So I said goodbye to them in the cab which waited until I had rung the doorbell and the door was opened. Then immediately and discreetly, Mr. Deardon ordered the cabby to drive on.
The door was opened by Mr. Dolland.
I gave a cry of joy and threw myself into his arms. He coughed a little. I did not realize at that moment that our household had changed. And there was Mrs. Harlow. I rushed at her. There were tears in her eyes.
“Oh, Miss Rosetta, Miss Rosetta,” she cried, embracing me.
“You’re really here. Oh … it’s been terrible.”
And there were Meg and Emily.
“It is wonderful to see you all,” I cried.
And then . Felicity. We flew to each other and clung.
“I had to come,” she said.
“I’m here for two days. I said to James, ” I’ve got to go. “
“Felicity! Felicity! How wonderful to see you,” There was a little cough. Over Felicity’s head I saw my father. He looked awkward and embarrassed.
I went to him.
“Oh, Father,” I said.
He took me into his arms and held me rather stiffly. It must have been the first time he had ever done so.
“Welcome … welcome home, Rosetta,” he began.
“I cannot express .. “
I thought then: He does care for me. He does. It is just that . he cannot express.
A tall thin woman was standing a pace or two behind him. For half a second I thought my mother had been saved after all. But it was someone else.
“Your Aunt Maud is here,” said my father.
“She came to look after me and the household when …”
Aunt Maud! My father’s sister. I had seen her only once or twice during my childhood. She was tall and rather gaunt. She had a look of my father, but she entirely lacked his obvious helplessness.
“We are all tremendously relieved that you are now safely home, Rosetta,” she was saying.
“It has been an anxious time for your father for us all.”
“Yes,” I said, “for all of us.”
“Well, now you are back. Your room is ready. Oh, it is such a relief that you are home!”
I felt numb with surprise.
Aunt Maud here . in my mother’s place. Nothing would be the same again.
How right I was. The house had changed. Aunt Maud had proved to be a strict disciplinarian. The kitchen was now orderly. There was no question of my having meals there. I should have them with my father and Aunt Maud in the proper manner. Fortunately, for those first few days Felicity was with us.
I could not wait to hear the verdict of the kitchen. Mr. Dolland discreetly said that Miss Cranleigh was a good manager and no one could help but respect her. Mrs. Harlow agreed.
“Things were not really run right in the old days,” she said.
“Mind you, Mr. Dolland worked wonders but there ought to be either a master or a mistress in a house and a mistress is better because she knows what’s what.”
So Aunt Maud apparently knew what was what; but the old unconventional house had disappeared and I desperately longed to catch the old flavour.
Mr. Dolland still did the occasional ‘turn’, but The Bells had lost their horror for me. Having passed through some horrific adventures myself, I could no longer get a thrill out of the murder of the Polish Jew. Meg and Emily regretted the old days; but one thing I could rejoice in was the fact that some of those who had shared them were still here.
Meals were naturally different. Everything had to be served in the correct manner. The conversation was no longer dominated by ancient finds and the translation from some piece of papyrus. Aunt Maud discussed politics and the weather; and she told me that when my father had got over mourning for my mother, she proposed to give a few dinner parties . for his colleagues from the Museum . professors and suchlike.
I was glad Felicity was with us for these first days, apart from my joy in seeing her. I knew that if she had not been there I should have wanted to shut myself away in my bedroom and avoid those interminable meals. But Felicity did lighten the conversation with amusing stories about life in Oxford and the exploits of her son Jamie, now aged three, and little Flora who was not yet one.
“You must come and see them, Rosetta,” she said.
“I am sure your father will spare you after a while. Now, of course, you have just come home …”
“Of course, of course,” said my father.
I could talk more freely to Felicity and I needed to talk. But I must do so guardedly even to her. It was very difficult to speak of my adventures because Simon had played such an important part in them and the fact that I must not betray him made me very reticent, lest by some odd remark I might do so.
But Felicity and I had been so close and she guessed something was on my mind.
On the day after my arrival she came to my room. It was clear to me that, sensing some problem, she wanted to help me with it. If only someone could do that!
She burst out suddenly: “Tell me frankly, Rosetta. Do you want to talk? I know how difficult it must be to discuss what has happened. Do say if it is. B.ut I think it might help …”
I hesitated.
“I’m not sure …”
“I understand. It must have been very frightening. Your father told us how you were lost when you went back for his notes.”
“Oh yes. It’s strange how little things like that can change one’s life.”
“He blames himself, Rosetta. I know he doesn’t betray his emotions .. but that does not mean they are not there.”
“Everything is so different now,” I said.
“The house … everything.
I know it can never again be as it used to. “
“It really is a very good thing that your Aunt Maud is here, Rosetta.”
“We never saw much of her when I was young. I scarcely recognized her.
It seems so strange that she should be here now. “
“I gathered she and your mother did not get on. That’s easy to understand. They were so different. Your parents were so immersed in their work and … your aunt is so efficient in running a house.”
I gave her a wry smile.
“I liked ours as it was … inefficient.”
“Your father misses your mother … terribly. They were so close in everything they did … always together. It is a sad blow for him.
He cannot. “
“Cannot express,” I said.
She nodded.
“And you, Rosetta, when you feel more settled you must come and stay with us. James would be delighted and you would love the children. Jamie is a very independent young gentleman and Flora is just beginning to toddle. They are adorable.”
“It would be lovely to come.”
“You have only to say. I shall have to go back the day after tomorrow.
But I had to be here for your’re turn. “
“How glad I am that you were!”
“By the way, did you hear about Lucas Lorimer?”
“Lucas … no!”
“Oh … didn’t you? I suppose you wouldn’t. He came back, you know.”
“He came back …” I repeated.
