“Something made me.”
“What?”
“I don’t know.” Ann’s voice was faintly hysterical.
“Now, now, hush, hush,” whispered Cecy. “Hush, that’s it. Around, around.”
They whispered and rustled and rose and fell away in the dark room, with the music moving and turning them.
“But you did come to the dance,” said Tom.
“I did,” said Cecy.
“Here.” And he danced her lightly out an open door and walked her quietly away from the hall and the music and the people.
They climbed up and sat together in the rig.
“Ann,” he said, taking her hands, trembling. “Ann.” But the way he said the name it was as if it wasn’t her name. He kept glancing into her pale face, and now her eyes were open again. “I used to love you, you know that,” he said.
“I know.”
“But you’ve always been fickle and I didn’t want to be hurt.”
“It’s just as well, we’re very young,” said Ann.
“No, I mean to say, I’m sorry,” said Cecy.
“What do you mean?” Tom dropped her hands and stiffened.
The night was warm and the smell of the earth shimmered up all about them where they sat, and the fresh trees breathed one leaf against another in a shaking and rustling.
“I don’t know,” said Ann.
“Oh, but I know,” said Cecy. “You’re tall and you’re the finest-looking man in all the world. This is a good evening; this is an evening I’ll always remember, being with you.” She put out the alien cold hand to find his reluctant hand again and bring it back, and warm it and hold it very tight.
“But,” said Tom, blinking, “tonight you’re here, you’re there. One minute one way, the next minute another. I wanted to take you to the dance tonight for old times’ sake. I meant nothing by it when I first asked you. And then, when we were standing at the well, I knew something had changed, really changed, about you. You were different. There was something new and soft, something…” He groped for a word. “I don’t know, I can’t say. The way you looked. Something about your voice. And I know I’m in love with you again.”
“No,” said Cecy. “With me, with we.”
“And I’m afraid of being in love with you,” he said. “You’ll hurt me again.”
“I might,” said Ann.
No, no, I’d love you with all my heart! thought Cecy. Ann, say it to him, say it for me. Say you’d love him with all your heart.
Ann said nothing.
Tom moved quietly closer and put his hand up to hold her chin. “I’m going away. I’ve got a job a hundred miles from here. Will you miss me?”
“Yes,” said Ann and Cecy.
“May I kiss you good-bye, then?”
“Yes,” said Cecy before anyone else could speak.
He placed his lips to the strange mouth. He kissed the strange mouth and he was trembling.
Ann sat like a white statue.
“Ann!” said Cecy. “Move your arms, hold him!”
She sat like a carved wooden doll in the moonlight.
Again he kissed her lips.
“I do love you,” whispered Cecy. “I’m here, it’s me you saw in her eyes it’s me, and I love you if she never will.”
He moved away and seemed like a man who had run a long distance. He sat beside her. “I don’t know what’s happening. For a moment there…”
“Yes?” asked Cecy.
“For a moment I thought — ” He put his hands to his eyes. “Never mind. Shall I take you home now?”
“Please,” said Ann Leary.
He clucked to the horse, snapped the reins tiredly, and drove the rig away. They rode in the rustle and slap and motion of the moonlit rig in the still early, only eleven o’clock spring night, with the shining meadows and sweet fields of clover gliding by.
And Cecy, looking at the fields and meadows, thought, ‘It would be worth it, it would be worth everything to be with him from this night on.’ And she heard her parents’ voices again, faintly, “Be careful. You wouldn’t want to lose your magical powers, would you — married to a mere mortal? Be careful. You wouldn’t want that.”
Yes, yes, thought Cecy, even that I’d give up, here and now, if he would have me. I wouldn’t need to roam the spring nights then, I wouldn’t need to live in birds and dogs and cats and foxes, I’d need only to be with him. Only him. Only him.
The road passed under, whispering.
“Tom,” said Ann at last.
“What?” He stared coldly at the road, the horse, the trees, the sky, the stars.
“If you’re ever, in years to come, at any time, in Green Town, Illinois, a few miles from here, will you do me a favour?”
“Perhaps.”
“Will you do me the favour of stopping and seeing a friend of mine?” Ann Leary said this haltingly, awkwardly.
“Why?”
“She’s a good friend. I’ve told her of you. I’ll give you her address. Just a moment.” When the rig stopped at her farm she drew forth a pencil and paper from her small purse and wrote in the moonlight, pressing the paper to her knee. “There it is. Can you read it?”
He glanced at the paper and nodded bewilderedly.
“Cecy Elliott, 12 Willow Street, Green Town, Illinois,” he said.
“Will you visit her someday?” asked Ann.
“Someday,” he said.
“Promise?”
“What has this to do with us?” he cried savagely. “What do I want with names and papers?” He crumpled the paper into a tight ball and shoved it in his coat.
“Oh, please promise!” begged Cecy.
“… promise…” said Ann.
“All right, all right, now let me be!” he shouted.
I’m tired, thought Cecy. I can’t stay I have to go home. I’m weakening. I’ve only the power to stay a few hours out like this in the night, travelling, travelling. But before I go…
“… before I go,” said Ann.
She kissed Tom on the lips.
“This is me kissing you,” said Cecy.
Tom held her off and looked at Ann Leary and looked deep, deep inside. He said nothing, but his face began to relax slowly, very slowly, and the lines vanished away, and his mouth softened from its hardness, and he looked deep again into the moonlit face held here before him.
Then he put her off the rig and without so much as a good night was driving swiftly down the road.
Cecy let go.
Ann Leary, crying out, released from prison, it seemed, raced up the moonlit path to her house and slammed the door.
Cecy lingered for only a little while. In the eyes of a cricket she saw the spring night world. In the eyes of a frog she sat for a lonely moment by a pool. In the eyes of a night bird she looked down from a tall, moon-haunted elm and saw the light go out in two farmhouses, one here, one a mile away. She thought of herself and her family,
