We can take care of this by ourselves.”
And I thought that was a pretty goddamned good idea, considering Chas thought it up.
But then Joey said, “I’m not going if Ryan Dean doesn’t go.”
Crap.
Chas said, “Crap.”
For the briefest of moments, Chas Becker and I were of like mind.
I opened the back door and crawled in. At least I could stretch my legs out across the seat. I kicked my shoes off. I wished Annie could come. That would be awesome.
Just when we were about five miles away from the lights of Bannock, which was the only town close to Pine Mountain, and I was almost falling asleep, reclining sideways across the seats with my back against the car door, Chas reached over from the front and grabbed my leg so hard, he tore the inseam on my pants open all the way from my crotch to my knee.
He said, “Now you’re going to tell me everything about what’s going on with you and Megan.”
He must have been stewing about it for days now.
And I can’t say I didn’t know this was coming.
I’d seen how Megan and Chas looked, getting off that plane. I witnessed firsthand Megan’s subtle teases about me in the backseat of that same car as we all drove back to school from our weekends. And, honestly, my back was still bruised from when Chas slammed me up against the soap dispenser the day he caught Megan rubbing her hand on my leg in the mess hall.
But knowing all that still didn’t lessen the adrenaline jolt of fear that shot through me.
No matter how smart I thought I could be at a moment like that, I couldn’t think of anything to tell him except the truth.
Joey joked, “Don’t make me pull this car over, boys.”
Chas wasn’t loosening his grip.
He wasn’t smiling, either.
I swallowed. The pins came back to my throat. My voice cracked as I said, “What do you want to know, Chas?”
Joey tried changing the subject. “I’m going to stop and get some coffee at the gas station here. You guys want some?”
“Yeah,” I said. “And I need to pee.”
“Me too,” Joey said.
Chas let go of my leg. Joey pulled the car in to a minimart gas station. It was really quiet when he turned off the engine.
Nobody moved.
Awkward.
“We’ve kind of been fooling around,” I said.
There. I said it. Finally.
I noticed that Joey had been just about to shoulder his door open, but he froze as soon as he heard my confession.
It echoed like an empty church in that car. I don’t think anyone so much as took a breath after I said it. And I know Joey was thinking about what he should do if Chas jumped into the backseat and began murdering me on the spot.
“We just kissed a few times. That’s all.”
Well, actually, it was exactly twenty-four times, but I felt justified in using the generic “few,” realizing that any number greater than “never” was as good as saying “twenty-four.”
I could see Joey’s eyes in the rearview mirror.
Then Chas did something that nobody would ever have expected. He turned away from me and sighed. He actually looked like it hurt him to hear what I’d said.
“That’s what she told me yesterday,” he said. “I didn’t believe her. I thought she was just screwing around with me. You know how Megan is. Why the fuck would you do something like that to a guy on your own team, Winger?”
“I don’t know.”
Okay, why do teenagers use that answer so often, especially when we really
Then I said, “We’re not doing it anymore.”
I put my shoes on and opened my door.
“I’m going to pee,” I said.
I heard Joey get out of the car behind me. Chas stayed in the passenger seat. As I was rounding the corner to the men’s room, Joey caught up to me.
“Damn, Ryan Dean. I think Chas is crying,” he said.
“Why am I such a punk, Joe?”
“I tried telling you,” Joey said. “You want coffee?”
“Yeah. Black.”
Joey went inside the minimart, and I went around back and peed in the bushes. I can’t stand gas station men’s rooms. I met Joey around front again, and he handed me two cups in paper sleeves. He held an elastic keychain, wrapped around his wrist.
“You need a key for the toilets,” he said.
“I peed in the trees.”
Joey said, “Oh. I’ll be right back.”
He went around the corner, and when I got back to the car, Chas was gone.
Chapter Sixty-Nine
WE SPENT THE NEXT FIFTEEN minutes looking for Chas around the gas station, even walking both directions away from it along the road, but we couldn’t find any trace of him.
It started raining again, so Joey and I went back to the car and sat.
“I don’t know where he’d go,” Joey said.
I had a good idea Chas was probably running around in the woods naked, looking for something to kill. Probably something that weighed exactly 152 pounds.
I sighed.
“You really did make him drink pee tonight, on top of everything else, didn’t you?”
“Casey, too,” I said.
“Damn. Well, he’s probably not heading back to PM. It’s way too far.” Joey looked at his wristwatch. “It’s a little after two. We can finish this costume hunt, and maybe we’ll find him on the way back. I’m sure we will. He’s gotta be around here somewhere, just sitting alone, cooling off. We might get back in time to sleep a couple hours, at least, that way.”
I didn’t really feel bad about anything I’d done, but I did feel sorry that Chas was hurting over Megan, because I knew that feeling firsthand. But I tried to remind myself how stupid it was for me to feel sorry for a guy like Chas. Still, the whole thing made me think about how crazy I was for Annie, and how JP was trying to do the same thing to me that I’d been doing to Chas all along.
“Okay.” I yawned.
Joey started the car and we drove into Bannock.
“You don’t need to say it, Joey. I know this is all my fault.”
“It’s not
