caffeine, and I had to keep from grinning to myself so the locals wouldn't think they had a raving lunatic in their midst.
Ten pages later, I sighed. It was the most boring diary I'd ever seen. Oh sure, there were things in it that were telling. She recorded every single thing she ate, complete with calorie content. She also wrote down whenever anyone said anything about her weight, good or bad. I remembered wondering what her last meal had been before she was killed; now I tried and couldn't remember ever seeing her eat. Maybe she hadn't had a last meal at all.
She also kept track of things that the other students did and said at school, musing on the reactions they engendered in other people. It was as if she were creating a roadmap of behavior, with a particular effect as the goal. Her writing voice was cold, almost mercenary. As I read on I was struck by the lack of information about Ariel's own feelings, which I found odd given the usual teenaged girl's abundance of angst about everything from a broken fingernail to world hunger.
I munched and sipped and read on, skimming a lot of the content. But when I reached the final entry, I swallowed and slowly returned my cup to the table.
Today I lost a button on my shirt, and I caught Mr. Blankenship looking at the side of my boob. At first I was embar rassed, but then he seemed more embarrassed than me. So I let him do it some more. He didn't turn away. He kept looking. And that was when I realized that all those girls with the fancy clothes and snotty attitudes weren't going to get their way. They're too scary. But if you're not scary, if you smile and are nice to men, they start getting all stupid and let you do anything. I read once boys think about sex every seventeen seconds and that men think about it almost that much. When Mr. Blankenship was looking down my shirt I finally got it. And now I'm going to get whatever I want.
The rest of the pages in the book were torn out. A part of me was glad I couldn't read them. I sat and looked out the window at the tourist traffic beginning to parade down the street outside of the bakery. Sadness mingled with distaste as I digested what Ariel had written about the discovery of her sexual power.
It could be a dangerous thing, to intentionally manipulate with that power. I hoped it hadn't burned her, as she apparently brandished it, no doubt awkwardly, in her teen years.
And then later? As a young woman, somewhat more refined and practiced? Had it been the reason she'd been murdered?
TWENTY
THINGS HAD CERTAINLY BECOME complicated, I mused as I maneuvered along the country lanes leading back to the interstate. Had Ariel killed Scott Popper? I mean, she was the murder victim, right? It was ridiculous to think that she might have actually killed a policeman.
Even if she'd somehow caused his car crash, what good did knowing that do? As Gabi had pointed out, it hardly mattered what Ariel might have once done, now that she was dead.
Unless… did Chris Popper know more about her husband's death than she had let on? Did she think Ariel killed him? That could be a significantly stronger motive than an affair.
But no matter how strong the motive, Chris had an alibi. My brain hurt. Nothing was making any sense. Instead of having too little information, I suddenly had more than I could fit together, as if someone had added a few extra pieces from another box to the jigsaw puzzle.
I opened my window and inhaled the morning breeze. A high haze of cloud cover cast a veil between the sharp summer sunlight and the verdant greenery below. Soon it would burn off, and the ambient temperature would again begin to rise. Above, hawks circled and dove, hunting the small things that crept in the fields on either side of the county road.
Ahead, a sign warned that I was approaching a four-way stop. Bowers Road.
The road Ariel's high school friend lived on.
I sighed. Even if there were a few sections from another puzzle box thrown in, I obviously didn't have all the pieces of the original jigsaw, either. However much I wanted to return to my own happy home, how could I resist making this slight detour? I tossed a mental coin and turned west. Three miles later, I turned around and went back, crossing my original path and tried east. I had no idea what Lindsey Drucker's address was, or even whether her name was still the same; Gabi had said she was married. This was a stupid way to try and find her.
Almost ready to turn around again and give up, I saw it: Drucker & Sandstrom. The names were spelled out in reflective letters on the mailbox in front of a sprawling, single-level house painted dark green with wine-colored trim. A long, low barn surrounded by a series of paddocks and pasture indicated that they kept livestock, but I didn't see any horses or cows. Then the driveway curved, and I saw alpacas clustered and dotting one of the large fields. Recently sheared, they looked like teddy bears crossed with oversized poodles. There must have been a hundred of them, in shades varying from cream to brown, with a few gray and black ones thrown in.
The woman who answered the door had short red hair and wore navy shorts with a plain white cotton T-shirt. The expectant look on her smooth tan face invited me to introduce myself.
'Hi. Are you Lindsey Drucker?' I asked.
'Yes'
'I'm Sophie Mae Reynolds. I knew Ariel Skylark.'
She tipped her head to one side, considering. 'I see.' Without another word she stepped back and opened the door for me.
Inside, sunlight streamed through the windows that made up the back wall of the main living space, and through a large skylight overhead. At least I thought it was the main living space, because it looked more like an artist's studio. A huge loom dominated one side of the room, with an elaborate rug in progress. The interlocking geometric design in red, cream and light brown was reminiscent of traditional Native American art, but somehow possessed a modern flair. Three easels took up the other half of the room, each displaying a landscape painting in a different stage of completion.
'Coffee?' Lindsey asked.
I shook my head. 'I'm full up. Thanks, though.' I walked over to the loom. 'Are you the weaver?'
'I am.' Her voice was deep, confident, her manner easy and unhurried.
'And the alpacas?'
'I raise them for wool and sell them for breeding.'
Gabi had mentioned that she could get sheep and alpaca wool locally. Lindsey was probably one of her sources.
'My husband's the painter,' she said. 'He's out of town at a gallery show right now.'
'It practically vibrates with creativity in here.'
She smiled. And waited.
'I understand you were a good friend of Ariel's,' I said, wondering what this self-possessed woman had in common with Arieland what Ariel got out of it. 'I'm very sorry for your loss.'
'Thank you.' Sad about her friend's death, certainly, but not grief stricken. Serene. But how could I presume to know how she expressed sorrow?
She looked down, her face suddenly pinched. 'We all have to go eventually, but no one deserves to die like that. The venom, the hatred behind such an act of violence. It's inconceivable.'
And yet, inconceivable as it was, this was the third time I'd been involved in a murder in our little town. A woman could get a real complex about something like that.
'Everything all right?' Lindsey's concerned voice brought me back to earth.
I shook my head. 'I find what happened to her upsetting, too.' I'd started feeling downright sorry for myself there for a second. 'Had you known Ariel for a long time?'
She took a sip of her coffee and considered me. 'How did you know I knew her at all? Did she mention me?'
'Um, no. Her sister-in-law did, though. I was there last night.'
'You stayed the night at the Kaminskis?'
I nodded.
'Friend of the family?' Obvious intelligence shone from her eyes. No way I'd get away with lying to her.
'Not exactly.' I took a deep breath. 'Ariel and I belong… belonged to the same artists' co-op. I drove up with her paintings, to give to her brother. One thing led to another, mostly because Gabi and I hit it off and have a common interest in spinning. I ended up staying the night. She mentioned you and Ariel were friends in high school, and what road you lived on, and when I was driving by on the way home, I sort of…' I trailed off, lame as could be.
She squinted. 'I guess I still don't quite understand why you're here.'
Why indeed? 'Um. Well, I keep finding out things about Ariel that I hadn't known before. I thought you might be able to tell me more.
'You're simply curious, then.'
I grimaced.
Lindsey laughed, which disconcerted me further. 'It's okay. Ariel was an odd little thing.'
'But you were friends.'
'In high school. Since then it had devolved to exchanging Christmas cards. At least most of the time. Once in awhile she still called when she needed to.'
Something about the way she said that. 'When she needed to?'
Lindsey inclined her head a fraction, holding my gaze.
'And when,' I pushed, 'was that?'
She looked speculative then seemed to make a decision. 'When she started to fall back into her old habits.'
This time I was the one who waited.
