watched her, that it was he who would end it, and soon.
It had been a month. Only a month, he thought, dragging a hand through his hair. How had she managed to turn his life upside down in a matter of weeks? Despite all his resolutions, all his plans to the contrary, he'd fallen in love with her. That only made it worse. Loving, he wanted to give her all those pretty, unrealistic promises. Marriage, family, a lifetime. Years of shared days and nights. But all he could give her was disappointment.
It was best, really for the best, that Denver was only two weeks away. Even now the wheels were turning that would keep him at the office and in meetings more and at home less. In twelve days he would get on a plane and head west, away from her. Nathan had come to understand that if he didn't love her, if it were only need now, he might be tempted to make those promises to keep her there.
She deserved better. Despite both of them, he was going to make sure she didn't settle for less.
But there were twelve days left.
Quietly he moved toward her. When her fingers stilled again, he laid his hands on her shoulders. Jackie came off the chair with a yelp.
'I'm sorry,' he said, but he had to laugh. 'I didn't mean to startle you.'
'You didn't. You scared me out of my skin.' She sank back into the chair with a hand to her heart. 'What are you doing home so early?'
'I'm not. It's after six.'
'Oh. No wonder my back feels like it belongs to an eighty-year-old weight lifter.'
He began to massage her shoulders. That, too, was something he'd learned from her. 'How long have you been at it?'
'I don't know. Lost track. Right there… Mmmm.' Sighing her approval, she shifted under his hands. 'I was going to set an alarm or something after Mrs. Grange left, but Burt Donley rode into town, and I forgot.'
'Burt Donley?'
'The cold-blooded hired hand of Samuel Carlson.'
'Oh, of course, Burt.'
Chuckling, she looked over her shoulder. 'Burt murdered Sarah's father, at Carlson's bidding. He and Jake have unfinished business from Laramie. That's when Burt gunned down Jake's best friend-in the back, of course.'
'Of course.'
'And how was your day?'
'Not as exciting. No major shootouts or encounters with loose women.'
'Lucky for you I happen to be feeling very loose.' She rose, sliding her body up his until her arms were linked around his neck. 'Why don't I go see what I can mix together for dinner? Then we'll talk about it.'
'Jack, you don't have to cook for me every night.'
'We made a deal.'
He stilled her mouth with a kiss, a longer and more intense one than he'd realized he needed. When he drew away, her eyes had that soft, unfocused look he'd come to love. 'I'd say all those bets were off. Wouldn't you?'
'I don't mind cooking for you, Nathan.'
'I know.' She could have no idea how such a simple statement humbled him. 'But I'd guess of the two of us you've had the tougher day.' He drew her closer, wanting to smell her hair, brush his lips over her temple. He was hardly aware that his hands had slipped under her shirt just to stroke the long line of her back. 'I'd offer to go down and throw something together, but I doubt you'd be able to eat it. Over the past few weeks I've learned my cooking's not just bad, it's embarrassing.'
'We could send out for pizza.'
'An excellent idea.' He drew her toward the bed. 'In an hour.'
'An even better idea,' she murmured, and melted into him.
Later, much later, after the sun had set and the cicadas had started their serenade, they sat on the patio, an empty carton between them and wine growing warm in glasses. The silence between them had stretched out, long and comfortable. Lovemaking and food had left them content. There was an ease between that usually came only from years of friendship or from complete understanding.
The moon was round and white and generous with its light. With her legs stretched out and her eyes half closed, Jackie decided she could happily stay where she was for hours. It could be like this, just like this, she thought, for the rest of her life.
'You know, Nathan, I've been thinking.'
'Hmm?' He stirred himself enough to look at her. Moonlight did something special to her skin, to her eyes. Though he knew he would remember her best in the sunlight, with energy vibrating through her, there would be times when he would need a memory like this-of Jackie, almost bonelessly relaxed, in the light of a full moon.
'Are you listening?'
'No, I'm looking. There are times you are incredibly lovely.'
She smiled, almost shyly, then reached out to take his hands. 'Keep that up and I won't be able to think at all.'
'Is that all it takes?'
'Do you want to hear my idea or not?'
'I'm never sure if I want to hear your ideas.'
'This is a good one. I think we should have a party.'
'A party?'
'Yes, you know what a party is, Nathan. A social gathering, often including music, food, drink and a group of people brought together for entertainment purposes.'
'I've heard of them.'
'Then we've passed the first hurdle.' She kissed his hand, but he could tell that her mind was already leaping forward. 'You've been back from Europe for weeks now and you haven't seen any of your friends. You do have friends, don't you?'
'One or two.'
'There we go, over the second hurdle.' Lazily she stretched out her legs, rubbing the arch of her foot over his calf. 'As a businessman and a pillar of the community-I'm sure you're a pillar of the community-it's practically your obligation to entertain.'
He lifted a brow. 'I've never been much of a pillar, Jack.'
'That's where you're wrong. Anyone who wears a suit the way you do is an absolute pillar.' She grinned at him, knowing she'd ruffled his feathers. 'A man of distinction, that's you, darling. A tower of strength and conservatism. A dyed-in-the-wool Republican.'
'How do you know I'm a Republican?'
Her smile became sympathetic. 'Please, Nathan, let's not debate the obvious. Have you ever owned a foreign car?'
'I don't see what that has to do with it.'
'Never mind, your politics are entirely your affair.' She patted his hand. 'Myself, I'm a political agnostic. I'm not entirely convinced they exist. But we're getting off the subject.'
'What else is new?'
'Let's talk party, Nathan.' As she spoke, she leaned closer, enthusiasm already bubbling. 'You've got those fat little address books at every phone in the house. I'm sure out of them you could find enough convivial bodies to make up a party.'
'Convivial bodies?'
'A party's nothing without them. It doesn't have to be elaborate-just a couple dozen people, some nice little canapes and an air of good cheer. It could be a combination welcome-home and bon-voyage party for you.'
He glanced over sharply at that. Her eyes were steady and a great deal more serious than her words. So, she was thinking about Denver, too. It was like her not to have mentioned it directly or to have asked questions. His fingers tightened on hers. 'When did you have in mind?'
She could smile again. Now that his leaving had been brought up and acknowledged, she could push it firmly to the back of her mind. 'How about next week?'
