and production estimates with Rus, then work with Rus and this Dell Mir on designs. I suggest that you get His Highness involved in that, as well, and I'll be looking over both of your shoulders.'

He made another entry on his pad, then looked up and raised an eyebrow.

'Why are you all still sitting here?' he asked mildly, and various people found themselves pushing to their feet almost before they realized they were moving. The Marine smiled wryly as they began filing out, but then he raised one hand.

'Stay a moment, Roger,' he said.

'Have you been naughty again?' Julian whispered as he passed the prince on his way to the door. Roger only smiled and shook his head, then walked back to the company commander.

'Yes, Captain?'

'Sit down,' Pahner said, pouring a cup of wine. 'I want to discuss a couple of things with you.'

Roger accepted the wine warily.

'I made up with Despreaux . . . sort of,' he said. 'Or, I think I have, at least. In a way. Kind of.'

'That's not the point of this discussion,' Pahner told him with a frown, 'although we do need to discuss that sometime, too. But this is a 'professional development' counseling session.'

'Professional development as a prince?' Roger asked with a grin. 'Or as a Marine.'

'Both,' the captain said, and Roger's grin faded as the Marine's somber expression registered. 'I want to talk you about your actions since . . . Marshad, basically.'

'I've been holding up my end,' Roger said in a quieter voice. 'I . . . think I've even gotten most of the troops to like me.'

'Oh, you've done that, all right,' Pahner said. 'In fact, you're a fine leader, from an officer point of view. You don't undercut your NCOs, you lead from the front, all that stuff. But one of those good qualities is also a hell of a problem.'

'Would that be leading from the front?' Roger asked.

'In a way.' Pahner took a sip of his wine. 'Let me tell you a little story. Call it 'This Is No Shit,' since it's a space story. Once upon a time, there was a Marine sergeant. He'd seen a few engagements, but one day he did a drop on a planet after a pirate raid had been through.'

The captain took another, much deeper sip of wine, and Roger suddenly realized he'd never seen the Marine really drink. Until today.

'It wasn't pleasant. I think Despreaux talked to you once about coming in behind pirates. We seem to do it too often, and you only have to do it once to get real excited about pirate hunting.

'So, after that, the sergeant in our little story did just that—he got real excited about pirate hunting. In fact, the sergeant got so excited that one time he took a bunch of buddies and raided a ship that they just knew was a pirate at a neutral station.

'And it was one—a pirate, that is. But so, it turned out, were about half the spacestation's permanent personnel, and the cruiser the sergeant and his buddies were assigned to ended up having to fight its way off the station and nearly took a shitload of casualties. All because a sergeant couldn't figure out when it was appropriate to go hunting pirates, and when it wasn't.'

Roger watched the captain take yet another drink of wine.

'What happened to the sergeant?'

'Well, all sorts of things went wrong at that spacestation. Among other things, the commander of the cruiser hadn't really been supposed to dock there in the first place. So nothing, officially, happened to the sergeant. But it took him a while to make gunny. Quite a while. And even longer to make captain.'

'So I should quit chasing barbs,' Roger said flatly.

'Yep,' the captain said. 'There's too many of them for the few you kill to matter a hill of beans. And when you're killing barbs, Cord and the platoon are trying to keep you alive . . . and having a damned hard time of it.

'But that's not all I'm getting at, either. Another reason that sergeant went on a private expedition was that he'd been on combat ops too long. After a point, you start trying too hard, not caring about what happens, whether you live or die. I think most of the platoon is there right now, Roger. That's what the Smaj was getting at a few minutes ago. But, frankly, son, you're showing the worst signs of all.'

'And I'm the worst one to be showing them,' Roger said very quietly.

'Yep,' the Marine said again. 'Want to talk about it?'

'Not if I can avoid it.' Roger sipped his own wine and was silent for several seconds. Then he shrugged minutely. 'Let's just say that I feel somewhat responsible for the entire situation.'

'Let's just say that you feel very responsible for the situation,' the captain told him. 'Which is bullshit, but telling you that doesn't help, does it? And now you see the Marines as people— your people—and even the new, native troops to an extent, and every one of them you lose is like a piece of skin ripped off your body.'

'Yeah,' Roger half-whispered, peering down into his wine.

'Didn't they have a class about that—several, actually—at the Academy?'

'Yes, Captain, they did. But I'm afraid I didn't pay as much attention as I should have,' the prince answered, 'and I'm having a difficult time applying the lessons.'

'I'm not surprised,' the Marine told him almost gently, and Roger looked up quickly. Pahner smiled at him. 'Roger, don't take this wrong, but part of the problem is that at heart, you're a barbarian yourself.'

'I'm what?' Roger blinked in surprise.

'A barbarian,' Pahner told him. 'Mind you, being a barbarian isn't always such a terrible thing. There are barbarians . . . and barbarians, you know, and you don't have to be a butchering maniac like the Kranolta or the Boman to have what the Empire thinks of as 'barbarian' qualities. Just like some of the most 'civilized' people you're ever going to meet would cut your throat for a decicred if they thought they could get away with it. The thing is, the Empire has gone all civilized these days, and the qualities of a barbarian warrior aren't exactly the ones your lady mother's better classes of subjects want to see when they invite someone over for a high tea. But the qualities the people at those teas denigrate as barbaric are the ones the soldiers who keep them safe have to have. Courage, determination, discipline, loyalty, passion for your beliefs, and the willingness to lay it all on the line—and lose it, if you have to—out of a concept of honor and responsibility, rather than looking for compromise and consensus because 'violence never settled anything.' The military has always been out of step with the mainstream culture in most wealthy societies which enshrine individual liberty and freedom, Roger. It has to be, because those sorts of societies don't have the natural 'antibodies' against foreign and domestic enemies that more militaristic ones do. By and large, I think that's a very good thing, even if I do sometimes wind up thinking that most civilians are over- protected, under-educated drones. But the reason I think of them that way is that I'm a barbarian by their standards, and they keep me around because they need someone with barbaric qualities to keep them safe in their beds at night. I don't imagine you ever really realized that you had those qualities, too, before we hit Marduk, and I hope you won't be offended if I say that no one else realized that either. Except for Cord, maybe.'

The captain sipped from his cup once again, his expression thoughtful.

'I hadn't really thought about it before, but you and he are almost mirror images, in a way. You come from the most protected place in the most powerful and civilized empire in the known galaxy, and at the moment you find yourself on a barbarian planet at the ass end of nowhere, and in some ways it's like you were born to be here. Cord comes from a bunch of ragged ass barbarians in the middle of a godforsaken jungle full of flar- ke, atul-grak, and killerpillars, but he was educated at Voitan, and there's a sage and a philosopher down inside him, as well. There's some sort of weird resonance there, one I don't imagine anyone outside the two of you really understands, but it's certainly real. Maybe that resonance is why he slipped so easily into the mentor role for you. Or maybe it was just that, unlike any of the rest of us, he had no preconceptions where you were concerned, which let him see you more clearly than the rest of us did.

'But whatever it is, Roger, you need to be aware of what you really are. You can't afford not to be, because of who you are. I'm not just talking about the situation we're in here on Marduk and your place in the chain of command, either. You're the Heir Tertiary to the Throne, and somehow I don't think you're just going to fade into the woodwork again when we get you home. But you're going to be up against some operators who are used to manipulating people with a lot more life experience than you have, and if they have a better read than you do on who you are and how you think, you're screwed.'