and the concept of substance.
And the
...was that Harry could think about other things while he was doing it.
Somehow his thoughts had managed to not go there, to not confront the obvious, until he was faced with the prospect of
What Harry was about to do...
...was dangerous.
Really dangerous.
Someone-might-actually-genuinely-get-killed dangerous.
Facing down twelve Dementors without a Patronus Charm had been
This was different.
The Transfigured Muggle device could explode and kill them.
The interface between the technology and the magic could fail in any number of ways and kill them.
The Aurors could get in a lucky shot.
It was just, well...
Harry had caught his mind trying to argue itself into believing that it was safe.
And sure, the whole thing
But even leaving out that rationalists weren't ever allowed to argue themselves into things, Harry knew he couldn't possibly have argued himself into estimating less than a 20% probability of dying.
He should just go find Dumbledore and turn himself in. He should, he really really should, it was the only
And if it'd been only Harry on the mission, only his own life that'd been at stake, he would have; he surely would have.
The part that was almost causing him to lose his concentration on the partial Transfiguration he was performing, the part that was threatening to open him to the Dementors...
...was Professor Quirrell, still unconscious, still a snake.
If Professor Quirrell went to Azkaban for his part in the escape, he would die. He probably wouldn't last even a week. He was that sensitive.
It was that simple.
If Harry
He lost Professor Quirrell.
It wasn't a decision that Harry had made in any conscious way. He just couldn't do it. Losing was for House points, not
The logical side of him noted that Slytherin had just won the argument.
Harry kept the Form in his mind, kept on casting the spell. He could always just abort the mission when he was
And then Harry thought of something else that suddenly made it very hard to keep the magic going, very hard to keep up his resistance to the Dementors.
It was obvious in retrospect the moment he thought about it.
Even if the planned escape went completely right, even if the Muggle device worked and