when there’s a young lady’s tongue in your ear.”
“Don’t be disgusting!” Emma said.
“I couldn’t ignore the Feeling if I wanted to,” I said, though I did wish I could ignore the icky feeling that Enoch was jealous of me.
“So, tell me about your secret meeting,” Enoch said. “Did the Gypsies really protect us because of some dusty old alliance none of us have heard of?”
“The leader and his wife have a peculiar son,” said Emma. “They hoped we could help him.”
“That’s madness,” said Enoch. “They nearly let themselves be filleted alive by those soldiers for the sake of one boy? Talk about emotion clouding vision! I figured they wanted to enslave us for our abilities, or at the very least sell us at auction—but then I’m always overestimating people.”
“Oh, go find a dead animal to play with,” said Emma.
“I’ll never understand ninety-nine percent of humanity,” said Enoch, and he went away shaking his head.
“Sometimes I think that boy is part machine,” Emma said. “Flesh on the outside, metal on the inside.”
I laughed, but secretly I wondered if Enoch was right.
Easy—I’d be at home, medicating myself into a monotone. Drowning my sorrows in video games. Working shifts at Smart Aid. Dying inside, day by day, from regret.
But I hadn’t. In reaching toward Emma, I’d risked everything—was risking it again, every day—but in doing so I had grasped and pulled myself into a world once unimaginable to me, where I lived among people who were more alive than anyone I’d known, did things I’d never dreamed I could do, survived things I’d never dreamed I could survive. All because I’d let myself feel something for one peculiar girl.
Despite all the trouble and danger we found ourselves in, and despite the fact that this strange new world had started to crumble the moment I’d discovered it, I was profoundly glad I was here. Despite everything, this peculiar life was what I’d always wanted. Strange, I thought, how you can be living your dreams and your nightmares at the very same time.
“What is it?” Emma said. “You’re staring at me.”
“I wanted to thank you,” I said.
